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Anna fixed her eyes on the teacup in front of her, Alastair's words reverberating in her mind. She felt a mixture of disdain and resignation, but also a certain frustration. This marriage had trapped her in ways she never could have imagined, and his proposal to open the relationship to others seemed more like a sentence than a solution.
"Perhaps," she began, her voice cold but carrying a hint of hidden pain. "We can 'tolerate' each other, as you put it. But love... is not something either of us can simply have through agreements or compromises. I would prefer not to live in a marriage based solely on convenience." She paused, taking a small breath to compose herself before continuing, briefly averting her gaze from him. She wasn’t seeking affection from anyone else outside of this... union. She had never asked for this marriage, but had ultimately accepted it. "If necessary, we will live in this arrangement, so be it, but I ask that it not be made public."Her voice faltered for a moment. She didn’t love him, but knowing that truly bothered her. She quickly regained her composure, standing tall as she finished her thought. Alastair spoke of marriages based on love as if they were an easy solution. But she still hadn't managed to turn her feelings into a commodity for trade.
Alastair quietly watched Anna look at her teacup, seeming to be contemplating what she’d said. He genuinely wanted her happy, even if it meant they both took lovers with consent. “I didn’t want an arranged marriage either, but I was suddenly named heir and needed my own heir,” Alastair confessed, a pained look in is eyes, for he had wanted a love match of his own. “I am genuinely sorry this is being forced on you as well,” he informed her, trying to remain kind despite her cold and pained tone.
“I would prefer to fall for you, and you for me, but we cannot predict that or plan to fall in love,” Alastair admitted, reaching out a hand to take one of Anna’s, trying to show he would try to be a good husband, or at least a good friend. “If we can at least be good friends, I would be very happy,” he said with a warm smile.
“I do not wish to share you, admittedly, but if another — secret — lover would make you happier, I would accept it. Your happiness, or at least contentment, is important to me. I may not be able to change our circumstances, but I can try my best to make living with me fun,” Alastair added, letting go of Anna’s hand as she stood and standing in front of her. It wasn’t to block her, but to allow her to be able to see the honesty in his eyes.
”I would never reveal our arrangement. Also…we will eventually need to discuss an heir, until I can make my niece my heir at least by Law of Succession,” Alastair noted, biting his lower lip nervously at bringing that up. His niece was adorable and the light of his life, Eleanor being his ward since she was born, being four years old now. “If I can officialize Eleanor being my successor, then we won’t need to worry about producing heirs. I do not wish to risk your life with a pregnancy anyway,” Alastair added.