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ok im like 10 yrs late and havent finished playing it yet, but did the creators of night in the woods know they were making the best game ever to exist ????????

#im so serious #exploding about how beautiful and funny and thought provoking and real it is #no spoilers plz #im only a couple days after harfest and i just dreampt the fucking cat #exploding about the cat too #and the writing and the characters and the mysteries and the pacing and the rats and #night in the woods #nitw

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the new game ive been playing is: how much worse can every website and app get before i stop trying to use them?

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whoops, my bad! with the new windows 12 news, looks like i actually meant "how much worse can *every computer related thing ever* get"

...and the answer seems to be "i am at the end of my fucking rope someone please get me out of here"

#screaming #enshittification #the internet #windows

the new game ive been playing is: how much worse can every website and app get before i stop trying to use them?

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#discord is getting fucked up with their new age verification shit #twitch might be going the same way #youtube also has age verification problems and keeps fucking up their ui and pushing shit nobody wants #i just had to install a browser extension and 2 ublock filters to change back some shit YT did and its STILL not working how i want it to #i could never bring myself to post on instagram after i heard they actively train genAI off peoples art posts #tiktok sucks for obvious reasons and i havent used it in ages #tumblr and bluesky certainly have problems but at least theyre less bad than others? idfk dude #im so tired #if the internet wasnt the most sustainable way for me to earn money rn‚ i would shut off my wifi forever #enshittification #the internet

sometimes it feels like i dont have new experiences or feelings, its all just the same stuff i knew a few years ago wrapped up in different people. not a spiral. barely a cycle. more like just a circle. i try to change but i dont think i can. every time i think ive actually moved forward i get put back in my place again, and every time i think i've seen something new it's just the same old shit in disguise.

#makes it hard to seek out new experiences/try again with old ones that didnt go well the first time #cause its just gonna be the same as it was and is and always is #like i havent changed #the universe hasnt changed #i swear ive learned my lesson this time #just please. let me move forward.#let me have SOMETHING.

how to stop being jealous of people you genuinely love and respect

#theyve found success and growth i could only dream of #because im like fucking built wrong #and im so so so so so proud of them #but its hard to come to terms with how different you are from the people you grew up with #its not like im doing NOTHING #i just. am not doing that much #google how to stop being dragged down by the horrors every day of your life #autism #mental illness #mental health

i dont even want him back that bad it just pisses me off that i got SO close to having someone who i loved AND who loved me back and now its just fucking gone.

#i genuinely doubt itll happen to me again #that was my last chance for love and i feel like i fucked up.#by respecting myself ig #idfk what to tag this #im just tired #and pissed off #heartbreak #feelings #love

i wish i could just do art 24/7 and never have to do anything elseeeeee

#waaagh #i have so much art i wanna work on #but i keep thinking of OTHER things i need to be doing #aaaaaa #art

sometimes i draw something really good and instead of being proud it just makes me go "huh. so that's what my art degree is being used for."

#the something in question is a vtuber model #which relates to the human form and light and shadow and everything #so like yeah maybe not the LEAST art degree thing i could be doing #but still lmao #like using my powers to draw anime tiddy i guess #art #artist

they should invent a version of putting your hair up where you actually you dont have any hair and youre bald until you want tohave hair

#autism #autistic #neurodivergent #overstimulated #that last tag might show this post to the wrong communities but im sure theyll get it

i feel like this is gonna sound "fake trans" of me, but i will admit a part of the reason i identify as nonbinary (as an afab person) is because i know ill never be dainty or cute or pretty enough to be a "real woman".

i feel this huge disconnect with anyone or anything feminine, because it seems like something not meant for me. if i wear makeup and girly clothes it feels like a costume at best, or at worst some sort of pollution and perversion of womanhood, and enjoying cutesy feminine media/interests feels foolish and gauche.

the truth is i do really love feminine things, and i wish they felt "right" when i did them. i dont know if its only because im nonbinary, or from being autistic and feeling "othered" all my life, or just from growing up mid/plus sized and unattractive? i just wish i could enjoy my makeup and cute clothes without feeling like a sinister imitation of something beautiful.

#“real woman" in HEAVY quotes btw!! womanhood is what you make of it ofc. but yknow societal standards and whatnot are a bitch #they/them #btw :D #also i lowkey hate talking about my gender identity publicly bc ive had bad experiences with ppl trying to invalidate me so #might delete #but for now it was rattling around in my brain and i had to get it outttt #ty for reading #vent post #gender #gender identity #gender thoughts #afab nonbinary #nonbinary #transgender #lgbtqia #autism #i could tag this with plus sized or wtvr too but i dont wanna put a sad post in the middle of a bunch of lovely plus sized folks lol

sometimes u get sad so u gotta draw urself with an emo boy

(just a sketch/wip i wanna finish it soon tho)

#hope tumblr doesnt get mad about cleave mb #art #artists on tumblr #digital art #sketch #wip #emo #ship art #persona #neverevenmore art

i feel like wearing a straightjacket would feel good. not in a sexy way, just to like hang out in

#and also maybe in a sexy way too but thats not important rn #but like itd be cozy :D #idk how to tag this ngl #straight jacket

its so funny to be a generally positive and loving person who also lowkey believes theyre cursed. like yeah, im bound to fail at everything i try and also nobody will ever truly love me and theres no hope for my future. but not you though! your future is bright you just have to believe! but i am doomed though. yeah, and ill feel alienated and stuck forever. but theres a whole world of possibilities for you! ...like dude what are you even talking about

#i never know what to tag #mental illness #autism #trauma #👍yeah that works #ok enjoy

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