My Awful Personality

Social anxiety disorder. Generalized anxiety disorder. Panic disorder. Bipolar (ii with rapid cycling). Fun times! Feel free to talk to me here or my main blog laceandsuch (reminding you that no is defined by their disorder I only list it so maybe someone won't feel so alone in what they have)

[feaftlikeabeaft]

I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

[mariposas8494]

Fuck that shit 😂🤣

[bipolarowls]

[pushthemallaway]

Me: I feel horribly lonely and crappy

Brain: isolate yourself from everyone because they hate you

Me: perfect

[rylandsgrace]

#Maya and Robin are the same person

[myawfulpersonality]

I don’t watch this show but this what forced speech feels like when you’re hypomanic or manic

[uuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

[moss-covered-cat]

Maybe if I lay in the grass long enough the dandelions will overtake me and I don't have to do human things anymore.

[metamorphesque]

― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[mariposas8494]

[myawfulpersonality]

Not doing great

[bilbopaggins]

[transvegansurvivor]

I saved this image as “dopameme”

[writingsforwinter]

anyone else taking naps only to end up just as exhausted as before if not more??? it’s like i literally can’t get enough rest

[bilbopaggins]

[iwannabeadored]

hey since I just told a friend this and they found it helpful: if you’re having hallucinations and are having trouble distinguishing what’s real and what’s not, use your phone’s camera and take a picture of the thing you might be hallucinating. cameras don’t hallucinate.

[iwannabeadored]

hey maybe reblog this for other neurodivergent people to see please?

[flamboyantjunkrat-deactivated20]

sometimes ur own hallucinations may show up on camera or on a recording if its an auditory hallucination, so if ur unsure and have someone you trust, you can try sending the picture or recording to them and asking them what they see/hear too!!

[mercy-misrule]

I’ve only ever had like three or four instances of visual hallucinations but a friend who has them regularly

says that the way she checks is that she takes off her glasses, and if the image is still in perfect focus, that’s a hallucination

that might not work for everyone, but it might be helpful for some!

[waylaidbyspace]

When I thought I was hearing a roommate/family member in the next room and thought they were talking to me, and couldn’t tell if they were actually in there or not and if they were actually saying those things (and usually the things they were saying were pretty bizarre and mean), if I put on headphones and blasted music and could still hear them clearly then I could tell it wasn’t them and I was hallucinating (so bascially similar to the eyeglasses post above, but on the auditory side of things). Headphones and music are great for fact-checking or for helping to block the quieter things out.

[iwannabeadored]

these r all gr8

[rice-goddess-deactivated2020090]

I have auditory hallucinations. This seems like an obvious tip, but music helps

[bipolarblueberries]

Some asshole: ‘Why do you think you’re mentally ill? You seem fine to me.’

Me: 'Well I was professionally diagnosed based on years of symptoms, a strong family history of mental illness, a traumatic childhood that made a lot of symptoms worse and a continuing cycle of abuse that makes makes current symptoms worse and extremely obvious.’

The same asshole: 'Well maybe if you did more yoga you wouldn’t have this problem’

[beautiflybipolar-blog]

Being in a mixed episode like

“Yes I feel refreshed the sun is shining it’s gonna be a good day!” “Wow I hate myself!” “My ears are ringing and my stomach hurts I want to go home” “I am literally e x p l o d i n g ” “…..I just read that guys mind” “I am useless and I want to die” “Someone please kill me” “Guess I’ll have to do it myself” “There are a million things to do but I. Can’t. Move. ” “UGGGH I LOVE MY DOG MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE in the WORLD!!!!!” “I hate everything leave me alone”

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]