Fueled By Fear And Friendship

i shared my other blog with people i know irl and now i cant post there :(

[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

i think im demiromantic and it actually- i am worried i will never be able to be in love with someone who will love me back.

[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

I am often instinctually a very judgmental person who seeks moral purity in the media I consume and create. And I'm fairly certain its because growing up I didn't talk to real people, like at all. I just scrolled through tumblr and reddit and twitter and pinterest. And the world felt like a pinball machine where you were either Good or you were Bad. and I was 13 so I already felt like I was inherently evil, and I really didn't want to be Bad.

and now there is like an evil reactionary demon in my brain and I can't really explain this to people who weren't On the Internet Instead of Talking with Real People growing up.

[some-zer0]

Relistening to W359 and just got to episode 11 so I felt like I had to make this

[thefaultinourchickennuggets]

the bad thing about having unhealthy habits due to mental illness, is when you DO do something healthy style you can't brag about about it because then people will then know you've been doing it yucky style all along. Like you can't brag you changed your sheets or brushed your teeth because then ppl will be like oh did you not brush your teeth regularly before? Thats yucky disgusting! So you just gotta keep it to yourself. And be proud alone, I suppose.

[garaks-gay-garderobe]

ok so I read the manga.........

[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

Somehow Eva gets sent to space and she’s the one to find Simon. And he doesn’t trust her and she doesn’t trust him. And she’s dealing with a sort of post-saving the world crisis. And he’s dealing with learning the world isn’t over. And she committed the exact crime that was committed against him. Does she tell him? Does she use him? Does it change how she feels about what she did to Grace? Does she feel like he’s a second chance?

[ceruleana]

oh damn it also only clicked with me now. Rocky insisting on giving Grace the astrophage fuel to get home, actually saves fucking,,, everyone. Like that one act of kindness, that one insistence of "no I will not let my friend die like this". "I could not save my crew but I sure as hell will save you." and that changes everything. this movie makes me unwelllllll

[ceruleana]

Like. Rocky gives Grace to fuel to go home, at the cost of reaching Erid 6 years slower. So, Grace starts the journey back with the samples, instead of just sending them back on drones and waiting to die - crucially, this allows him to realise that the samples are escaping their containers (and destroying/eating his fuel). If he had just sent the samples back in the drones by themselves, before containing them in something else, who knows if they would have reached earth intact. Grace would never have known that both missions have failed, leaving both him and Rocky to die alone in their respective ships.

Instead. Because Rocky gave that fuel to Grace, Grace can safely send the samples to Earth, return to Rocky, save him from the contamination of the samples (and the radiation goddammit), therefore also saving all of Eridian. Just because Rocky was like fuck you, you're going home. wow.

[tparadox]

Saw someone say Midnight Burger isn't as popular as it should be and had to remind myself my experience is not "mainstream".

[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

iwtv season 2 is so beautiful bc it is at its core, about divorce, and divorce is beautiful.

[ace-trainer-alice]

Really one of the coolest things ever is how easily you can shape your non-volitional responses by choosing to respond in a certain way.

Like, if right now you don't make any noises in response to sexual stimuli or pain or whatever, that's fine. I imagine you might even have some trauma to work through. An environment you needed to be quiet in, a belief the sounds you did make were inappropriate, or some other taboo against noise.

But, you can change yourself. Rather easily, too. Just start making the noises you wish you made. It'll feel silly at first. Well, maybe it'll feel hot at first, too. I highly recommend perceiving it as hot. But it'll feel performative in any case.

And if you keep going, it'll become automatic. You'll shortcut the process. You'll forget to notice the intent. Learn to use it and use it without thinking. And eventually you'll have to stop yourself from not using it.

Plenty of the time it's actively beneficial too. Helps with pain tolerance, and I'd expect other kinds of sensitivity too. You're a social animal, it's comfortable to perform a social component. It's useful to do so for just your own mind.

Also, like, loudly moaning is really hot.

[pollsforadults]

Spin the wheel. Now, imagine you're on a first date with someone who says they`re a [result]. How does this affect the odds of a second date?

100% guarantee I'll want a second date

It's significantly more likely

The odds don't change

It's significantly less likely

There wont be a second date. Absolutely not

Voting ended onJun 13

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[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

The repeated "this is not enough" during the end of episode 4, is like sort of really funny to me in its lack of subtlety.

I'm watching w subtitles so its like each shot is captioned.

Shane sleeping with Rose (this is not enough)

like thank you music pickers, I didn't know- i wasn't sure. I thought maybe he was just happy with her. I thought maybe Ilya was actually fulfilled in that shower.

[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

insane choice to have people call Ilya "Roz"and then to name Shane's girlfriend Rose.

[dragon-in-a-fez]

"you don't know what you have until you lose it" works for things that suck too btw. sometimes you need to experience life without something for a while to realise oh damn that was some bullshit

[vesperosy]

this tweet has been fucking killing me

[peachsodah]

that one gerard donelan comic

[motorizedblanketwithfeathers]

Talked with my mom about my weird-platonic-maybe-romantic-I-don’t-know-but-it’s-very-strong-sapphic-crush-thing and lowkey she was way more woke and understanding than I think a lot of my 20 something queer friends would be.