nobody actually asked for my thoughts about Jean but i'm sharing them anyway <3
āAs angry as he was with Kevin and Neil, he was always willing to die for themā
The fact that Jean wonāt play with Kevin but he NEVER stopped caring for him!!!!Ā
He was willing to die for Kevin, which i'm, you know, normal about
Especially because, not only was he willing to die for Kevin, but for Neil as well!!!!!!!
He hardly even knew Neil!!! I wonder so much what happened during Christmas that made him care for Neil like this???
Was it just Neilās effect on people??? Was it Neil just being his difficult self that made Jean decide heād do what it took to save him??
āI said no, you have to live, and I never asked him if he actually wanted toā
The fact that Jean committed suicide in every draft before this. The final one. He didnāt want to live. But he was forced to.Ā
āYou have to live.ā you have to survive. you deserve this chance. you canāt give up like this.Ā
āItās about a boy who shouldnāt be aliveā
HE WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE!!! HE WANTED TO!!!
But finally he lived and that was it!!!
But it WASNāT!!! Because now he has to continue to live!!! And he doesnāt know how!!!!
He shouldnāt be here. He wasnāt supposed to make it.Ā
āAnd honestly, in this day & age, donāt we all deserve thatā
He deserves to have his story told.Ā
He deserves to be the one to tell it.Ā