weed has been great for helping me process a lot of negative thinking patterns, but sometimes it helps in really funny ways.
i have been having a hard time recently because i am a mentally ill person who is currently in the process of trying to move countries. everything is stressful, and being stressed makes me more stressed, and this never stops.
i have been thinking about trying to go back to college to get a computer science degree after my residency is approved, but i have been so panicked and activated lately that it's been killing my self confidence.
and i have been trying unsuccessfully for days to break out of this loop of "would it be worth it? would i be too old by then? i failed the first time, why wouldn't i fail again? am i just not smart enough?" etc etc
and then i scroll past a furries in IT meme on tumblr dot com and just go "of course. how could i have forgotten? i am but a humble furry. this is my fate, as The Ancient Prophecy foretold"
and that fixed it??????? what the hell man
