rainy days and ice cold lovers

a relapsed twilight obsessive - this shit hits different when you're in your late 20s and married with a mental illness or two

[clowsvillesuckz]

Twilight as Tweets

- Part 1

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5

[2morrownevercame]

it’s warm out but it’s still twilight season

[ath3alin]

so fucking humbling to be like “no I like that character a normal amount” and then you can literally feel your heart rate spike at a mention of them like a dog that just heard the word “treat”

[edgyboicullen]

the cullens really seriously did not have to do all of that just to live together… they were seriously committed to the stepcest kink

[ezzakennebba]

i just want 400 books of them hanging out!!

[twilight-af-deactivated20220701]

bella “brown is warm” swan.

[carllisle]

remmeber when Carlisle slut shamed Alice and Jasper into getting married. I think that’s iconic and funny of him yes king no sinning in THIS christian house

[haletwinsstan]

wait what

[carllisle]

- The Official Illustrated Guide (section: Jasper Whitlock Hale)

[jalicewhitcock]

Bella: But why?! Marriage doesn't mean anything! Couldn't we just-

Edward *nervously wringing his hands* *visibly shaking* *sweat dripping down his forehead* *sensing the weight of Carlisle's eyes on him* *a whispered plea*: Y- you don't- you don't understand...pl- please.

[pacificrainydays]

Carlisle: murder - it happens; stealing - sure; lying - necessary; medical malpractice - what evs

Carlisle: sex out of wed lock - *gunshots*

[lilianobsidian]

Something about Edwards telepathy being both a social aid and disability, that isn’t discussed enough. The constant cacophony of noise? A wall of sound constantly whistling, or like thunder in your head? And that includes the noises and voices that ARE being spoken out loud, it sounds like a nightmare.

I’m not surprised he’s jaded, but also his ineptitude to communicate well when he can’t hear someone’s thoughts- the immediate jumps to worst case scenario/anxiety episodes. He relies on and is disabled by his ‘gift’.

I can imagine this would make him prone to disassociating, to just ‘escape’, making him kinda spacey and distant. Because when he’s present, it’s all chaos and panic.

[pacificrainydays]

Honestly the hardest part of writing Twilight fic from Edward’s POV is figuring out how to write about the overwhelming amount of extra information he gets from people’s mind. It would be truly the worst. No wonder he likes Bella and her iron curtain mind.

[edtwilightlla]

They always delete a book accurate scene.

[pacificrainydays]

I’m just OBSESSED with your fic. I loved it so much, I look forward to it and get so excited every time I get a notification. I’m so sad it’s over!!! Any plans for a next fic? I’m so pumped for anything you choose to do next!!

Thank you so so much! I’m glad you loved it. I loved writing it (except for a few chapters which were a real bitch).

I think I will take a bit of a break from writing for this fandom for a while to work on other projects, but I have two very loose ideas bubbling away:

An AU that looks at how the story would be different if Bella stayed in Forks and was raised by Charlie, meaning she was there first!!!!

Something inspired by this post I did on Jasper’s fuckfest in Maria’s camp and Alice’s perspectives on sex and gender - I think it’s interesting to consider how a lack of human memories have shaped her

Don’t expect these or any others anytime soon but this is where my head is at, in case it is interesting!

[hoahoahoahoahoa]

Bella should’ve had a cat that absolutely loathes Edward

Not in the way that animals are generally frightened of vampires. It’s actually pretty okay with the other Cullens. Alice even manages to get in its good graces

But Edward can read animal minds (as much as they can be read; they don’t think in words. They don’t have much conscious thought processes to read, period) and while most animals just think ((fearfearfearfear)) around him, Bella’s cat thinks the feline equivalent of “fuck that guy”

[itsfortheplants]

guys. I think we go too easy on edward cullen.

[midnight-sunnydale]

When does Edward Cullen Accountability Week start??? Because I am READY

[edwardskhakipants]

The problem is that I love everything that's wrong with him. Edward Cullen Accountability Week and Edward Cullen Appreciation Week are the same week.

[pacificrainydays]

Chapters: 30/30 Fandom: Twilight Series - Stephenie Meyer, Twilight Series - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Edward Cullen/Bella Swan, Jacob Black/Bella Swan, Bella Swan/Original Male Character(s), Alice Cullen/Jasper Hale, Emmett Cullen/Rosalie Hale, Carlisle Cullen/Esme Cullen Characters: Bella Swan, Edward Cullen, Jacob Black, Carlisle Cullen, Esme Cullen, Alice Cullen, Jasper Hale, Emmett Cullen, Rosalie Hale, Charlie Swan, Rachel Black, Angela Weber, Mike Newton, Renée Dwyer, Aro (Twilight), Jane (Twilight), Victoria (Twilight) Additional Tags: Romance, Angst, Getting Back Together, Eventual Smut, Canon Compliant, ish, Canon Timeline, Canon Divergence - Eclipse (Twilight), Voyeurism, Smut, Emotional Baggage, Protective Siblings, Good Friend Angela Weber, Vaginal Fingering, Blow Jobs, First Time Blow Jobs, Loss of Virginity, Masturbation, Canon-Typical Violence, canon-atypical sex, Oral Sex Summary:

After the traumatic events in Italy and still reeling from the pain of being abandoned by Edward, Bella realizes she is not ready to take him back yet. Instead Bella and Edward embark upon a tentative friendship.

Still, dark forces and a charming Jacob Black are circling, making being friends easier in theory than in practice. Can their fragile relationship bloom into this new form, or will stubborn teenage wills and unchanging vampire minds ruin everything?

A story of growing, making mistakes and finding your way back to each other.

Eclipse-ish rewrite. Alternating BPOV and EPOV. Bella/Edward will always be endgame but there are twists and turns on the path of love.

[pacificrainydays]

These hands would not be taught

After the traumatic events in Italy and still reeling from the pain of being abandoned by Edward, Bella realizes she is not ready to take him back yet. Instead Bella and Edward embark upon a tentative friendship.

Still, dark forces and a charming Jacob Black are circling, making being friends easier in theory than in practice. Can their fragile relationship bloom into this new form, or will stubborn teenage wills and unchanging vampire minds ruin everything?

A story of growing, making mistakes and finding your way back to each other.

Eclipse-ish rewrite. Alternating BPOV and EPOV. Bella/Edward will always be endgame but there are twists and turns on the path of love.

Read Chapter 1 here

[pacificrainydays]

This fic is now complete. 30 chapters. 103k words.

[dailyflicks]

THE TWILIGHT SAGA: ECLIPSE 2010, dir. David Slade

[pacificrainydays]

Writing and editing this final chapter of my fic sucks because people have been leaving such lovely comments and I am terrified that I am not going to stick the landing

[twilight-midnightsun]

So you know how Bella goes to the meadow in New Moon and finds it lifeless and it’s absolutely gut wrenching ?

We never really know what Edward was doing during that time . But in the New Moon outtake from Edward’s POV (Rosalie’s news) , he says , “The idea of returning to the cloudy little town that would always be my true home on this planet snaked through my thoughts again. Just to check. Just to see that she’s well and safe and happy. Not to interfere. She would never know I was there…”

So what if he did return to Forks — telling himself it was only to check from a distance , just to see that she was safe ? But when he got close , he realized that seeing her , even for a second would destroy whatever resolve he had left . It would be impossible to leave again . So he turned away and instead , he too went to the meadow (not the same day as Bella) and found it lifeless. The wildflowers gone , the clearing stripped of everything . He stood there alone , thinking that the emptiness of her absence had settled into the earth itself.