It's Your Road & Your's Alone

"You've only got three choices in life...Give up, give in or give it all you got." Personal Journey, from 265lbs to the fit woman I know is hidden inside

[rachelchristineeee]

Sorry =[

I haven't updated in almost a week if not more =[ I have thought been taking photos in the morning. So I am now weighing in at 238.6 pounds.  So I did break the 240 area. However, I have been craving a stupid Baja-Fresh burrito for months! So Thursday I had what I thought would be the most amazing, delicious, mouth-watering outstanding burrito the earth could possibly offer...... Not so much..... It was soggy, heavy, tasted so fake, and I guess just overall horrible for the 30 minute lunch I took to go get it. 

So I won't be getting one again. That was easy to cut that out of my life. Sorry BajaFresh. 

Sooo! For updates! Here you guys go =]

Those were from the 15th.

These are from the 20th. Sorry, I forget to take some in the morning. 

These are from the 22nd. I Haven't taken any the last couple days.

There's the update for the past week. 

=]

[rachelchristineeee]

I haven't done much I know

I haven't posted lately. Haven't felt 100%. More stressed then anything. I've gone for walks, runs, hikes and everything and every morning I wake up and feel like I am still 1000 pounds. I dot mean to post a sad entry but I don't know what to do. I know everyone has those days but for me it's worse. I can't get depressed. It's not good for me. I don't handle depression well. I have to lose weight to fit in wedding dresses. Speaking of. I need to set appointments to go to David's bridal to try on dresses. See how far I need to go.

[rachelchristineeee]

TRANSFORMATION TUESDAY

This was this morning compared to April. Sweet! No more soda forever!

TRANSFORMATION TUESDAY. 

Weighed in at 241.0 pounds this morning.  

Nuff said. 

[rachelchristineeee]

Can we all take a single moment!!?!

I don’t care who you pray, praise, look up to, deticate yourself to, whatever or whoever it is THANK THEM AND PRAISE THEM! 

239 POUNDS FLICKERED ON MY SCALE JUST NOW! 

I havent seen the 230’s pop up in almost 2 years!!! Excited? Uh YEA!  

[rachelchristineeee]

New Goal, New Motivation.

Whats the new goal? Whats the new motivation? You want to know??

Goal: Lose 50 pounds so we can take engagement photos. (So I feel comfortable)  New motivation: Not being a plus size bride. 

For those of you who don’t know. Wedding dress sizes make you feel fat. For example, if you are a size 2 you most likely are a 6 in wedding dresses. It sucks. Do the math. haha 

So I am trying this new thing that I know a lot of you will disagree with but it is working for me and well, that is all that matters to me. I am not starving myself, not just drinking fluid, its something that I have realized works very well as I still only gained 1 pound back which is NOT bad based on what I was eating. 

I weighed in today at 244.4 pounds. Not bad you say?  I will tell you why. For 30 days I was on a “diet” not eating out, not eating anything off my diet. Then for the past week I have treated myself to normal eating, but in portions to see how much weight I “really” lost. Which is still a lot. Gaining back only a pound shows me that I lost 10 pounds in April. Not to shabby. 

Diet for 30 days

Break for 1 week. 

This really is the best thing for me. Well, back to the grind of Diet, Gym, Hiking and Crossfit. My first class was AMAZING! Sadly my second class I didnt have gas to get there then forgot about it on Friday. Oops. I’m human sorry. haha

Well to catch up, here are the progress photos for this morning. Here is a fun fact, I am burned to all hell! I was working outside for 9.5 hours and I sort of just forgot that the sun was there haha. So thats why I look like I am red as a lobster. It is actually better then yesterday. 

Once I lose the 50 pounds I am loooking foward to, I want to make a video of all the progress photos to just see the weight melt off. I think it would be fun!

Fun Fact: I think we have chosen a date for the wedding! It’s a secret until we talk more about it! So exciting! 

Happy Monday!  

[rachelchristineeee]

Haven't posted in a couple days I'm sorry!

I haven't had my iMac to take progress pictures. Should be up and running again at latest Saturday <3. I'm plateaued right now at 245.2. Got to step up my game. :) I have wedding dress to try on and fit into. I REFUSE to be a plus size bride.

[rachelchristineeee]

End of Competition for me

Today was the last day for the Total Gym competition at work. Needless to say, I didn't win. Though I felt it was sort of sucky for the bigger people compared to the skinny people. They did % of body fat lost. I lost 11.5 pouns .8 pounds short of 5% which is what I needed to beat. Oh well. 

Better news! I got engaged yesterday! =] yayy

This morning I weighed in at 243.8 which is more then the last entry but I slacked off horribly this weekend. So I am down from yesterday weighing 246.0 pounds. 

Besides that, here are updated morning weigh loss pictures from this morning. =] 

I lost 11.5 pounds average. So about 10 pounds a month. In about 7 months, if I keep this up I will be at my goal of 170 pounds! 

Can't wait! 

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CASPER!!!!!  he was so cute.

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[rachelchristineeee]

Thowback Thursday// Hurt my shoulder at the gym.

I have done it. I’ve done what I was scared I would do. I am at the point where no matter what I do I don’t feel satisfied with my workout. I don’t feel I have done enough. That I could have pushed myself harder, could have sweat a bit more, could have should have, I feel like I didn’t. This is what I was worried it was getting to.

I am at the point where I am scared to eat certain things, because in my head I have talked myself into believing that I will gain everything back. I am genuinely scared. I am not not eating. I am not that bad. I am eating but I feel that even eating a salad is killing me! I wish I didn’t.

So starting next week, I start doing CROSSFIT in hopes to stop this slump I am in already. My mom is going to give me a couple at least training sessions to which I hope help me out a bit. I am seriously on the verge of crying when I don’t feel I have worked out enough.

Hopefully I see some satisfaction. Something. Anything.

I bullshitted my workout yesterday and only lost .2 pounds. I know I know, that is something but it kills me…..

It’s true…. BS a workout, the scale will BS a result….. thats way to true.

Anyway… heres my Thowback picture.

I wasn’t skinny to say the least, but I didn’t have a double chin. I was happy. I was comfortable with my life. Plus I had my hair =[

UGH! yea, I need to find friends again. =/

But anyway, weighed in at 243.2 pounds.

Need to go harder at the gym, in life and just in general.

I pushed myself a bit to much today at the gym though. I was doing a Barbell Pullover (straight) and went a bit to far back and my right shoulder popped out the socket and back. Hurt so much. =[

Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day. Might go to a yoga class in the morning.

[rachelchristineeee]

It's true what they say

You half ass a workout. The scale will half ass a result. I knew I didn't do enough yesterday. Lacked hardcore. So I only lost .2 pounds. Weighed in at 243.4 from yesterday. Oh well. Pick back up and keep pushing. Going to go hard at the gym today to make up for it. No more slacking off. On another note, Iron Man 3 midnight showing tonight hopefully with the BF.

[rachelchristineeee]

Whatever Wednesday <3 5/1/13

First day of May, one week until the end of the Total Gym competition. I know I didn’t win but it was really fun to start doing this whole thing. Now I am addicted to seeing that scale go down. I don’t know if that is a good or a bad thing. 

I pulled out a couple old outfits, and it is true what they say, you get happy when your clothes fit better! 

Todays’ weigh in was 243.6. I did a short entry this morning to celebrate it but My excitement isn’t expressed correctly. I am seriously so excited to see the scale go into the 230’s is sickening. haha. 

Heres an outfit that I would not fit in before. LIke no way in hell….. I fit in it, I can zip it, and I can be comfortable in it. Now if only I had a job where I could wear stuff like this haha. 

Going to go hiking. It is to late to go to the gym, it would be so packed. My mom and I carpooled today so I wasnt able to go straight to the gym at 1:30pm. Back at it tomorrow. =]

Happy Wednesday everyone! 

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[rachelchristineeee]

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I WEIGHTED IN AT 243.6!!!!!!

4.6 more pounds and I am in the 30's!!!!!

Sorry no pictures this morning. Carpooling with Momma to work today. So pictures maybe later. Sorry guys. <3 

happy Whatever Wednesday! 

[rachelchristineeee]

Jwoww you're killing me. Perfect body.

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Those legs!!

[rachelchristineeee]

I need to push. You helped me close a door

You helped me close a door to a life that didn't make me happy. Be thankful for all those people who tell you everyday you can't. Be thankful to those who turn their back on you when you need them most, for those who betray you, for those who try to keep you down. They will be the reason you push harder everyday. You don't need to retaliate, remember kill them with kindness. Don't let yourself get filled up with darkness because it will eventually make you a bitter person. Let them talk, and prove them wrong by doing the exact opposite of what they are doing. Don't let anyone put you down ever. Use that negative energy as pre-workout fuel. I've had so many people put me down, betray me and only them and I know how much it hurts me. I've forgiven those people and thanked them for closing those doors at the end of the tunnel so I can find my own door knob and Open the doors to my own destiny. Let Karma take care of it and go on with your chin up. Don't worry. Good things happen to those who do good in the world.