April is a simp

43. Singer/Voice Actor/Former YT LPer. Hereditary Coproporphyria and Indolent Mastocytosis. ADHD & dyslexia. Mutifandom whatsits. Current obsession: Spy x Family, Twiyor, JB, Brienne, and Jaime. Intersectional 3rd wave feminist and really, really liberal.

[purplenightling]

"Brienne, I'm so-"

Jaime draws up short. The cold weight of his gold hand seems to increase as the moments slip by. Across the table, Tyrion waits patiently, pen poised over a fresh sheet of parchment. Jaime growls in frustration. "I'm sorry."

His devoted brother, Master of Laws and royal pain in the arse, suppresses a snicker. "Are you apologizing to me, or am I meant to write that in the letter?"

This is a fool's errand, and I am the greatest fool of all. Jaime rises from the table where he's spent most of his time, of late. His chair's legs screech in protest, echoing sharply throughout the Council Chamber and the courtyard adjacent. The Winter sun winks coyly off fat flakes of falling snow; a single piece flits in to kiss Jaime's cheek- soft as Brienne's lips in Winterfell and frozen as Cersei's in her grave.

"No," he says. "Thank you, but I've changed my mind. If you'll excuse me, King Jon has need of me. We plan to oversee preparations for the festival. I like not the way Lord Sunglass speaks to the commons, and Jon wants to hand out an extra silver piece each to the workers due to the unexpected snow." Jaime cocks his head." No pun intended, of course."

Tyrion ignores the bait and merely sighs, steeples his fingers. The effect is so evocative of their late father that Jaime's breath catches. His tone is kind, however." Jaime, Ser Brienne will be here with Queen Sansa's retinue in but a moon's turn. It is inevitable you shall see her, and as Hand it is your place to liaise with our little Northern Queen. That you will end up in proximity of the Queen's sworn sword is a given. She deserves to know why you left, and that you still yearn for her."

"She will not believe, Tyrion."

"You cannot know that for certain." Tyrion breathes deeply. "It must be worth something that you ended Cersei's reign of terror. Surely. It proves-"

Jaime scoffs. "Brother, you know better than most the slice of a cruelly barbed tongue. My thick-headed wench meant to accompany me back to King's Landing, to what at the time I believed would be certain death. So I lied. I used my words to cut at every softness I managed to find during during that month I was buried inside her cunt and her heart. I proclaimed undying devotion to our sweet sister while my spend dried between Brienne's sweet thighs, then I left her crying in the snow." He's almost out the door when Tyrion calls out.

" She's your wife, Jaime. I know you love her! "

The drop of melted snow traces down to his jaw, as Brienne's fingers had under that weirwood.

" Always," he tosses over his shoulder as he leaves. "More than anything."

[whodoesntlovealliteration]

Chapter 119 SxF

Spoilers under

I'm a little shocked that people didn't expect Twilight's reaction to Yor reaching out to him. I am as much of a TwiYor fan as most people are, but honestly, it's a stretch to say they're anywhere near ready to try to 'make this real'.

One of the draws to me for this series was the tension between them being drawn out. I knew upon coming into this series that their relationship would be frustrating and agonizingly slow. It is and it will continue to be, by the design of the characters and narrative.

I came into the story not only anticipating that dynamic for them, but exceptionally pleased with how Endo has been portraying their inabilities to either connect with others or themselves due to their conditioning. I don't fault anyone for not giving with the pacing but in my opinion there is no other way for this to go.

Twilight has dedicated his entire being to having no desires, interests, dreams. His sense of self was burned right along with all his worldly belongings and his name. As far as he's concerned, he is a machine for The Machine.

It's been made quite clear that he is struggling with cognitive dissonance worming it's way into his mind. His body reacts to Yor without his expectation or understanding(infamous collapse to the floor), when he thinks he often has Freudian Slips around his verbiage(*I will protect Yor* instead of *We will need to be careful, to not compromise the mission*), and he outright goes against all training he has ever received regarding active combat(*kill all SSS in hot pursuit* yet he leaves Yuri alive so Yor doesn't grieve).

I don't think he's unaware of these things. He's *painfully* aware that he's already getting too close, too emotionally dependent on Yor, even if it's truly just crumbs of support. He notices it happening when it happens, and his only choice he's ever had is to bury it and move along.

*The man trusts no one by the nature of his very survival.*

He doesn't seem to understand that Yor is truly romantically interested in him, but why would he care to? It's completely irrelevant to his goals and purpose. Plenty of people have already said that he likely doesn't even entertain any thoughts of her desiring him because the last time he tried to push her boundaries, she *rocked his shit*. I have a feeling that he could tell Yor wanted to have a heartfelt conversation, but, that's simply not a risk he can take after realizing how dangerous his current attachment to her is.

His misunderstanding in their conversation was repetitive and looping. He's beyond skilled at maneuvering discussions how he sees fit, that's his whole career. I doubt he missed every signal that she cares about their arrangement and family, I think he chose to double down and ignore them.

The man isn't stupid, he's likely quite uncomfortable, even fearful of the effects her companionship has already had on him. She had asked what the plan after Anya's graduation would be and instead of asking what she meant, he avoided the question almost entirely. He can't bring himself to think that far ahead since he's certain that 'Loid Forger' would be long dead before that question required an actual answer.

Progress is not linear. People do not develop cleanly. We've watched him accidentally let his girls under his skin for the last 6 months and it's gotten bad enough that he's receding back into his shell now that he knows how dangerously close he is to *getting himself killed*. Before he can have any kind of epiphany of his feelings or interests for the future, his entire coping strategy of depersonalization has to be challenged so heavily that he has no choice but to admit he's compromised.

As people heal, they tend to swing on a pendulum of improvement and regression. He's going to desperately cling to what has kept him safe for his entire life until this point until it doesn't work anymore.

And a further point, we have no clue what was the longest time he's been in a honey trap relationship before the canon begins but it's at least well implied that he was with Karen for enough time for her to be asking about marriage and commitment. I'd go as far to say even someone as vapid as Karen(given what little thoughts Twilight seemed to have of her) wouldn't be thinking seriously about rings before 3-4 months. So let's say they were together for 6 months.

Twilight can and has kept full detachment from his Honey Marks many, many, many times before. Let's say 6 months was the longest. If Twilight left now, I'm certain it would sting him and he would use it to continue his long pattern of self-hatred, but he'd likely be able to compartmentalize it by this point.

It's only now that he's starting to slip in too deep to waters he's never tread before.

Personally? I'm excited to see him suffer inside as warmth and love burrow their unwelcome tendrils into the cold black thing he has that was once considered a heart. The only way we get a version of this man willing to share his soul with anyone else, is for him to literally have no other choice than to accept it.

[purplenightling]

I think Yor is going to talk to kiss Loid on the cheek next chapter.

[youareagoodperson]

thank you Canada 🇨🇦

[the-gimmick-hospital]

FUCK YEAH GO CANADA!!!

[yourboymolloy]

REBLOG TO LITERALLY SAVE A LIFE

[purplenightling]

Pssst... Anya is the "seal" who got separated from her herd during a southern migration.

[bogleech]

[madmaudlingoes]

It’s not just that the leaves will break down on their own (and enrich the soil while they’re at it!). During the winter, all sorts of insects use leaf litter for shelter, and they’re the first food available to larvae in early spring. Leaves also insulate the plants under them during the winter, which is important if you’re in an area prone to frost heaving.

One of the best thing you can do for native pollinators in your area is Leave the Leaves!

[diggingforkuponuts]

My mom stopped raking her leaves when she found out about this but her neighbor used his leaf blower to clear out her yard the first year she decided to try. So she started posting a Leave the Leaves sign in the yard each year with an explanation about why it’s good and two winters later only one house still rakes their lawn each year.

We’ve seen a dramatic increase in the biodiversity in the neighborhood since. We have birds that we haven’t seen since we moved into the city from living rurally and those birds are starting to nest in the trees and gardens in spring. The swallows and bats are back at night. The single woodpecker we would only occasionally see visits daily and even has a friend that has joined it. We have more squirrels and rabbits and shockingly fewer moles and voles. We heard an owl outside last fall.

Leave the leaves indeed.

[newenglandotaku]

Pennywise, you just made the worst choice of your existence.

[cruciform-solidarity]

[tami-taylors-hair]

I was in line at Aldi and this girl with two toddlers in front of me had her card declined and she looked so fucking sad and said “let me call my husband real quick” and it was only 18 dollars, so I just paid for it, and she was very sweet and then as she walked off, the lady behind me said `”You know that was probably a scam, right?” and like, even if it was, like what a sad fucking scam, right? 18 dollars at the Aldi. If you’re “scamming” me for some Tyson chicken and apple juice and cauliflower, then just take my fucking money. 

“A scam” people are fucking wild.  

[dragginage]

This happened to me, too. A woman had used WIC for the majority of her stuff (which I say from personal experience is such a long and embarrassing process) and to buy the remainder of her groceries, which included diapers and wipes, she used a card, and it got declined. I bought the other $30 of her groceries because hey, I’ve been there, and now I’m not. She was extremely emotional and began to cry and even hugged me. My mom called me on the drive home and could tell I had been crying myself, asked what was wrong, and when I told her what happened, she berated me for being “duped.” I couldn’t believe she could be so disappointed in one of her children for doing something- nice? Is that the hill you want to die on? Getting mad about people needing groceries?

[systlin]

I once paid for a woman’s bill at the vet…it wasn’t a big one, but she was trying to pay for some medication for her dog, and her card was declined. And her lip started trembling, and she says “I don’t get paid until Tuesday, would he be ok until then?” 

So I just told them to add the $20 something onto my bill, and I thought she was going to break down crying right there.

And I don’t care if it was a scam or not. Just do nice things for people sometimes. 

[flurrin]

Do good recklessly.

[solarpunk-gnome]

I think “Do good recklessly” would be fantastic word art to hang on one’s wall. Artistic people, go!

[7faerielights]

So this has happened to me but from the other side. Several years ago when my oldest was around three or so, I had my debit card decline at Walmart. It wasn’t a scam or a mistake, I was genuinely broke. Out of money. I checked my bank and discovered I had something like 7 dollars left to my name and a hungry kid and nothing to eat at home. So I sat there trying to come up with the best way to stretch that tiny amount of money to feed my kid. Not even to feed me. I can live on popcorn or something if I have to but my kid was three and he had to eat. So there I am trying really hard not to cry while I slowly take things out of my basket to get it down to under 7 bucks, when a lady tapped me on the shoulder. I looked up and she smiled at me and started putting the things back in my cart. I opened my mouth to tell her that I didn’t have the money for them but she stopped me right away and said “Don’t worry about it. It’s gonna be fine.” Then she handed the cashier her credit card and said “Ring up all of it.” My kid got to eat because of her. I got to eat because of her. I had laundry soap and deodorant because of her. She could’ve just ignored me silently struggling in that line. She could’ve decided I was a scam and gone home feeling good about avoiding being duped. But instead she chose to help me and she saved us. So maybe the person struggling in front of you is trying to put one over on you or maybe they are just sad and broke and trying to figure out what to do. You get to decide which you want to believe and what you want to do. But I’ll tell y’all, no one has ever been more beautiful to me than that lady in that line who saved me and my baby. Be like her. Be beautiful.

[29-pieces]

Do good recklessly

[lightningchaserarts]

DO BETTER. BE BETTER. STRIVE TO BE BETTER.

DO GOOD RECKLESSLY

[averagemarvelbitch]

One time, my dad and I were living the grocery store and there was a guy outside asking for money to buy some stuff to take home for his kids. It was around Christmas time. My dad asked him if he could give him groceries instead of money, and the guy immediately said yes, so my dad gave him one of everything we bought (meat, rice, some chocolates, milk, oil). At that time, my dad hadn’t gotten his paycheck because the company he worked for was going through a tough time, but he didn’t care, he saw an opportunity to help someone and he did.

Another time, my dad gave 50 bucks to a guy who said he needed to buy medicine for his kids. I told my dad he was probably going to spend the money on alcohol or something, but my dad said that “whether he was lying or not says something about HIS character, but hearing someone in need and choosing not to help when I have the means to says something about mine”.

I never forget that.

[tisfan]

“whether he was lying or not says something about HIS character, but hearing someone in need and choosing not to help when I have the means to says something about mine”

louder, for the people in the back

[imfemalewarrior]

Part of being a Warrior is doing good recklessly. 

-FemaleWarrior, She/They 

[kendermouse]

About a decade ago, I was trying to figure out how to put together a holiday meal for my little household, with only $7 to my name. We were joking around about it and stuff, because it’s better to laugh than cry, and this very nice older lady noticed us, and said it looked like we were having fun. I laughed, and told her what we were doing, and she insisted, then and there, on giving us $20 to help us out. We tried telling her we’d be fine, but she would not take no for an answer. It’s not the first time a stranger’s kindness has helped me during a rough time, but every time it’s happened, it’s made such a huge difference. If I refused to help out in turn when I can just because the person in need MIGHT be a scammer, it would feel like spitting on the kindness that was shown to me.

[dduane]

cc: @petermorwood (re Mum and the lady’s meat order she secretly paid for, for all those years)

[amygdalae]

From the US but i spell grey with an e because e just feels like a much greyer letter than a

[teaboot]

grey with an E is dusty neutral but gray with an A is bluish and darker

[ruinconstellation]

it really is, huh

[vmohlere]

Omg I’ve found my people

[helloelicia]

It's because GRAY is a West Saxon word for the quality of light, while GREY is an Anglian word for everyday objects. And everyday objects are typically earthy, warmer, or more neutral.

To explain: West Saxon and Anglian are both dialects of Old English. West Saxon was the politically dominant dialect, but Anglian was the more popular spoken dialect. So a lot of Old English texts are written in West Saxon, but what we know as Middle English and Modern English descended more from Anglian because it was spoken by more people.

So grey (the Anglian word) shows up when authors are describing everyday stuff. Like in this sentence describing a grey beard from Holy Boke Gratia Dei: "The hed of Petir is a brood face with mech her on his berd and that is of grey colour be twix whit and blak."

Any Middle English text you read, you'll find Anglian grey is the word the author prefers to describe everyday things. Grey wool, grey feathers, grey stones, grey horses.

By contrast, gray (the West Saxon word) shows up when authors are describing the qualities of light.

A gleaming gray sword, a deep gray lake, a misty gray morning, cold gray marble, sad gray eyes. Like in this sentence from The Siege of Jerusalem: "They glowes of graie steel that were with gold hemmyd." More often than not, gray describes an impermanent or glimmering quality of light.

There's even an instance where a Middle English author uses both, and you can see how one spelling is more about the quality of light while the other is more about the color of the animal: "The cerkyl or the roundel off the eye ys sumtyme graye lyke the ey off a catte, sumtyme blak grey lyke the eyn off doggys."

("The circle or round of the eye is sometimes gray like the eye of a cat, sometimes black-grey like the eyes of dogs.")

The reason Americans use gray and not grey is because Noah Webster hated the English. :)

[teaboot]

so freakin cool

[mamaspark]

Very interesting to learn the origins of these two spellings!

[maculategiraffe]

(kelly link, "the specialist's hat")

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[pokianne]

Just some Loid doodles I did for practice👀✏️

[avengingannie]

Maybe it's just my proximity to middle age, but for my money, Halsin is the most attractive romanceable character in BG3 by a mile. He's kind. He's courteous. He takes responsibility for his mistakes and undertakes to fix them without roping you into a bunch of drama about it and then goes on to help you save the world just because he likes you. He's a leader with a healthy ambivalence about leadership. He's effectively an eco-socialist with deep and abiding convictions about the treatment of the underprivileged, especially children. He is passionately romantic about you while also decrying the constraints and jealousies of compulsory monogamy. AND he's built like a brick shithouse and will fuck your brains out. I'm just not seeing what's not to love about this man.

[sapphling]

sitting anti-kink posters down in front of a wrestling match and explaining kayfabe to them with the patience of a preschool teacher

[sapphling]

You see that one? He's called the "heel." He looks mean and says a lot of scary things, but it's not real and he's actually very nice. When he says "I'm going to break you in half" you don't have to be scared because it's pretend. These two talked about this beforehand, and now they're playing pretend together. Can you think of any other situations that might be like this?

[sapphling]

no that part was real

[theloneliestblackgirlblog]

ok I have to specify, but everyone is aware that the pic of “Loid and Fiona kissing” is bait right? Loid would never. It’s a plot device. Yor is misunderstanding. The annoyance is that it’s become too overused at this point. Not that Loid is treating her badly or that he would ever cheat with Fiona of all people. I have to say this because it seems like people genuinely think that Loid cheated. They are genuinely mad at him for it. But think about how it literally doesn’t make sense for us to have an arc like we did with Loid and Yor and then have him cheat in a movie that (assuming) took place before said arc.

[lotsofblabblers]

About the new pv of the movie.

Yor doesn't even know it's Fiona. She says "he kissed a lady", but Loid is just holding the hat that Fiona let slip.

I don't t even understand how people can think Loid would kiss Fiona, when he always rejects her every time she insists on being his wife 🤣

I normally don't pay attention to those kinds of complaints cause some people are like "just skip the tennis arc, it's irrelevant" when it's not! That arc was meaningful for two things, the first one, for the second TwiYor date, and the other, because Loid compared himself with the owner of the portraits, a man who served his country but still loved his family until the end of his life. But I don't like when adult people cry irrationally over nothing (I'm not saying this because it's fiction, but because it's ridiculous the tantrum I'm seeing over something that it's clearly Yor misunderstanding). Think!

And believe me when I'm telling that Fiona it's not Yor's rival, because to be a rival, you have to be relevant you need to be at the same level, and Loid never thought about Fiona in that way.

And Yor it's not thinking about Fiona in the movie, as she didn't see Fiona, she just saw a random lady. Yor's rival is always herself (and Twilight 😒 if Twilight didn't exist, Loid would have advanced more in their relationship).

[purplenightling]

After today's chapter, I'm almost wondering if Anya was never actually given a name, so she named herself by taking the "-ania" from "Ostania".