Chapter warnings: light cursing, mentions of pregnancy, death, everything that comes with euphoria
Author's note: Is was the first chapter for this book I ever wrote!! As always, italics are flashbacks to moments they had during teotfw that I just didn’t write. Enjoy!!
“Do you like kids?” Alyssa asked, glancing over at fezco as the two sat together on the beach. They had been sitting on the beach watching the stars at her dads house, one of the more peaceful moments they had together before they got caught. Besides, Alyssa believed the stars always looked more beautiful reflected on the water.
“Hmm?” He hummed, look looking away from the sky as he drew careful patterns with his eyes.
“Kids, ya like em?” She said, sighing as she thought back to her family. Truth is she missed them, as much as she hated to admit it. After finding out she had a hidden brother, Alyssa had been feeling a lot of different emotions. She had thought about kids, and if she would ever want them.
“Depends on the kid. My brother’s pretty chill.” Fezco replied, making Alyssa nod. She knew he missed ashtray, she also knew that seeing a boy around his age probably made him miss him more.
“That's right. I don't think I want kids.”
He looked over at her with furrowed eyebrows when she blurted out the last part.
“Why not ma?” He asked softly, making Alyssa sigh.
“Just more a chance ill fuck them up.” She mumbled, hugging her knees to her chest as fezco shrugged.
“I don't see it that way. You know? It's like, a chance to start new.” He explained, making Alyssa nod. She never thought of it taht way. Truthfully, she didn’t want kids.
“I guess. But kids are a lot of work. My siblings are just whiny babies.” She explained, making Fezco chuckle. “Their heads do smell nice though.”
“Yeah, I guess that's a plus.”
They let a silence pass by, followed by the quiet sounds of waves from the beach. Alyssa looked over at him, watching the starlight shine against his blue eyes. She had rethought a lot of things after meeting fez, she wondered what else might change because of him.
“Would you ever want kids Fez?” She asked gently, making him shrug.
“You know, i haven't really thought of that. I guess i wont know until, until i meet the right moma for my kid.” Ge explained, and she nodded in agreement, hugging her knees closer as she rest her chin against her knee.
“Yeah.” She sighed, letting the air reset her brain as she thought silently. “Fez?”
“Would you ever want kids with me?” She asked, and Fezco’s face turned a bright red shade. She didn’t know why she asked, she wasn’t sure, but she knew it had something to do with the comfort and safety she felt when she was around him. The warmth he brought.
“Shit ma, maybe we should focus on escaping the police first.”
“Yeah, I guess you're right.”
She took that as a no, that he wouldn't want kids witty her. How could he? She knew any kid she had would just turn out like her. As much as she could try, try to be better than her parents, she'd think it'd be almost like a curse that loomed over their heads. Who would want her as a mom?
“Fez, we gotta talk.” Alyssa said, urgently running into Fezco’s apartment. He did a double take as she ran in, having been anticipating mouse’s a rival after the police raided his house.
“Lyss, whatchu doin here. I told you to stay home.” He said, having prewarned her not to turn up.
“I know but um, it’s really important.”
Both their head whipped to the door when a loud pounding was heard.
“Open up boy!” Mouse’s voice called from the other end, making Alyssa’s heart drop.
“I swear to god Alyssa you better be tellin me you’re dyin or some shit or I swear to..”
“Im pregnant.” She said, interrupting him. And there he stood x his jaw slightly agape trying to process the words she had just said.
“Fez! They’re comin in!” Ashtray said, pulling Fezco out of his day dream as he jaw remained open.
“What do we have here? Am I interrupting?” Mouse asked, raising his eyebrows teasingly making Alyssa shudder.
“No, no not at all, scary man.” She said, whispering the last bit to fezco.
“Stay behind me ma.” He said protectively, carefully pushing her behind him.
“No need to hide doll. Come on out.” Mouse tutted, smiling disgustingly at me as I stepped out slightly.
“Hey, she ain’t botherin nobody.” Fezco said protectively, clenching his fists.
“I just want her to step out the shadows, yeah? No need for daddy’s protection is there.” Mouse flicked his fingers for me to come to him as fezco shuddered at his comment.
That one was a little too soon.
“Go to my room ma, just wait for me to…”
“No one’s going nowhere. Now sit.” He patted the spot beside him. “Come on doll, I don’t bite.”
She looked to fezco worriedly, and he nodded at her to let her know he was nearby, with protection.
At Least he used protection this time. What too soon?
“I heard you got raided.” Mouse said, placing a hand on Alyssa’s thigh, making Fez’s fists clenched.
“Yeah. They didn’t find nothin though.” Fezco replied, hoping to get mouse to leave without any problems.
“I don’t know, are we good doll?” He began running his fingers down my face, making her whole body shiver before she heard Ashtray yell loudly.
“Take one move closer and I swear to god I’ll smash your fucking head off!” Ashtray shouted,before finally deciding to smash him over the head, and also smash off Custers nose making Custer scream in pain. And suddenly I was there again. I’m the house, and by the look in his eyes, so was Fez. We both looked at each other knowingly before back at Ashtray pleadingly.
“Yo, bro, what the fuck!” He said, tan his hands down his head before looking at Alyssa who had the same look on her face. “What the fuck is goin on in this house!?” He shook his head, looking at the scene before him. Me in shock, pregnant with his baby, ashtray in shock, having just committed murder, Custer screaming in pain from his nose being smashed off, and mouse dead.
