get loud, get ugly

[poetpunk]

Hey! I’m Kali, she/her or they/them

I have all the answers. And they're correct. Found under #manifesto.

20, English major, pro freak, pro weirdo, pro slut, pro burnout, pro loser

Formerly @tinygothgoblin, @freakbleeds

Desi, Southwest U.S. raised, fluent in Hindi (kinda), trying to learn Spanish

Abnormal And Intense about stuff. You're welcome. Gloriously self-indulgent writing can be found under #kinda poetry. repository for whatever slop escapes the confines of my notes app

I will often post vent-y stuff under #kali rambles or #coping out loud. I also post about my ED recovery with the #recovery tag.

THIS IS NOT AN ED ACCOUNT!!!! ED ACCOUNTS DO NOT FUCKING INTERACT!!!

Free Palestine, land back

xx

Kali

[szarcyk]

that may be cruel but if he died my life would be much easier

i just want him to die

he wanted to anyway

[poetpunk]

id be an excellent abusive boyfriend all I do when I'm sad is punch myself in the head listen to hardcore and write shitty pretentious poetry about how emo and lonely I am

[poetpunk]

the only antidote to this humiliation ritual is to isolate myself and die I think

[satanfemme]

children's movies love to set up parents and guardians as being cruel and unreasonable up until the child character is instructed by a third party to apologize or tell the truth or confess some kind of secret about themselves, and then all of a sudden the parental figure will learn empathy be like "wow... I didn't know you felt that way... don't worry, I'll always love you". and it really set some unrealistic expectations for me as a kid, where when I tried to follow that script irl I ended up getting told something more along the lines of "wow... you're really manipulative and spoiled... do you want me to apologize or something? I won't. it's your fault if you decided to feel 'unloved' or something. and if you don't start following my demands perfectly soon, you're going to ruin your life beyond repair and never be happy again. so consider that :)"

basically I think more movies should end with the parental figures continuing to be unreasonable instead of having a sudden and unrealistic change of heart, and then I think their kid should kill them. mhm. this would be good to teach kids what their backup options are if their attempts at diplomacy fail, and it'd be good as a cautionary tale for parents. I see no problems with this.

[poetpunk]

I'm probably an unforgivably terrible human being but if getting better means losing my ability to give a fuck about everything I care about I'd rather stay angry and insufferable.

[segamascott]

[segamascott]

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

sorry to be a broken record every month but christ menstruation is a stupid concept. oooooh excuse me for not getting pregnant, why the fuck is there goo falling out of me about it? grow the fuck up and reabsorb that shit for nutrients.

[takemetodragonstone]

I think the worst thing about having very vague/spotty memories because I was so young when it happened is feeling like I can’t ever fully accept that it DID happen. I will always second guess myself—even though the evidence is always with me (the body keeps the score, as they say). I will probably never tell anyone who knows him about it because what if I’m wrong?? What if I’m making up these flashes of “memory”, and seeing “signs” in my present self where there are none just because I want an easy answer that would explain the way that I am???

It would be such a horrible thing to accuse someone of if it wasn’t true. Especially family. Even just thinking it feels cruel and unfair to him sometimes. And there’s no way for me to get the truth unless he were to confess it to me himself.

I fantasize about that sometimes—I like to picture him apologizing to me at some kind of reunion, scared out of his mind that I’ll tell someone about it and ruin his life. Or even unapologetic, making jokes about it. At least then I would have confirmation. At least then I would have validation for the last twenty years of my life.

Anyway if anyone else feels like this, you’re not alone.

[atomiczoey]

they should invent companies that will hire you

[poetpunk]

you can recognize a pedophile by looking for the adult in the room that derives joy, amusement, or satisfaction from disrespecting children's boundaries or consent.

[coffeefocusrat]

you're just mad because you're hungry and tired and your legs hurt and you head hurts and you're too hot and you have depression

[gunsandfireandshit]

[red-mercer]

Imagine a record store with a cringe section

[jeekoftheweek]

where else are they supposed to put the beatles?

[meckamecha]

The dumpster

[poetpunk]

@bells-and-blood

[dragon-in-a-fez]

it really is fucking pathetic that a country with more guns than people can't hit one guy

[dragon-in-a-fez]

if this is how you found out there was an active shooter at the White House yesterday I'm sorry

[poetpunk]

nauseous with rage for the past two weeks. four more weeks before I can smoke weed and cuddle my dog.

[phantomrose96]

I'm very very glad that my knee-jerk, gut-feeling, primal-instinct reaction to seeing a Default Influencer is embarrassment. I think this saves me from a lot of bullshit.

[phantomrose96]

Some lip-filler lady on enough Ozempic to euthanize a horse: "The sad truth is an elite lifestyle takes money and discipline. Buy these brands on credit if you have to. Skip meals."

Me: "Oh. Oh I'm physically experiencing the effects of secondhand embarrassment. You live like this? This is your life? Your interiority? If I was anything like this I'd kill myself I think."

[phantomrose96]

To be clear ☝️, absolutely not gender-exclusive. Some broccoli-haired shirtless 23-year-old man on enough trenbolone to euthanize a different horse starts talking about how to be a high-value male and I start thinking instantly about how I'd have 4,000 slugs use me as a jungle-gym before I'd want this man within cootie-contagion distance of me.

[phantomrose96]

[refuzz]

[phantomrose96]

Respect for my soldiers… she’s saving him… the hons…