It keeps hitting me randomly...
I'm telling myself whatever grief or emotions I'm processing is valid.
Parasocial relationships are weird but Attachment is Attachment even if it's one way. Grief is Grief.
This is how emotional dependance and gratitude works I suppose. It's not overreacting over some celebrity's death but the effect left is real to mourn for ages.
Unexplainable, a love that only we could understand as 1D said💯
Regret in other four boys' statement is what's getting to me...
"Wish I'd asked if you were okay one more time"
"Wish I could hug you one more time"
"Wish we could share same stage again"
"I'm finding myself talking out loud to you"
"Never thought it was our last Goodbye"...🥺😖
This whole situation sums up one thing again...
Appreciate the people around you, Validate their feelings.
Often tell the people you love that you love them.
Hold on to people who hold on to you
Let people know that you care, Slow down because it's just life and it'll be over before we realise.
Five years back, found these boys on a random afternoon, initial plan was just to know their names but....they changed the trajectory of a girl who never felt enough, who never felt belonged anywhere, who always thought she was a bad luck factor in her loved one's life, who had a constant subconscious wish that something should happen to her so she can disassociate from this world.
Sometimes obsessions save people... Atleast in my case. They gave me a sense of belonging and warmth, assuring that it was all in my head.
I've seen someone saying that the hardest part of being a fan is not able to save the person who saved you in your darkest times... 💔
And just like that I've lost one from my Safest HOME.
Payno...our Leeroy, if you are listening... You and boys will always be there in The Story Of My Life. My kids will grow up hearing The Story of Us, how their mum was healed by five random boys, how she got a Home far far far away from Home, how obsessed she was with them, how she'll be forever indebted to them and how One Direction gave her the right direction to love herself atleast a bit.
You'll be timeless Liam. You'll live till the last breath of the last directioner on this planet. Since you saved us you have a share in our souls right 🫂
May be in another life, we had a perfect reunion.
May be in another life, you'll get to see Little Bear grow up into a man.
Just wake me up from this or give me some tips to forget about it 'cause a knife to chest would hurt lesser.
Thank you Liam, Love You Goodbye 🖤
