Chaos, Everywhere

•{29,she/her}•{fibromyalgia}•{ADHD}•{bipolar 2}•{cPTSD}• this is a place of healing and embracing the darker sides of life

[muddybutterfly]

you found my side blog, nice.

I use this page to cope with a lot of heavy shit in my life (see profile bio for what I’m taking about). I post about my mental and physical health and usually use #personal for those.

I reblog relatable stuff, resources, and art that reflects my inner world. I’ve been practicing witchcraft more so I’m probably gonna sprinkle that in more often. It helps me reclaim my power after religious trauma.

I do not mix my other accounts with this one. If you know who I am/are a moot, kindly respect this space for what it is. It’s basically a diary for deep shit, generally unrelated to my other internet personas.

[muddybutterfly]

Might fuck around and be weird today but first I want to spring-clean as much as I physically can. I need my spaces to be tidy so that I can be creatively free.

[muddybutterfly]

Oh damn ok so that's how mania is gonna sneak up on me, through communication anxiety. At least it's not something new.

[librarycard]

[thememedaddy]

[only-cat-memes]

[muddybutterfly]

Depression kindly fuck off thanks

[trendlory]

Otterly exhausted and ready for the weekend. BRB, floating until Monday 🦦 💤...

[mstgsmy66]

[muddybutterfly]

Flare up day two: fuck this shit.

It's not fair and it never is. It's the same damn song every time. Lots to do, lots I want and need to do, but every time I walk up the stairs I curse and groan and tell myself I need to lie down. I also can't find a craft supply and I've looked everywhere and now I'm fucking exhausted and out of commission for probably a minimum of 2 hours. All because I can't find the poly-fill for a birthday gift.

I'm tired. I'm in pain. I wish I had a different body (but I actually love my body despite it all). Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

[muddybutterfly]

Flared up and exhausted but proud that I've been putting in consistent effort in my life. I'm about 80% done moving bedrooms and the roommate is going to start bringing stuff over today. So much trash, so much to donate, and it's so freeing. I just hate that a flare up is happening, along with wavering depression symptoms.

Ah well, time to smoke a little and try to make the most of the day before the afternoon and evening plans.

Also it's only been a week since I made my crush blush and I get to see them twice this week. #blessed.

[remanence-of-love]

[anxietyproblem]

[orthoscheme]

supermarkets should have benches

[orthoscheme]

everywhere should have benches

[pollyanoid]

moderate to severe everything bagel with cream cheese

[seashellronan]

guys i’m so sorry to say this but exercising and indulging in hobbies rather than scrolling on your phone for 200 hours actually does improve your mood and overall mental health, this has deeply upset me more than anyone

[chronicillnesshumor-deactivated]