Starting to write porn for the first time in ages and like your Zanka has a big dick to bully Jabber with ideology like it’s taking over me.
To be entirely honest with you, the fact that he can bully Jabber with it is just a convenient side effect of why I gave Zanka a massive penis. The main reason is because I think that is the size of penis that would be most distressing to Zanka Nijiku and his weapons-grade repression issues.
Walk with me. Say Zanka Nijiku had a micropenis. I happen to find this a cute trait that is somewhat under-celebrated, but Zanka, we know, would not like this at all. However, it would perfectly slot into his inner narrative of being deficient from birth, and it would inspire him to fight harder to prove himself. He would gain an absurd amount of confidence from triumphing over absolutely anyone male, as he would assume they had an average penis or larger; he would start thinking things like, “Ha! I’ll show them how a guy with a micropenis can surpass a guy with a big one!” Which we simply cannot have. Also, he would be very motivated to start having sex, possibly even with women (I think he’s pretty rigidly homosexual), in order to prove that he could satisfy a partner even without “the right equipment.” This would in turn give him sexual confidence, which he is absolutely not allowed to have.
Now say Zanka Nijiku had an average penis. He might rankle a bit at his lack of enormous size, but all-in-all, this would suit him perfectly. It would again fit neatly into his Average Joe narrative, and moreso, he would perhaps be proud of his body’s restraint. He has just enough. Nothing more, nothing less. A perfectly-formed instrument capable of doing exactly what it needs to do, neither shameful nor excessive. Having an average penis would bring Zanka Nijiku too much inner peace.
Finally, consider Big Dick Zanka Nijiku. It’s large. It’s unwieldy. It fills out his pants. Its girth is, by caveman reasoning, indicative of natural superiority—which does not fit his inner perception at all; he fails to be worthy of what he has, which increases his inner shame. And it is just so- so- VULGAR. It is pornographically large. It is impossible for him to escape the sexual connotations his mind has placed on his anatomy. He is forced to consider himself a sexual being. And not only a sexual being, but a being uniquely equipped to have raunchy, disgusting sex with all sorts of loose individuals who worship at the altar of physical desire. Woe is he. He cannot soothe himself by twisting this to fit his complexes; nor can he permit himself to explore his sexual appetites, as that would only be admitting defeat to the sinful nature of his body. It would be proof of the weakness of his spirit and his lack of moral fibre. Thus, he must abstain at all costs.
Enter the first person in his life he’s ever been really attracted to.
“This would in turn give him sexual confidence, which he is absolutely not allowed to have.” Oh crouch, I love your meta analysis on dick size so much
