Phoebe Smith

Just a person who loves her cats too much and puts her every feeling on pieces of paper 16 ㅣ Lesbian ㅣ Old. Yeah just old.

[pnyxsmith-blog]

I used to look at Thinspo blogs and pictures because I was curious. Now I look at them and remember when eating was a priority and gaining weight didn’t terrify me.

[pnyxsmith-blog]

Why do people keep saying I'm going to hell? Can't you see I'm already there?

(@.pnyxsmith)

[pnyxsmith-blog]

I feel trapped by my own fear. I can’t go out and try to get a girlfriend because I’m terrified of my parents finding out I’m a lesbian. I’m lonely and it sucks because when I feel like crap, I’m too afraid to call my friend and no one else would know how or what to do. I’m tired of hiding but I’m scared. No matter how many times I try, I end up disappointed or hurt because I was naive enough to think someone would be willing to give me a chance to prove my worth. I’m undateable here. All people see is a creepy, twelve year old with messed up hair and deem me unworthy of even a thought that maybe she isn’t what she seems. I’m tired of being passed up for someone better. Constantly left for someone else. And my friends wonder why I’m so fucking clingy. When everyone who told you they loved you left you or hurt you, what do you think happens. I wish someone would give me a chance to show them that I’m not what everyone thinks I am.

[pnyxsmith-blog]

I drew this. My friend was jelly because because of the way I drew My Chemical Romance. Which I'm discovering is a phrase that autocorrect itself now

[pnyxsmith-blog]

I am just realizing that every blog that I get here ends up having a feed full of Lesbian gifs, is kinda depressing, and is covered with food blogs.  

[butch-king-frankenstein]

My favorite thing about Thomas the Tank Engine is that it canonically takes place in a train post-apocalypse where the Island of Sodor is the only safe zone in a totalitarian dystopia in which steam trains are routinely killed and their body parts are sold or cannibalized for repair

If you think I’m kidding you need to read the original books

[co-rp]

could you please direct me to a source? i would feel much better if this was validated.

[butch-king-frankenstein]

It took me so long to find this quote online but I did it because it’s so much darker than one might expect from Thomas the Tank Engine:

“…Engines on the Other Railway aren’t safe now. Their controllers are cruel. They don’t like engines any more. They put them on cold damp sidings, and then,” Percy nearly sobbed, “they…they c-c-cut them up.” -”The Bluebells of England.”  Stepney the Bluebell Engine.  Rev. Awdry, Wilbert.  London: Egmont Publishing, 1963.

This illustration, by Gunvor and Peter Edwards, accompanied the above text in the original book, and depicts a pair of unfortunate Other Railway engines moments before being disassembled with a blowtorch.

[nightjarring]

HOLY FUCK LOOK AT THE ONE IN THE BACKGROUND THEY TOOK ITS FUCKING FACE OMG

[butch-king-frankenstein]

[zidane-xv]

the early thomas the tank engine books are pretty standard stuff. saccharine bubblegum type stories and illustrations. if you watched the show, it’s like that in book form. the second half of the railway series are so fucking dark and surreal i’m convinced they were a result of reverend wilbur awdry doing copious amounts of lsd and having hallucinations of his own death.

[butch-king-frankenstein]

Excuse me but the very first story in the Railway Series is about an engine who hides in a tunnel and refuses to run because he doesn’t want to get his paint job ruined in the rain, so railway management seals off the tunnel.

They eventually let him out because another engine breaks down or something, but the original plan was to just leave him in there forever.

[shulamithbond]

On the show, didn’t they also hook up one engine to a generator, so he’d never move again? That was literally one of the lines, I think. It’s on some other post on here. It was chilling.

[butch-king-frankenstein]

Yes!  This also happened in the books, to an engine referred to only as “No. 2″, but the television series applied the same scenario to an invented character named “Smudger”, in the episode “Granpuff”.

“Smudger,” said Duke. “Was a show-off. He rode roughly and often came off the rails. I warned him to be careful, but he took no notice.” “Listen, Dukie” he snared. “Who worries about a few spills?” “We do here! I said, but Smudger just laughed.” “Hahaha!” “Until one day, Manager said he was going to make him useful at last. Smudger stopped laughing then!” “W-w-why? What did he do?!” “He turned him into a generator. He’s still there behind our shed. He’ll never move again.”

[deducecanoe-deactivated20161213]

This is so fucked up

[unclewhisky-deactivated20150726]

No, listen.

Okay, so we see Railway Management doing all this shit, right, but supposedly it’s so much worse in the Other Railways? I mean, sure, you might get turned into a generator or bricked into a tunnel for not doing as you’re told, but at least you’re not cut up and sold for parts, right? It’s not so bad on the island of Sodor, right?

Or maybe that’s just what Railway Management wants the engines to think.

Maybe the island of Sodor is the real totalitarian regime, and the engine citizens (slaves) are fed propaganda, illustrated in hellish grays and sulfuric yellows, about how bad it is everywhere else, at all the Other Railways.

You are lucky to be an engine of Sodor.

Railway Management cares about you.

Trust Railway Management.

Stay on Your Track.

It Could Be So Much Worse.

[coralineandthesapphicfantastic]

Wtf the fuck is this train based 1984 bullshit

[pnyxsmith-blog]

I see all see other girls on my tumblr feed. Beautiful girls but I just can't help judging them against @gotrustyourheart . Seriously, she's so beautiful I've never seen anyone like her in my life. If I wasn't already nearly in love with her for just her personality, just looking at her would have sealed the deal. I mean, I just. I really really like her. She's so nice to me and so sweet. She's amazing. So amazing. I hope she finds someone just as good as her if I never have the chance with her. I love you Rainie

[fitandhealthyhero]

[anomaly1]

I’m biting my lip from making a smart comment

[11011101654-deactivated20160202]

*sext to yo man*

[fentyfupa]

I mean☕️🌚 someone gon have to say it eventually…

[bando--grand-scamyon]

SCREAMING

[babysza]

Someone please say it

[daddynoooo]

I’m done…..lolol….this is true but I’m done

[biohazerd]

Yall triflin lmfao

[allbl-ck]

😈🌚….

[itsmisspickle-deactivated201812]

[weddingcakesnoball-deactivated2]

Lol this is hilarious

[moo-sopretty]

I don’t get it😩

[baby-berita-deactivated20200413]

The suspense is killing me 😂

[murder-she-wont-deactivated2017]

Lmaooo

[theryanproject]

Y'all need to stop 😂😂😂

[bando--grand-scamyon]

Reblogging again for the shade, but the truth is backed by health science LMAO

[myblaqboudoir]

So ain’t nobody gonna actually say it 😂😂

[garnbinogirlforever]

Don’t you dare fuckin say it.

[firstoffletmesayi]

This is a concept fa dat ass.

[candiikismet]

I’m holding my breath about to pop!!! Don’t y'all dare!

[rappermode]

[blvck-mermaid]

Actually the fact that no one has said it makes it better. I’ll wait………….. watch for it to come back around 

[ayemuhhfucka]

gah damn i love tumblr so much

[dezilife]

Lmao !!!

[cuethetrou-deactivated20201023]

*internally screams out answer*

[bitch-puddin]

Who gwaan say it? Who gwaan say it? Who gwaan say it? 😂😂😂😂

[wvrthy]

lmfaooo why do I live for posts like these though?

[getmoneysexmen]

Ha the last one

[cosmic-noir]

[brownnskinboy-deactivated201812]

[dr-gyaci]

I’ve reblogged this for weeks and still nothing…SENSATIONAL

[rugracks904]

Just followed all y'all cuz we all know the answer, but holding it like the secret Krabby Pattie Formular

[thequeenof-me]

somebody please say it 😩

[firstoffletmesayi]

noooooOOOOOAP

[sunflowerjawn]

After all this, no body gonna say anything 😂😂

[afrohoopz-deactivated20170811]

And the wait continues

[mmshawty]

Omfg

[afrodesiacworldwide]

lmao!! Fact… Keep it going!!!

[beaupei]

SHIT, I’LL SAY IT

[gonebutnotforgottenlmao-deactiv]

LMAOO I LOVE THIS

[poeticuma]

👀🤔

[dynastylnoire]

Here for this

[freshest-tittymilk]

Oh Lord do I ever want to

[theknightmurders]

we all like…

[yonivibes21-deactivated20220829]

[pnyxsmith-blog]

In this case, you could say brown is better than white.

[pnyxsmith-blog]

I wonder if any skinny girls have ever felt bad about being skinny. I feel like we get a bit of hate for our size. I mean that's probably stupid but when I wasn't eating right I felt a lot of guilt because I wanted to be skinnier than I was. I'm sorry. That's so stupid.

[mariogolf-deactivated20160726]

reblog this if ur gay and have a messy bedroom

[vivecguccibelt]

[rubydat98]

I love me but it's clear I need to love me a little bit more.

[ssaisstopsexualassaultinsch-blog]

Consent Education.

[the-psychlife]

THIS IS IMPORTANT.

[unedited-spoonie]

And please note that there are no specific pronouns. Consent is ALWAYS required from ALL individuals, regardless of gender, sex, relationship, et cetera.

[genoshaisforlovers]

[pnyxsmith-blog]

Danse.

[soupshark]

i support u lazy gay snake

[pnyxsmith-blog]

Looking up my name in the Urban Dictionary makes me feel better about myself

[nympho-cherub-deactivated201605]