Loonie Toon

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a little something from my insta

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how is it that i try and try and still fail so fucking hard. like thats so funny im actually crying like what kind of fucking loser just fails at everyhting lmao your work is late and it hasnt even been 2 fuul weeks,, that sucks cause you have 175 days of failure to go and i cant wait to watch the dumper fire from the cockpit

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so like i always see people hating trans women but like never trans men which sucks cause i worked hard, but then i remember that im also black and gay and poor so i do get shit on a lot already

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Sonic GH!AU stupid conversations on the way to "work"

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this is the content i signed up for when i left gravity falls and joined sonic

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I don't think you understand how much you piss me off

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sona art ig

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how can someone make knots twist in your stomach when they aren't even there?

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I dont really have a super creative way to put this so; hearing my ex friends openly misgender me not even a week after we stopped being friends was a new sort of humbling experience that made me feel like all my organs were hollowed out from my chest. just means they never took me seriously in the first place even though its been almost 3 solid years since i came out to them and to hear someone you've known and trusted for that long disrepect you in that way just hurts man idk how else to put it,, like bro i didnt talk any shit so why cant you do the same

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You will not use AI to get ideas for your story. You will lie on the floor and have wretched visions like god intended

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when ru finally gonna admit that you want me

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oh what the writing gods has in store for me;

step 1: wizard of oz step 2: the hell do i do with that idea? (i have more but no one ever wants to read long tumblr posts)

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People always say im a great writer but im literally just fucking sad.

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Answer 2

Of course i could be pissed about it. I mean he is a dead beat, bastard, whatever you could say to a man that would hurt his feelings. But i'm not that kind of person. I dont have that anger, I mean im bitter about it most days, it's something that just lingers in my mind whether i like it or not but i can't let it be the only thing i worry about. aside from all the internal shit its also the external. In public i see genuine happy families, dads taking their kids out, my friends parents giving them hugs being they left, my brothers and their dad laughing and joking together. Everyday its like i wake up and go through my life being reminded of how much i wasn't wanted.

But i cant think like that because this feeling will eat me alive if i do.

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Answer.

Is it possible to miss someone who was never there in the first place? Most are able to feel indifferent about only having one parent, or at least they make it seem that way. But i cant do that. It hurts too much. I feel so unwanted. What was so wrong with me that he didn't want to stay? but he could stay for his other kids? I can't thing like that though. I can't even express how much it hurts without every fucking thing being turned into a joke. It feels like i was abandoned for someone or something better. Would thing have been different with him? but i can't say that i wish things would be changed, I did it, im here and i've made it this long without him, I have my family, my brothers, my art. I'm working hard but fuck it just never feels good enough. Why was i so hard to love from the day i was conceived?

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scp 001 - lily's proposal

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I stand outside, a sense of overwhelming peace washing over me as colorful flora spread across the earth. I'm at home right now, my neighborhood is filled with parents and kids a like outside. Their faces were happy, in fact everyone was happy, I was happy. Even now, during something like this I can't help but think of her. Elane. She'd love these flowers.

Even though we ended badly i still can't help but enjoy how kind she was to me and our time together, the memories of her fill me with nothing but warmth. I wonder if shes thinking about me too right now. I can't help but feel a little selfish for hoping that after how things ended.

I was hard to love, a problem child, violent, angry, scared. But she loved me anyways, even if I hurt to love she tried her hardest not to let me go. In the end I could see that was her downfall, It took too much out of her to keep loving someone like me, it was a lot to put anyone through.

I take a deep breath and feel the clear air fill my lungs as I go to sit down, the soft petals grazing my legs. Unlike those around me, I lived alone. No friends or family to share this beautiful moment with, at least not anymore. But thats okay. I shrugged, lighting my last cigarette as i watched the flash of white devour the entrance of my neighborhood.

I didn't run, in fact no one did. We all just sat and watched.

The wall of light grew closer to me at a quick pace and a string of fear tugged at my heart as i put my cigarette out but i knew this was a good way to go. I think everyone dies with regrets but in the end, I think i did okay.

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it just be like that I guess