Alef-questioning

He/it ☆ anti-contact ☆ zoophile ☆ deviant

[questioning-alef]

Intro post!!

☆ Welcome, you can call me Xeno! I am an anti contact zoophile looking for a safe outlet for my paraphilia, away from loved ones.

I may be inactive for longer periods so I apologize for slow interactions!

☆ he/it, chrono adult, transsexual male, aroace and queer. This account discusses nsfw at times but it’ll be tagged.

(Possible epilepsy warning for blinkies featured below!)

☆ I am an artist, and like to draw themes pertaining to my experiences and struggles with my paraphilia. You’ll often see me draw my sona Xeno, the jolt x torracat hybrid. I am always open to asks and interactions and am happy to answer any question as long as I feel comfortable to!

☆ Views: I have views that align with the movements ACPT and NO-ACT respectively. Outside of pro deviant circles I also believe in freedom of queer expression, which means being able to express all forms of queerness, fetish and kink freely without shame, judgement or the claim that some forms of queerness are somehow less oppressed than others. Lastly, I’ll just list off random buzzwords that align with how I feel: anti-censorship, freedom of fiction, pro-para(duh), anti-capitalism, socialist-adjacent, anti-war, animal welfare activist…

☆ Boundaries: While I can’t dictate who interacts with me, do keep in mind that I don’t fw anyone who is pro contact (for contact with chrono minors, theriform animals and non consenting bodies basically) or leaning towards it. For that reason I’m also critical of rq for accepting such views. Do not push any labels on me that I don’t explicitly use myself, every label you’ve seen me use on myself in this introduction is all there is. I would also like it if no one viewed me in a sexual or romantic manner, as I am repulsed by the thought of being seen that way. Lastly people who think us trans men have it easy can go fuck themselves, full stop.

☆ If you’re only here for my posts and don’t care about what I’m reblogging, follow these tags: #questioning alef; #questioning alef asks; #questioning alef art

☆ Last updated: May 9 [Old introduction here ]

My beautiful blinker/sticker horde to top it off!

[questioning-alef]

It’s pride month already… Happy pride to all queers, deviants and every other social outcast! Remember to love yourselves and be proud of who you are 💙

This space has opened up my mind a ton and I’m grateful to have joined it, I do not regret it and hope to see the space flourish and grow even bigger than before. I want to see deviants be accepted for who we are some day, no matter how long it may take.

[kiyos-den]

paramisia is unfortunately super common in society, so lots of people can accidentally hold beliefs that are paramisic without even realisin !! even paraphiles can accidentally be paramisic - let's unlearn paramisia together !!

[questioning-alef]

That pursuer situation only made me hc artful as a zoophile even tho I never even played the game

(Ref to a Roblox drama)

[natalieironside]

There's always a moment of intense cultural whiplash whenever I realize I'm talking to someone who thinks "legal" and "illegal" are meaningful categories and ascribes innate goodness to following the law. It's like meeting a space alien.

[zmpl]

a lot of the DSM’s very clearly prejudiced diagnoses (e.g. hypoactive sexual desire disorder, gender dysphoria, transvestic disorder, etc.) try to skirt around the prejudice by saying “the disorder lies in the patient’s distress over being this way, not the behavior itself :)” like hmmm do you think their distress has anything to do with societal expectations around “normal” sexuality and gender? or is distress just this magic thing that exists in a vacuum with no outside influence

like keep in mind that homosexuality was in the DSM until pressure was put on the APA by gay rights activists, and they “removed” it in 1973 and replaced it with many different diagnostic labels over the years to describe “this person is gay and distressed over it so we’re treating the distress with conversion therapy. blease don’t think we’re homophobic.” it wasn’t until 2013 that distress over one’s own sexual orientation was removed entirely from the DSM. do what you will with this information and begin to wonder what psychiatry’s actual motives are for continuing to pathologize queerness and gender nonconformity.

[questioning-alef]

Tw vent

I’ve never really learned how to cope with paranoia, especially paramisia related paranoia.

One thing is having my trust betrayed by people who I thought were against theriform animal and chrono child abuse but were proven to commit or support it, which has made me bitter to the bigger figures and circles in the space, another is having experienced so much casual paramisia that it has made me deathly afraid of my friends not accepting me and people in my irl life finding out about my attraction.

I was and still am so happy to express myself, but my paranoia has really affected my ability to post without shaking in fear, i wish it wasn’t so hard. I wanna create more art so bad but I feel watched whenever I do, I feel like I’m only one post away from having my life ruined.

Im not giving up, im still gonna post once im on break, i just needed to get that out. If anyone has felt similarly to this, just know ur not alone and that I get your struggles, I really do.

[rotfilleddog]

Do you believe animals can consent?

No :)

Consent is more than the ability to say yes or no. It’s the full understanding of and willingness to do something. There’s really no evidence to support animals understanding complex concepts well enough to be able to consent,despite being very smart creatures ^^

[questioning-alef]

I doubt I’m gonna be active here for a while :<( I’ve been pretty busy and would rather focus on irl stuff for now, but I will come back eventually and hopefully post more stuff, especially the deviant reclamation and flag post I’ve been itching to do for a while!

[questioning-alef]

Genuine question to those who are transspecies:

Do you find your identity to be different of that of alterhumans and therians? As an outsider of all three groups I was always curious, since they all kinda overlap heavily, and I have tried hard to understand the differences between them but still struggle to do so at times.

[questioning-alef]

Could there be some variation of the biasto hanky code for those who aren't looking for someone to do CNC/have sex with and just want to display para pride?

I definitely wanna rework the biasto one a bit bc even back then I kicked myself for making the meanings too sexual leaning rather than neutral like the others.

Handkerchiefs where the rose is a different color could provide helpful signaling tho! For example a blue rose could be used as an exclusively non sexual one if wanted.

Again, I may also change the meaning slightly but I think this could be helpful in providing variations! Thank you for the ask, it reminded me why I wanted to rework my original concepts for the first four paras! :<)

[questioning-alef]

bwahh okay hi wi'm on anon because wi'm "closeted" about all this.. so wi'm tempted to use the para hanky code you came up with, but wi'm actually a paraparaphile (wi'm attracted to the idea of the paraphilia and the idea of people having the paraphilia) so liiike. technically neither side would make sense for mwe. wi was thinking wi'd do it on the "auto" side to possibly show other paras that wi'm into it (if they wanted to do any sorta hookup or smth based on that. if you get mwe), but like........ wi'm not into it in an auto way!! so idk.

idk. any thoughts? wi'm kinda not sure what to do here lmao

Tbh I’m a bit stumped myself lol, this is definitely an interesting ask and I wish I had a more satisfying response to give to you.

The left side would make more sense to use imo, tho rn the only thing I can come up with is simply clarifying your attraction to the person, it does have me thinking now to update the meanings a bit or create a new hanky for specifically paraparaphiles.

Once I’m done with my preparations for the deviance reclamation post I’ll most likely work more on the hanky codes, everyone really likes them and I myself am really fond of them :))

[manuciruja]

me: mmm this thing this person said rubs me the wrong way, but they probably didn't mean it like that, I'm just overreacting, there's no need to block them or respond

the beloved mutual: just blocked someone for liking the colour blue ✌️

[atypicalattractions]

When I was an anti I was convinced (based on nothing) that using fiction, toys or kink was “feeding into your paraphilia” and would make you want to act on it, but after actually testing this I realized that having a harmless outlet really does the opposite. It can be very healthy.

[questioning-alef]

Hard relate, it actually makes me think of how comforting it has been using my sona Xeno as a way to express my deviancy, thanks to it I don’t deal with as much internalized guilt and fear as I used to, a big fuck you to the grown ass adults who used to convince me as a kid that my thoughts made me evil, all because they didn’t know how to deal with discomfort.

[porblematic]

I am not entirely satisfied with contact stances myself and I do think they probably need an upgrade, but half of the people who complain about them sound like if someone said this about gun control:

"Gun control stances are too vague! I don't understand whether people who are pro gun control mean that everyone who ever thought of a gun should be killed to death with stones or that someone who shot their wife in her own house should be gently reprimanded for it! I also don't understand whether they apply to water or glue guns :( I mean, if gun control would apply to glue guns then I can't be pro gun control. Depriving people of glue guns is just stupid. I also like Sex Pistols (the band) and I think that subjecting its members to extra control would be pretty totalitarian, TBH. I have been very meaningfully participating in gun discourse this whole time but I just cannot do this anymore, guys :("

[questioning-alef]

Back again! I hope everyone has been doing well, April was a bit of a rollercoaster but I’ve been looking at life with a more healthy lense.

I’ll try to catch up with whatever my deviant moots have been up to lol.

[questioning-alef]

so sylveon is the transgender one and jolteon is the paraphile one what are the other eeveelutions

This ask made me laugh a bit (in a pos way) bc of “the transgender one” but yes I am curious now too!

I see eevee as the transID one personally, with how it can choose to evolve in many different ways, for the others I’m not too sure and I’d love to see what others might come up with.

Actually, I think it’d be neat for umbreon to represent intersex, cuz of the rings!