I was thinking about this moment again today, trying to remember exactly what he said to me, in that noisy crowded artists' alley on that hot October day.
It was something about how it was a gift, how he'd received the gift of learning and knowing his friend the guitarist more fully, this wonderful present of traveling with their true self. He spoke about it with gratitude, with a wellspring of warmth that showed how happy it had made him.
I think Peter Beagle might have been the first person to imply to me that my transition is a gift to others. That living my life fully and honestly is a way of gifting others with something precious and good, something that they can appreciate and remember for decades later.
What a skill. What a power. He didn't miss a beat. He just whipped out an anecdote from his own life that told me, (a) it was fine, I was fine, (b) I wasn't his first trans person, not by a longshot, not by years and years, (c) my transitioning was a good and wonderful thing actually, (d) there are trans adults out in the world doing cool shit like touring Europe with famous fantasy authors, (e) he was happy to know them, and me. All layered in a quick story over a signed book.
I've met charismatic people. Politicians, leaders, authors, musicians, people who could grab your attention with a few words and a warm gesture and a spark in their eyes. People who could suss out the right thing to say within minutes, people who could launch into an impromptu speech that lasted hours and captivated everyone around them. None of them hit me with that Ring of Keys moment like Peter Beagle, can you feel my heart / saying hi?, except maybe John Darnielle.
I hope someday I can touch people's lives like that. I've been so fucking fortunate. I have to survive long enough to help someone else like he helped me.