passive suicidal thoughts are the worst.. i'm not even trying to kill myself but still wishing all the time whether something happens and i just vanish away from this world.. maybe being hit while crossing road or getting a life threatening disease.. inside, it keeps eating me alive
The door slamming behind you interrupts Caleb as he works on his model plane. You flop down on the couch next to him.
“Everything okay pips?” He looks at you in concern. “Did something happen at work?”
You simply nod before you hug him and bury yourself against his shoulder. Caleb rubs soothing circles on your back. “Is there anything you want to make you feel better?”
“Yeah” you look at him teary eyed “Take off your shirt.”
“What?”
“Take off your shirt.” Caleb grabs your wrist to stop you from pulling off his shirt.
“Caleb please I had such a stressful day at work” you plead.
He sighs, he really can’t say no to you and takes off his shirt. You immediately wrap yourself around him and place your face right between his pecs. The stress seemed to instantly melt away.
“Are you feeling better pips?” You mumbled a yes. Your hands were squeezing his pecs. “Glad I cloud help.”
born to infodump forced to constantly worry if the other person actually cares or if im making sense or if i said something wrong or if im embarrassing myself or if they want me to stop talking or
(I’m so fucking pissed off rn cuz I was writing this and was almost done but then the draft just fucking disappeared. ANYWAYS I just rewatched thunderbolts* and remembered why I love Bob so much so I had to make this)
—————
SFW
• Bob absolutely loves it when you run your fingers through his hair, especially when he’s feeling sad.
He’ll be having one of his depressive low days and search for you in the tower. When he finds you scrolling through your phone on the couch, he’ll lay down next to you and place his head in your lap. He doesn’t even need to say anything because you already know what he wants. You’d take your hand and gently rake your fingers through his wavy hair. It’s a simple gesture, but it’s one that brings him comfort when he needs it most.
• His sleep schedule is screwed up so sometimes you’ll find him awake at odd hours of the night.
It’d be around 3am and maybe you’d just woken up from a nightmare. You’d decide to go to the kitchen to get a snack before going back to sleep. You use your cellphone’s flashlight to guide your way to the kitchen. When you get there, your light illuminates Bob’s silhouette sitting at the island counter. “Couldn’t sleep?” he’d ask casually, as if he wasn’t sitting silently in pitch-black darkness just seconds ago. You’d munch on cookies together before convincing him to come back to bed with you to get some rest.
• Bob doesn’t know how to comfort you when you’re feeling down, so he rambles to distract you.
It was one of those days where you weren’t talking much. In fact, you weren’t really doing much of anything. Bob found you in your room in bed, rolled into a burrito of blankets as you stared into the abyss. He’d come and lay beside you, putting an arm around you before starting to talk. He’d talk about a book he read, a new pizza place that opened down the street, or the horrible rom-com that was on tv earlier. Anything to get your mind off of….whatever it was on. You wouldn’t listen at first, but as you started to the dark cloud over your mind would fade away. When you were feeling a bit better you’d engage in conversation and he’d know that his distraction tactic was successful.
NSFW
• Bob takes the most pleasure in knowing that he’s making you feel good.
When he goes down on you, every couple moments he has to look up at your face to make sure you’re enjoying it. As if your sultry moans weren’t enough proof. You’d have a grip on his hair that was so tight but felt so good. His nose would bump and brush against your clit while his tongue was spelling his name in your pussy. Poor Bob has to grind down against the sheets to get some sort of friction against his painfully hard cock. When you finally gush on his face, he can’t help but cream his pants. It was totally worth it though, seeing the look of pure bliss on your face.
• He’s a sucker for praise. (me too Bob, me too)
“You’re doing such a good job f’me Bobby~” You’d coo as you ride him, grinding your hips down against his. He hated the nickname, but the way it sounded from your lips…you were the only one who could get away with calling him that. He’d have a tight grip on your hips, tugging you down so he would be buried deep inside your cunt. You could tell from the way his hips bucked up into you at a more rapid pace that he was getting close. “Don’t cum yet, Bobby. Not yet, hold on for me.” you commanded him. He would whine but comply, biting down on his bottom lip to keep himself from bursting inside you. Only when you orgasm do you slow him to cum too. “Good boy, Bobby, you’re so good for me…” you pant as you collapse onto his chest, both of you catching your breath.
• He verbally makes it known how good you’re making him feel.
Sex with Bob is always filled with, “Oh fuck, you feel so good around me” and “fuck, fuck, fuck, ‘m gonna cum, ‘m gonna cum–!” He can’t help but be vocal when your warm, gummy walls clench around his throbbing erection. All he can think about is how bad he needs to cum inside you. Just his moans alone could get you off. Even when you’re just giving him head, his groans and whines, the way he bites his lip and grips the sheets….it’s got you dripping wet without even having to be touched. “Can I– Can I cum on your face?” “In your mouth? B-But– ahh– ngh, fuck~!” “You swallowed it…? That’s s-so hot..”
—————
not proofread or anything cuz I don’t feel like it so mb for any mistakes lol.
I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager, I’m not chopped, I’m just a teenager,
summary: snippets of yours and aizawa’s relationship over time. quiet yearning, love, and a little bit of toxicity.
warnings: major age gap (aizawa is like 35 & reader is around 20). teacher/student relationship. nsfw (v small smut at the end).
a/n: this has been in my drafts for almost 3 years now. paragraph here & there within those years so if the writing is off it’s bc i’m rusty as hell i’m sorry y’all this is just word vomit.
if anybody were to ask shota aizawa if he’s ever been loved — he would say no, mainly because the concept of love has always been foreign to him — he had never thought of himself as someone you’d choose to fall in love with.
his class? they’d have a different answer.
because there’s you — you who has been silently screaming your love to him for years.
it’s in the way you’d bring a cup of coffee for him on your early morning training sessions — you had engraved the sight of him brewing a cup the last time he visited your dorm and subconsciously memorized his order.
your classmates would call you insane when they spot you in the kitchen — with sugar, coffee beans, and measuring utensils splayed all out on the counter. you hovering over the measurements as if an unneeded speck of sugar falling into his cup would lead to your demise.
to you, it would.
aizawa, oblivious to it all, accepts your coffee graciously every time. a small smile gracing his lips as his palm clasps around the mug. a soft thank you is muttered — voice still laced heavily with sleep but sincere.
and it’s his sincerity, his appreciation for you going out of your way to make him this every morning — that gets you through your training every time.
mornings to you, with him — always feels like possibility and hope, the day still untinged — so many things can happen.
and as you take your first sip of coffee, your heart goes warm — but there’s a bitterness on your tongue — a reminder, as you lose yourself in this pitiful fantasy every morning, that this small gesture — is one he doesn’t understand and probably will never.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
it’s in the way you go above and beyond — doing things you’ve never done before just for him. you heard through the grapevine that aizawa shota likes cookies.
you have never baked in your life.
sato, is as kind as ever to indulge you when you bring up the subject of baking cookies just for fun — he ends up giving you his most prized recipe and wishes you luck.
and you have to wonder to yourself, how hard can it be?
it takes you two hours to bake an edible batch.
it’s 11pm and you’re in the dorm’s kitchen — counter littered with parchment paper, sugar, butter, eggs — and god, there’s flour everywhere.
everything’s a mess.
you’ve made almost six batches so far — some either too burnt or not baked enough. shoto, who has been sitting in the living room the entire time, has smelt the distasteful scent of burnt chocolate too many times tonight.
“are you sure you’re following the recipe correctly?” he chirps from afar one time, and the frustrated glare you give him shuts him up for the night.
the seventh batch in the oven right now holds all your hopes and dreams — if it ends up being inedible, you’re quite sure you’d break down.
surprisingly (to you and shoto), it is a success.
it’s thick and chewy — a golden brown color adorning the edges whilst the center remains soft. and shoto, in all his childlike stupor, gobbles down a few immediately.
“good job. i didn’t think you could do it.” he says earnestly whilst chewing.
you roll your eyes at him as you clean the kitchen, packing away the ingredients used and ridding the counters of flour stains — you’re exhausted but absolutely thrilled at your mediocre baking skills.
now, all that’s left to do is deliver it to him.
after making sure the mess you made is thoroughly cleaned up, you grab a small brown paper bag and gently place the cookies inside — praying to god that none breaks or gets smushed.
you opt to write a small note for him — nothing borderline creepy but something sincere — but the only thing that’s in your mind right now is how you’d wish to be the one sweetening his thoughts rather than these cookies. how you wish you were the one to make him feel so light and warm with each taste, rather than these cookies.
you wish you never made them — they’re just a harsh reminder that shota aizawa is an unattainable person for you.
and gosh, you’re breaking down over fucking cookies now — you thank god shoto returned to his room when you were cleaning.
thanks for being a great teacher! xo
short, simple & sweet.
(it’s not even close to what you really wanted to say).
you know he’s awake right now, most likely correcting papers but, you’d rather remain anonymous — not wanting to get caught trespassing in the teachers’ dorm building at this ungodly hour.
plus, you don’t think you can handle explaining yourself to him right now.
cookies? out of the blue? to your teacher?
weird.
you know it’s fruitless doing all of this but — shota aizawa is your idealized daydream, and you are empty without this.
so alas, you leave them by his door — knocking gently then full-on sprinting out of the building.
unbeknownst to the fact that as soon as aizawa opens his door, he’s met with a handwriting he knows all too well.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
it’s in the way you stay back after class on days when aizawa looks like he might pass out if he lifts his pen the wrong way.
the way a quiet adoration seeps through you as you help him tidy up his desk — placing pens and pencils back into his stationery holder, stacking his papers neatly in a corner, and throwing away crumpled-up paper into a dustbin nearby.
and aizawa indulges you — doesn’t have the energy to shoo you off as he’s too engrossed in the file he has been rereading for over ten minutes.
“wanna hear a joke about paper?”
his head rises — eyes locked on you as his eyebrows raise quizzically.
he motions for you to continue.
“nevermind, it’s tearable.”
and aizawa huffs, his distaste for the joke showing evidently — until he sees a small grin forming on your lips, and suddenly he’s mirroring your expression — a soft smile gifted to you.
he feels lighter now — after that lame joke cut through whatever tiredness he was feeling.
and you can tell by the way he straightens his posture just a bit — then flips the paper to the other side, eyes skimming through it quickly and snatching another paper from the stack you cleared up.
you’re relieved — already reaching for your bag and on your way out of the room, not wanting to disturb him anymore.
but before your two feet are out the door, a soft mutter is heard from behind.
“thank you.”
and it melts your heart.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
and if anybody ever asked shota if he had ever loved someone before, he would say no — he’s never allowed himself to indulge in something like that.
hizashi? he’d have a different answer.
because there’s you.
you, who he has been quietly loving without even realizing it.
it’s in the way aizawa subconsciously shifts his schedule. he remembers the one time you mentioned, in passing, that you train alone at USJ after lunch on tuesdays. and suddenly, he’s found himself pacing his steps alongside yours every tuesday.
even though it’s out of his way and he knows he’s cutting it close to his next class.
he tells himself it’s nothing, just a change of scenery, a breath of fresh air until he’s locked between four walls. but there’s something in the way he lingers a bit longer than he should, his steps slowing as you near the training grounds.
you mutter a small thank you to him as usual, offering your kindest smile.
and aizawa revels in it each time, bidding you farewell with a nod before he locks eyes with hizashi atop the staircase.
and the blonde is thoroughly confused.
shota aizawa? walking?
with a student?
it has his gears turning, but it doesn’t take long for him to catch on.
it’s reoccurring, consistent. the look in his bestfriend’s eyes each time you smile at him, and it’s no mistake — since you’ve started to reside in his eyes, they seem to be brighter, more vibrant.
but he knows it’s something shota will never admit to himself.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
it’s in the way aizawa pays attention to you — has learned your little quirks and habits unknowingly throughout the years, and knows how to satiate them.
the second he sees you walk through his door with your hair undone — tangled in minute knots — he knows you’re stressed — absolutely running yourself to the ground about something.
but he never pries, only offers a soft, “you’re doing great, kid,” before you exit his class — and the way your eyes light up at his small praise leaves his stomach in knots.
it’s the way he knows you always forget to bring your gloves when training on a monday — the way he watches you ruffle through your bag, brows furrowed as you search for them — and before you can even admit your blunder, he’s already tossing you one from his desk.
and it’s always brand new — as if he has a pack of gloves stashed in his drawer for this exact moment.
(he does).
“thank you,” you mutter sheepishly — eyes full of warmth and a hint of heat in your cheeks. aizawa brushes it off as usual, with no admonishment on his lips, just a small sense of pride.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
it’s in the way shota’s a bit more protective of you, without realizing it.
he’s already on his feet the second the lights turn red — emergency drill? invader? — he’s not sure exactly what’s happening but the alarm blaring over the intercom has his teeth on edge.
his first instinct, unfortunately, is to look for you across the field.
and there you are, sitting on a bench, bottled water between your legs as you glance around confusedly.
shota shouts for everyone to stay calm and await instructions.
but he’s already bolting in your direction without realizing it, his focus narrowed in a way it shouldn’t be. something in his mind telling him that having you within his line of sight is better for you. that he’s just trying to keep his students safe.
the intercom crackles, something about a small fire in the main building and students should gather at the muster point — and aizawa’s shoulders loosen slightly, tension easing at the announcement.
no immediate threat.
but he can’t shake the feeling, the way his chest constricted — seeing you in a red hue. panic coursing through his veins, rivaling only the strongest rivers at the thought of you alone, vulnerable, left to your own devices.
and he shouldn’t feel this way. no — you’re a hero in training. you’re very much capable of handling yourself — he quite literally trained you so he knows you pack a punch.
so why does aizawa feel as if the thought of leaving you alone is synonymous with him giving away his breath?
something’s not right here — but that thought is buried deep, completely hidden.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
three months after you graduated, shota receives an email that catches him off guard — the message is polite — simple, even. you’re just asking how things are and if he’d be able to grab a cup of coffee sometime to catch up.
it’s innocent, no harm in coffee — right?
wrong.
because the minute he enters the cafe, he knows you and him have begun to blur — that the world has shifted beneath his feet.
it’s hesitation oozing out of him as he makes his way towards your table, but not the kind that comes from doubt, the kind that comes from knowing.
from knowing that the minute he sits across from you, something will begin to unravel — something he isn’t sure he’ll be able to put back together.
his heart.
shota knows better than this — to wrap himself up in such forbidden affairs. regardless if you’re no longer his student — the age gap is huge.
but the second he locks eyes with you, nothing else matters. you’re different now, standing on your own, no longer his student. and yet, you’re still you.
you, who has been silently screaming your love for him for years.
“hi!” you chirp out, warmth radiating from the ceramic mug in your hands. you almost move to hug him, but he’s already settling into the seat across from you — eyes unreadable.
you take a sip of your drink before speaking again. “it’s been a while.”
aizawa nods, “around 3 months.”
you raise an eyebrow. “counting, are we?”
and a smirk tugs at his lips.
the conversation flows easily from there — updates about work, about your old classmates, about anything that isn’t this.
but there’s an undercurrent beneath it all, something unspoken lingering between each exchange, thickening the air.
and finally, you decide to address it.
you set your cup down, tracing the rim absentmindedly as you meet his gaze. “i wasn’t sure if you’d actually come.”
and aizawa stills, flexing his fingers around his cup — he feels like an angsty teenager. “i wouldn’t have come if I didn’t want to.” his voice is low, steady, but there's a hint of uncertainty laced within it.
your breath catches slightly.
“then, can i ask you something?” you lean forward just slightly, watching the way his eyes snap back to you.
he nods.
“can we date?”
and oh my god, aizawa has never thought he’d be in a situation like this — being asked out so directly by his former student.
he is stunned – but he’s not a fool, everything then had prepared him for the now.
his fingers tap against his cup, his jaw tightening. “you’re young.”
you tilt your head, challenging. “i’m not a kid.”
shota studies you carefully, as if weighing his next words. “no, you’re not.”
and that’s the problem, isn’t it? you’re not a child. you’re not his student. you’re standing in front of him as your own person, asking for something real.
asking for him.
aizawa leans back in his chair, rubbing a tired hand over his face. “you should want someone who-”
“don’t do that,” you cut him off, voice firm but not unkind. “don’t tell me what I should want.”
for years, you’ve known exactly what you wanted — never faltering once. it’s one thing to reject you but, deciding for you? that’s just cruel.
he exhales, long and slow. “this isn’t to be taken lightly,”
“i know.” because god, this is all you’ve ever wanted, something serious with him. not a daydream.
“if we do this,” he murmurs, voice lower now, rougher. “i’m not going to pretend there aren’t challenges.”
you nod your head. that’s obvious, but you’re willing to put in the effort.
“you might change your mind.”
“i won’t.”
aizawa watches you, searching, waiting for something — a flicker of hesitation, a sign that you don’t fully understand what you’re asking. but all he sees is certainty.
and maybe that’s what undoes him.
he looks defeated.
as if he’s wrestling against something in his mind, something that sprouts from his heart — but its vines constrict his throat. it’s almost as if he feels like he needs to disagree.
to say no.
that this isn’t right.
but how long will he fight with himself?
when will he allow himself some solace?
now.
and when he glances up to meet your eyes, he realizes that, yes — he has won over the whole world, but he’s lost himself to you.
the effect you have on him is so strong, something he has never felt before — it’s as if he takes your name with each breath he breathes.
what have you done to him?
his fingers tighten once more around his cup, a slow exhale leaving his lips. “sure.”
you blink at him, lips parting slightly, “sure?”
the corner of his mouth lifts, barely there. “you heard me.”
and just like that, the world shifts again.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
and it was as if shota aizawa was made specifically for you.
from the way his calloused fingers grasp yours — the way you can trace constellations on them for days — to the way his clothes drown you with a warmth you’ve never felt before.
to the way he’s never stopped trying to woo you since you’ve both made it official.
“you’ve become my destiny and destination.”
stupid sappy words whispered between the two of you – as if it's your first time in love, and for the both of you, it is.
the minute he locked eyes with you, he’s everything you ever wanted — older, wiser, the kind of man who doesn’t let insecurity cloud his judgment, who doesn’t feel the need to mark his territory or stake his claim. he trusts you, respects you — and unwaveringly loves you.
something you’d never get with a man your age. he’s in check with his emotions. a mentally stable man. a walking green flag.
and god he’s perfect for you in every way, but sometimes you’d wish he’d just — show some type of reaction to things.
you’re young, generations apart, you get that but — sometimes you’d wish he’d be possessive, get a bit jealous — throw you up against a wall and ask you are you sure wanna wear that?
it’s your naivety that craves a bit of toxicity. a thrill. nothing huge, just a small bit of possessiveness is hot, it’s able to rile you up.
and so you try to do just that.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
trial one.
you know he’s watching you.
observing as you gulp down not one, but three shots back to back — but he’s not watching for the right reasons. no, you know he’s only monitoring your alcohol intake, making sure you’re not overdoing it.
you know his gears aren’t turning, not wondering for a second why katsuki has his arm slung lazily around your shoulder, fingers interlocked with yours like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
no, your boyfriend sits quietly in the booth, fingers tracing the rim of his glass as hizashi yaps about something he isn’t the slightest interested in — but his eyes never leave you.
yet, they don’t narrow, his jaw doesn’t twitch, grip on his glass doesn’t get tighter when he sees his past student dropping his head just enough to murmur something low against your ear which makes you giggle.
and maybe that makes him swallow a bit hard but, it’s not enough for him to get up off his seat to break you both up.
and you let that thought fuck with your head as you down another shot — because why does he refuse to throw you a bone?
any normal boyfriend would not let another man casually lock fingers with their girlfriend — why is he always so composed? it’s boring.
you start to wonder if he’s just too secure. if he’s convinced you’ll never cheat, never stray — and while he’s right, couldn’t he at least pretend to worry?
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
trial two.
that is not your jacket.
shota knows that, you know that.
and yet, he doesn’t budge when he sees todoroki shrug it off and drape it over your shoulders. doesn’t even blink when you slip it on like you’ve done a million times, and maybe you have — the way it fits you like a glove.
the moment is soft, nostalgic, oozes with familiarity. almost too gentle to interrupt.
it’s only natural, shota thinks — obviously you both have a bond, you literally grew up together. been through war together. but it’s all platonic, all brotherly-sisterly.
shoto tucks a few strands of hair behind your ear — no hesitation, no second thoughts, almost as if it was pure muscle memory. you don’t check for shota’s reaction. you already know it. neutral — stoic, not a hint of possessiveness in sight.
and it kills you.
because shouldn’t this rattle him? shouldn’t the idea of you wrapped in someone else’s jacket — his own former student’s jacket — be enough to spark something?
man, how hard is it to get a bit of toxicity here? just one glare, one shake of his head, some signal to tell you to take that shit off right now.
but it never comes — because the man you love isn’t like that.
he’s quiet. he’s patient. he has complete, unshakable trust in you — in your choices. you chose to be with him, and not the boy you stayed up numerous nights with to study for math.
no, you made your bed, and he knows you will sleep in it.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
trial three.
midoriya is sentimental.
so, when he places a pair of earrings on your lap — muttering something along the lines of, oh this reminded me of you, you can’t help but burst into tears.
it’s too cute — everything about it, the thought, the earring, the boy you grew up with.
and next to you, shota remains quiet.
not because he’s seething, not because he’s pretending to keep it together, but because he truly isn’t threatened. in fact, his eyes are soft, as if he’s watching a memory play out that he’s not a part of — but respects nonetheless.
and maybe a part of you thinks you should count your blessings, that he’s just that type. any man your age would’ve flipped the entire table, start a fight, or even insult your friend.
thank god you got a good guy.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
trial four.
and keigo is a breath of fresh air.
the minute he spots you at his gala, he makes a beeline your way — a warm smile, sharp eyes, and a voice like silk.
“so glad you made it,” a grin tugs at his lips as he pulls you into a hug, his cologne brushing your senses just before his voice dips closer to your ear. “you look stunning.”
and your breath hitches, cheeks colored in sacred hues of surrender — like a little girl absolutely smitten by your high-school crush. but reality dawns the second you feel his presence behind you — the air thickening with the weight of his aura. it’s silent, heavy.
a large hand presses to the small of your back, grounding, and anchoring you in place.
“oh, keigo — have you met mr. eraserhead?” you question, ignoring the way your voice jumps an octave higher.
shota thinks, what happened to boyfriend? when did you two become so well-acquainted?
and keigo’s smile doesn’t falter when he sees shota’s arm wrap around your waist — almost protectively, possessively. thumb rubbing circles absentmindedly into your side, like a warning.
“nice to meet you!” he says, extending his hand.
and shota shakes it.
but he doesn’t miss the way keigo’s eyes linger on you, nor the way you tuck your hair behind your ear — almost shy.
and then it starts clicking for him — you have a little crush, and it makes you look stupid.
“mr. eraserhead, huh?” shota murmurs, after keigo walks off to greet someone else.
shota is not dense. he knows when to be concerned and when not to be. his past students he will never be envious of — but keigo, who is just a few years older than you — young and talented and someone of your generation has shota straightening his back a bit, chest puffed.
almost like he has something to prove.
“hm? that’s your name,” you say matter-of-factly — eyes still loosely trained on keigo. effortless charm oozing out of him as he works the room. you’re starstruck.
“you might as well have called me aizawa-sensei.” he monotones, pulling you in closer to his side. you frown a little, “what do you mean?”
“you forgot a small title,” he mentions, giving you a pointed look. that’s when you glance up at him, and shota can see the cogs turning now — he knows you’re smart, sees you playing with the idea of acting coy or not.
“oh.”
“oh?” he repeats — he has to laugh.
shota thinks that little crush of yours has you forgetting who you belong to — has you thinking you’re still on the market, ready to be swooped away.
and maybe that’s when you see a sprinkle of jealousy on his features. the way his hand on your waist tightens, stance solid and eyes narrowed on the winged hero in a way that’s not friendly.
how fun — finally a reaction.
and when you murmur, “he’s so pretty, though.” your boyfriend doesn’t flinch, doesn’t blink — but the look in his eye screams don’t test me.
his grip tightens almost imperceptibly, and his lips brush your ear, “keep playing with me, baby. see what happens.”
and that’s all you ever do.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯✦
and shota tries to be gentle, he always does. but the second the door clicks shut at home, his patience runs thin.
before you can even turn around, he’s on you — slamming you up against the wall — mouth claiming yours in a kiss that’s all give and take. muttering something along the lines of i fucking own you and it makes your pussy drip as he slides down — hands already discarding your underwear.
shota hikes your legs over his broad shoulders and wraps his arms around your upper thighs firmly. his tongue makes slow orbits around your pussy, teasing your clit and slipping sinuously into your cunt, repeatedly — and you can’t keep quiet.
“you think fucking keigo can get you wet like this? have you moaning like this?” it’s all rhetorical. you both know the answer to these questions.
shota knows you’ve been fucking with him all this time. knows you were just itching for a reaction from him, wanted him to stake his claim on you.
make you his.
he pulls back just enough to glare up at you — lips wet with your arousal, eyes dark and glittering. “look at you,” he rasps, breath hot against your folds. “dripping for me. only me.”
you whimper, one hand fisting the fabric of his shirt. and that’s all it takes — within seconds he’s up on his feet, throwing you over the sofa — legs spread wide, he has a couple of ideas on how he can mark you.
and the moment his dick slips into your cunt, he knows exactly how to remind you who you belong to — how to brand you forever.
“mine,” he hisses through gritted teeth, driving into you with bruising force. “say it.” and all you can manage is a soft whine, a plead, “y-yes yours!”
he smiles — something sinister in his grin as he slams into you harder, setting a brutal pace that leaves you sobbing into the cushions.
shota knows now that all you wanted was to be put in your place.
and now you know to stop fucking with him – you got what you wanted.
Boyfriend!Zayne when you get anxious in public. ❄️
——————
You invited Zayne to a carnival and there ended up being a lot more people than you expected. A lot. At first, you were okay with it. Zayne wasn’t very fond of crowded places either, but he could manage. You thought you’d be able to tough it out to make up for the fact that you dragged him there in the first place.
After a while, though, Zayne noticed the near-death grip you had on his hand while walking through crowds. When he looked down at you, he saw how you were biting your lip anxiously and how your eyes were darting back and forth at the countless amount of people around you. He knew you hated population-dense areas, but had thought you were doing just fine….up until that point.
He squeezed your hand lightly to get your attention over the loud music and voices. “You okay?” he would mouth. When you shook your head to say “no”, he immediately sought a less crowded area where you could catch your breath and calm down.
Zayne scouted out a nearby popsicle stand with seating that didn’t have many people around. Maneuvering through the sea of people, he led you there while keeping a firm grip on your hand so you wouldn’t get separated. When you were finally in the clear, you let out a heavy sigh.
“Thank you,” you breathed. “Sorry to ruin our fun…”
Before you could go on, Zayne swiftly kissed you on the lips. The feeling of his slightly cold lips relieved the pain on your bottom lip from where you had been gnawing on it.
“You have nothing to apologize for.” Zayne says after pulling away, before turning to buy a popsicle for you. “I would much rather it be just the two of us together, if it means that you’re more comfortable that way.”
You smiled as you took the popsicle and unwrapped it. The cool sensation as you licked it relieved the spike in your body temperature that had gone up along with your anxiety.
Zayne sat down across the table from you and held your hand above the table, running his thumb across your knuckles. “Do you want to go home?”
“No, no. We can still enjoy the carnival,” you said quickly, not wanting the date to end even though you were reluctant to go back into the crowd.
Almost as if he was reading your mind, Zayne chuckled. “We don’t have to if you don’t want to. But we don’t have to end our date either. We can go back to your place and have a relaxing night together with a movie. How does that sound, my love?”
You sigh with relief and nod. “That sounds like just what I need right about now.”
He smiles. “Then take as long as you need to finish your popsicle, and then we’ll go.”
——————
A/N: so hi it’s been like two weeks i promise im not gone I’m just sooo out of it recently I don’t feel like writing 💔 BUT I did js get Sylus’ bday card and my bday is the day after his so happy birthday to both of us yay and sorry for this word vomit I’m just trying to get this out before I push it off again for like another week lol bye
I’ve seen so many step-bro Caleb fics, but how about step-dad Sylus ??
tw: stepcest
——————
Sylus and your mother got married strictly for business purposes, but your mom was relieved to see you getting along with your new step-dad. Although, you might be getting along a little more than she would’ve hoped.
As soon as Sylus met you, he knew you would be trouble for him. How could you not be? You were the cutest little thing. He couldn’t help that he was so drawn to your voice, which was like music to his ears. Or to the way you dressed, always with tops with necklines that cut a little too low or skirts that were just a bit too high.
At first, he thought the way you dressed was just because you wanted attention from boys, but when he got to know you better he found that just wasn’t the case. You were too pure for that, too innocent and sweet. You were just unaware of the temptations your clothes would inflict on other men, or more specifically, your step-father.
Your mother and Sylus were always off on business, leaving you by yourself in that cold, lonely mansion to take care of household chores by yourself. Of course, Sylus suggested just hiring housekeepers, but you insisted on doing everything yourself. You had no reason to get a job when your parents were so rich— might as well keep yourself busy some other way.
It was one night when Sylus came home from a business trip that he found you alone doing the laundry. Your mother was still off on business, so it was just the two of you. You were wandering around the place in shorts that hugged your body in just the right way, and a top that had your breasts threatening to spill over. Your step-dad couldn’t help but wonder where you find such revealing shirts.
Sylus watched as you, his sweet little innocent step-daughter, carried an overloaded laundry basket down to the laundry room. He was so infatuated with the way your hips swayed as you walked, they he almost didn’t notice the pretty pink panties that you accidentally dropped in the hallway.
When you were gone, he went to pick them up. He almost did the right thing and handed it back to you, but how could he? How could he hand it back to you when your panties smelled so intoxicating. He made a bee-line back to his bedroom and locked it before swiftly taking a deep inhale of your panties. God, your pussy smelled good. Sylus couldn’t help but imagine he was actually inhaling your cunt, his nose brushing against your clit.
Sylus held your panties away from his face for a moment, knowing that what he was doing was wrong. He has a wife. Not that their marriage even had any affection involved, but his wife is your mother. But you were just so pretty….so stupidly sexy.
He just couldn’t help himself when he dropped your panties back on his face, just letting them sit there as he breathed them in, each inhale taking in your intoxicating scent as his hand released his dick from the restraints of his pants. His fist immediately wrapped around his cock which was just oozing pre-cum. He sat there on his bed smelling your panties and fisting himself for what, like 45 minutes or so? He’d cum so many times he lost count. He was so far in a daze that he didn’t even hear you calling for him outside his door until you banged on it.
“Dad? Daddy, are you in there?” you call out while pounding your fist on the door.
Sylus sucked in air through his teeth when his cock sprung up again at the nickname. But he had no other choice than to tuck his painfully hard erection back into his pants— his step-daughter needed him.
“Give me a minute, sweetie.” Sylus called back through the door as he promptly cleaned up his mess with a tissue. He also tucked your panties into his pocket, planning to use it again later.
——————
a/n 💌: Dw y’all there’s alr a part two to this in the works. I’m also working on making a master list of my works too.
I also wanted to say thanks for 500 followers 🤗 I can’t wait to see how much more my little smut-loving community will continue to grow 💓
— you decide to spoil your boyfriend by riding him stuuupiddd :p
— sub zayne, use of "mistress", overstimulation, mindbreak, zayne eventually goes into subspace, biting kink, nipple play
The remaining sanity that your boyfriend was trying to preserve crumbled the moment you pressed his body deeper into the mattress, grinding your pussy onto him for what felt like the hundredth time. The slick that was dripping between your legs, a mixture of your juices from the rounds you had pushed him through, made every movement of yours effortless, your pussy clamping down on him and making him see stars as a strangled moan leaves his throat.
"Love, I think- I thinhaah! are you still n-not-" His cock throbs as you grind down in a particularly harsh manner, cutting off any of his protests. "Not satisfied? Of course not - you can still talk, honey." Your voice was sweet and teasing, yet your actions were anything but, your hands sliding over his torso and finding his nipples, the two pink buds perky and cold to the touch.
Watching his flushed face intently, you start to pinch and pull at his buds, the sudden gesture causing his eyes to roll back and his body to jerk into you, a high-pitched whine slipping past him before he could stop himself. Spurred on by his reaction, you pull harder, causing tears to well up at the corners of your doctor's eyes.
"I-It's too much, please it's too seehns'tive-!" Zayne's words were barely coherent at this point, his words slurred together as he cries and sniffles at all the sensations overwhelming him, from your pussy bullying his cock to your fingers rolling over his nipples and your heated gaze that wanted nothing but to see him driven to ruin - it was all too much, and the doctor found himself orgasming again, spurt after spurt of cum painting your walls and dripping down from you to his thighs.
The tears that he was just barely holding earlier were now spilling onto his red cheeks as broken sobs fell from his lips—pleas for mercy that completely contradicted how he remained rock-hard inside you. A condescending smirk curls up at your lips as your fingers trail up from his chest up to his jaw, tracing it lightly. Your voice dips into something low and sultry, amusement dancing in your heated gaze. "Your words say one thing and your dick says another....Now, I just don't know what to do."
Zayne, parting his lips to reply, gets cut off by a choked whine as you abruptly halt your movements. His teary eyes focus in on your self-satisfied smirk and hooded eyes. Fuck. He knew that look.
Your still-teasing fingers slide back down to toy with his oversensitive nipples, gentler this time but enough to pull a shaky breath from him. "I’ve gotta say, honey….If you really want me to stop because you can’t take anymore, well, I guess I have to respect my sweet doctor’s wishes."
His breath hitches and his expression falls, but he knew he had it coming with all the mindless babbles leaving him throughout the whole session. It only hits him how far you wanted to take it when you slowly start to lift yourself off his cock, a small whimper leaving him as his hands instantly move to your hips to stop you, a pleading look in his eyes. "I...I..." He starts out, the words catching in his throat.
"You….You....You what, Zay?"Your voice is thick with amusement, his hesitance deepening at the smirk on your face. "You have to use your words." To punctuate your statement, you roll your hips, letting the remainder of him inside you feel that brief, fleeting pleasure and earning yourself yet another wobbly gasp of your name.
For a few agonizing moments, his mouth opens and closes, nothing coming out—until he finally caves, his voice barely above a whisper.
"...Please." His fingers dig into your skin, his resolve crumbling entirely. "Keep on riding me…until I can’t think."
His admission brings a wicked grin to your face, one that the doctor knew only spelled ruin for him. Before he could brace himself, you slam your hips down onto his, changing your rhythm from slow, teasing grinds to an eager and relentless pace, your slick pussy easily moving up and down his cock as he writhes beneath you.
This time, his thoughts truly scatter, lost in the overwhelming pleasure of your movements, your voice, and the way you looked at him as you rode his cock—like he was nothing but a pretty toy for you to use.
And oh, that turned him on.
Small pleas and whimpers for more left him like he had never protested against you in the first place. He lets himself get fucked into oblivion, relishing in everything you so generously give him. In between his moans and mumbles of pleasure, a singular word leaves him that lets you know he'd fully given up control.
"Mistress...!"
That one desperate cry of your title sends heat flooding through you, your desire surging into overdrive. One of your hands slide from his chest to his abdomen, steadying yourself as you lean down, biting into the flushed skin of his neck. His breath hitches and breaks into tiny, high-pitched mewls, his hips jerking up instinctively to push deeper into you.
He was beautiful like this.
Wanting more of his delicious sounds, you keep your teeth against his skin, sinking in just enough to leave a mark—something for him to wear long after this was over. When you finally pull away, Zayne lets out a soft hic, his hazy, tear-filled eyes locking onto yours with a look of longing…and unmistakable desire.
You open your mouth to tease him about it, but before you can, he surprises you—his voice needy and utterly wrecked as he stumbles over his words. "M-Miss...please, I- ah-! N-Need more, want t' be marked-"
Even as his consciousness crumbles, his desires remain clear. He knew exactly what he wanted from you now, and he wasn’t afraid to beg for it with each of his shameless moans and hips that were desperately meeting yours with every thrust.
Unable to deny your lover's desperate plea, you bite down, canines marking him as yours once more. Your tongue follows, soothing over the fresh wound, and causing Zayne to break off into a series of fast-paced cries. His body trembles as pleasure courses through his veins, a whimper of gratitude escaping him and sobs wracking his body as he cums, filling you up again and sending a wave of bliss through you, your cunt fluttering in the tell-tale sign of orgasm to seal both your fates.
"....Cumming just from a bite? Oh honey, you really are gone, aren't you?" You receive no answer but Zayne's flushed face, tear-streaked cheeks, and violent hiccups of pleasure let you know exactly what he would have said, anyways. He was completely spent. Yet you keep moving, using his cock to chase the last of your high.
When you finally reach your peak, your body tenses, shuddering through the aftershocks. Even then, you don't pull away, merely slowing to a gentle grind as you catch your breath. By now, Zayne was barely conscious, a hazy look in his eyes as his body twitches from the overstimulation. He weakly attempts to pull away, not wanting to keep his cum in you for too long but you push him right back down, a soft snort of amusement breaking free from you.
"Don't worry about it, honey. Let me stay like this for a little while, alright?" He only whines reluctantly in response but makes no further moves to resist. Instead, he simply lies there, his body spent, mind floating.
As the minutes pass, the heavy rise and fall of Zayne’s chest gradually even out, though the occasional aftershock still runs through his arms or legs. His hands that were gripping you so desperately now rest limply, his fingers twitching with the lingering echoes of pleasure.
You brush a hand through his damp hair, smoothing it back from his sweat-slicked forehead. His half-lidded eyes flutter at the touch, unfocused but filled with something tender—something that made your heart clench despite what you had just made him go through.
“There you go,” you murmur, pressing a soft kiss to his temple. “Breathe, love.”
A faint hum vibrates in his throat, and after a few slow blinks, his dazed expression melts contentment. His lips part, his voice hoarse and barely above a whisper. “…You're insatiable.”
A warmth spreads through your chest as you giggle, shifting just enough to lie against him without breaking the intimate connection you both shared. "...I know. But you liked it, didn't you?"
He scoffs lightly, burying his face in your hair. Even without a response, the way his hands soothingly rubbed over your skin said enough. And as his body finally relaxes beneath you, you hold him close—letting the night settle around you, wrapped in the heat of each other’s presence.
a/n: BOOOOMSHAKALAKAAAAA I GOT SOMETHING OUT OF MY DRAFTS