Writings on the Moon

Just a place where I can come to share my thoughts, writings, and other things I find enjoyable.

[moon-writings]

지나간 시간이 그리우면

그 시간이 좋아서 돌아가고싶고 다시 한번 살고 싶은건지 

아니면

그 시간이 후회돼서 지금의 내가 싫어서 다시 새로 살고 싶은건지

지나간 시간에 다시 한번 갇혀진다.

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우리는 하나라는 숫자를 위해 살아간다.

한 학교를 다니기 위해서 한 직장을 다니기 위해서 진정한 친구 한명만 있으면 사랑하는 한 연인만 있으면 지나가고 놓친 기회가 한번만 다시 돌아온다면.

이 하나를 위해서 하나에 더 가까워지도록 우리는 선택을 한다.

이 하나를 놓치는 순간 실망 분노 후회가 그 자리에 남기 때문이다.

한번있는 인생은 이 멀리있고 힘든 하나를 위해서 다시는 놓치지 않기 위해서 오늘 하루를 살아간다.

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온전히 영원히 여전히 그대를 사랑합니다. 

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넌 같은 마음이 아니라는건 알아 내가 혼자 좋아한다는걸 알아 어떻게 해달라는건 아니야 내 마음을 알아 달라는 거 나를 사랑해달라는 것도 아니야 내 마음을 알아 도 모른척 해줘 볼때마다 아무 일 없듯이 해줘 그냥 지금 이대로 나 혼자서라도 간직하고 있을테니까 사랑하고 있을테니까

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근처에 있는 카페를 가서 아무 생각없이 기대없이 조용히 혼자 있고 싶은 마음에 구석에 아무도 없는 자리에 조용히 내 자리를 찾아서 흘러가는 하루를 구경했어 반복되는 어제같은 오늘은 아무 일 없듯이 다음날로 흘러가고 아무리 헤엄쳐도 빠져나갈 수 없네 하늘만 바라보며 떠내려가는 나는 둥둥 떠있으며 올라오는 생각 나를 구해 줄 사람 아무 없나 아니면 난 이렇게 그냥 가는건가 누구를 탓하지도 않고 원망하지도 않지만 이렇게 지나가는 것은 억울 해 어디서 부터 잘 못 된걸까 이게 내 잘못인건가 이런 생각에 잠겨있으면 나도 모르게 숨 막히네 그러며 오늘은 살겠다고 다시 한번 발버둥 치네 그래야 버티니까 그래야 사니까 난 살고 싶으니까

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It's funny how life works You're focused on your career With no thought of pursuing love Then all of a sudden A stranger walks into your life You've never seen her before You don't know what she sounds like You don't even know her name All you have is the moment you saw her And that's all it takes Maybe it's love maybe it's infatuation But she is all you think of You remember her smile that stole your glance The eyes that you got lost in The waves of her hair And you just can't help but wonder What is her name Where is she from What does she do What does she like And you just can't help but hope That perhaps she saw you as well That perhaps she is also thinking of you And you come to realize That at the end of all of theses thoughts There remains the biggest question Will I ever see her again

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When this night passes We'll have to say goodbye It's only for a brief moment But it will feel like a lifetime Even if it's just tonight It will feel like forever The universe is created and destroyed In the time that this night will pass And I'll be waiting for the morning sunrise And for this night to pass When the morning comes I'll be waiting for you Time will come to a standstill The universe will become silent All to hear just a simple greeting And a "good morning" is all I need For the world to turn and life to resume And so I'll be waiting to hear your voice So that the universe can continue And for me to fall in love all over again

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I will become your shoes You can put me on and go anywhere Through the forest and the desert Through the calm and the storm Over rocks and over mud I will cover you from all these But promise me just one thing That you'll take me where ever you go

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You were just a drop in my ocean And I wasn't aware of the ripples The small rings that would expand Seemingly endlessly But I was so fascinated As the ripples became bigger And covered more of my ocean And it grew seemingly endlessly Until you became a wave Then like a storm you tore through my ocean And flipped me inside and out And seemingly endlessly I wait for my storm

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I want to believe with all my heart That there is good within everyone Though it may be easier to choose evil That there are those who will choose good And it is they who make the world go around Though they may not be recognized We know that you are out there And you are the real hero that we need

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We need to come to terms with life. We have an expectancy that life will treat each of equally. We believe that life will be fair. We've come to accept that life can be difficult, but we keep telling ourselves that everything will get better. And yet, the question of the day is, what if it doesn't? I don't know where this notion of fairness or improvement in life came from, but we were never promised these things. We were never promised that life would be fair. We were never promised that when bad things happen, good things will also happen. We need to accept this, so that we can start working on it. We can't expect things to get better on its own. We have to work for it. We can't expect life to treat all of us fairly and equally. We need to work for it. We are not entitled to anything nor are we promised anything. We are what we work for. No more no less. We need to come to terms with life.

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I don't ask that you understand me I don't ask that you solve this for me I don't even ask that you sympathise with me All I ask is that you hear me.

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You can't see a person's face when you give a hug. You assume that things are okay because you received a hug. Yet, that hug could be the greatest lie ever told. A hug can cover the face of someone saying their last goodbye. It can cover the face of a broken heart. It can cover the face of lost hope. It can be used to hide the most difficult and heartbreaking moment of a person's life. Do not trust every hug as it hides your faces.

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I never thought this day would come The day when I would walk alone And you are not here beside me I stare at the open sky And I just can't help but wonder Where you are under the same sky If you are moving like the clouds Or if you are lost like endless blue Until now I never knew How endless the sky could be And like the sky, my hurting could be Though we're under the same sky We are still so far apart Being under the same sky Is the closest I can get to you now And hope that you're also looking at the same sky

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If we were younger Would it be different? If we weren't meant to be Would we still have started? If we knew it would be like this Would we regret it? If more time passed by Would it get better? If we met someone new Could we forget about us? If we really loved each other Could we really walk away? If you feel the same way Can we start again? If you and I could be we If you and I could be us If... What if...

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All my life all I ever wanted was to grow up. I thought about what life would be like once I finished school and began to work. I wondered what life would be like once I finally became an adult, an active member of society. In order to become the adult that I have for so long wanted to be, I worked hard to finish school and I've worked hard at my job. I was making money, and I was beginning my career. All of a sudden, I had become an adult. Yet, while I was so busy growing up, I never realized my parents were growing old. My father who was so big; I never realized how small he had gotten. My mother who was so strong; I never realized how frail she had gotten. In the time that took for me to become an adult, my parents had made unmeasureable sacrifices. I always planned to help my parents once I became an adult. I always planned to make my parents happy once I grew up. I always planned to take care of my parents once I had my place in society. Yet, although I became an adult, little did I know of the state my parents were in. Today, I understand that I didn't need to be an adult to make my parents happy. I didn't need to grow up or have my place in society to take care of my parents or to help. All they ever wanted was to watch me continue to grow up. Today, I realized I may be an adult by age, but I have much growing up to do. I now understand that a part of growing up is growing old together with your loved ones instead of growing old alone.

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어장관리

평생을 사랑할 수 있는 그녀를 만났어 두려운 마음으로 난 고백했어 받아주지 않았지만 한번 만나기로 했어 첫 데이트 날짜를 약속하고 생일을 기다리는 아이 처럼 난 긴장했고 길고 긴 하루하루를 보내다 그 날이 다가왔고 기다리다 기다렸던 햇빛을 만났고 들떠있는 난 오늘을 위한 준비를 했어 Hair? Check. Clothes? Check. 부담없이 좋은 향수? Check.  시계만 보며 긴장한 난 문자를 보냈지만 생각지도 못한 답장을 받았어 “미안. 갑자기 일이 생겼어. 우리 오늘 못 만날것 같아 우리 다음에 만나.” 이렇게 시작됐어 나의 어장관리녀 그 누구보다 달콤하고 짜릿 했어 나를 설레게 만들다 날 미치게 했어 친구들보다 더 편하데 그런데 아직 남자 사귈 생각은 없대 사막에 물만난 물고기 처럼 난 어장에서 나올 수 없었어 우린 어떤 사이인지 난 모르겠어 연인 아닌 친구 친구 아닌 연인 내가 문자하면 답없는 그녀 그러다 몇 시간 후에 답장하는 그녀 “바빠서 문자를 못봤어.“ 하트를 날리며 미안하다 하면 나도 모르게 괜찮다고 했어 어쩔땐 먼저 문자하는 그녀 까톡 소리에 난 하니보다 빨리 달려 지금 뭐하는지 오늘 바쁜지 오늘 자기와 만날 수 있는지 그런 문자에 난 우사인 볼트 보다 빨리 준비하며 마음 달래이며 그녀를 만나러 출발하게 됬지 그치만 아무리 만나도 아무 진행 없는 우리 이렇게 난 알게됐어 그녀는 어장관리녀 그 누구보다 달콤하고 짜릿 했어 나를 설레게 만들다 날 미치게 했어 친구들보다 더 편하데 그런데 아직 남자 사귈 생각은 없대 사막에 물만난 물고기였던 나는 어장에 갇혀있다는 걸 알게됐어 내꺼 같지만 가질 수 없는 그녀 더 확실해 지고 싶은 마음에 큰 마음먹고 난 고백 했어 그녀는 내가 좋다고 했어 하지만 친구로서 좋다고 했어 잃어버리고 싶지 않은 친구라고 했어 그래서 날 만날 수 없다고 답했어 차이고 나서 난 제정신이 들었어 지금까지 혼자 마음 고생했던 날들 어떤 시간이든지 문자에 달려갔던 날들 모두 그녀에게 무의미 했다는것을 이제야 난 알게됐어 난 결심했어 그렇게 난 그녀의 어장에서 나왔어 그런 나를 보며 반응없는 그녀는 아무 일 없듯이 혼자 떠났어 그렇게 난 탈출했어 나의 어장관리녀 그 누구보다 달콤하고 짜릿 했어 나를 설레게 만들다 날 미치게 했어 친구들보다 더 편하데 그런데 아직 남자 사귈 생각은 없대 사막에 물만난 물고기라고 믿었던 나는 어장을 탈출해보니 바다를 보게 되었어