Maybe my family was rightā¦ I just run away from everything. I donāt solve my problems, I just pretend Iām a victim and leave.
I disagree. My boyfriend is going through something very similar himself. It's not the same I know, but he left his family and he struggles with his self worth especially now that we struggle to afford rent and food and such. I know that he is worth a ton and that without him this whole operation would fall apart but he cannot see that. It's rough when you leave an abusive situation especially because all the support in the world will feel like pity or like it's being wasted on you. It's not though and that's part of the manipulation. We live in a society which frankly encourages abusers, but you can absolutely still make it after escaping. We are struggling, but we have made it so far, we do things to remind us life is worth living. It is hard, it is really hard but it gets easier with practice. You will never be prepared to leave an abusive relationship regardless of if it's a familial relationship or not, but that leap of faith that you have to take to leave will make your life far better in the long run. You will struggle because you cannot be prepared, but you will make it I'm sure. Surround yourself with supportive and truly caring people who respect the extra boundaries you may need from having PTSD. You are strong, having left is one of the hardest things to do, keeping yourself from going back is hard too, but you need to for yourself.
I wish your boyfriend wellā¦. Itāsā¦ itās hard.
I never feel like I deserve the support others give me. And I feel weakā¦ but we keep trying anyways. Because we all deserve better than the bullshit we were put through.
Exactly, and you deserve the support given by others. I've been through bullshit, I want to make others have an easier time with it. As always we humanity are a communal species and we should take care of each other, even strangers on the internet. I mean that's how my boyfriend and I met for the first time in person, but that's a story for another time. From everything I've seen lurking as a mutual you are strong and far more than only a victim.
