how am I still alive after everything these two made me feel???

izzy's playlists!

Discoholic 🪩
sheepfilms

shark vs the universe
No title available

No title available
Show & Tell
NASA
Misplaced Lens Cap
No title available
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
Mike Driver
Jules of Nature
Cosimo Galluzzi
The Bowery Presents
Monterey Bay Aquarium

roma★
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
hello vonnie

#extradirty

seen from Netherlands
seen from Italy
seen from Taiwan

seen from Türkiye

seen from Switzerland
seen from Colombia
seen from Iraq
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from Russia
seen from Türkiye

seen from Germany

seen from Malaysia
seen from Ukraine
seen from Malaysia
seen from Ecuador

seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from Bangladesh

seen from United States
@ravenofthetemult
how am I still alive after everything these two made me feel???
I sat behind the same girl in class all year and I was painfully jealous of her beautiful curly hair and I assumed she had just figured out some hair routine I didn't know, or had more time in the mornings than me, or was somehow more disciplined or just lucky. And then my friend talked to her one day and found out she gets 500$ perms and highlights 3 times a year. The answer was literally just money. The same friend found out that most of our classmates who I thought were just naturally smarter than me went to private highschools that cost 25k a year.
This is all a metaphor to say that there will be times when you feel like other people understand something that you don't, or have some ability that you don't, or are better than you in some way because they've accomplished something you can't. And it's going to turn out that they're just rich and they spent thousands of dollars to make that happen. You are not bad, you are not broken, the system is just fucked.
You know that Margaret Atwood quote talking about how a major effect of existing as a women in a patriarchal society that objectifies women is that when you are a woman, even when you're alone, you can't escape that self-peception from the view of the male gaze?
The one that ends, "You are a woman with a man inside watching a woman. You are your own voyeur."?
I really do think that pushing this concept precisely one degree further in the other direction would explain a LOT about how we ended up with this whole "Incel, looksmaxxing, manosphere" clusterfuck, I just need 20 minutes and an antidepressant to articulate how
Like
LEVEL 0: People exist
LEVEL 1: "Man" and "Woman" roles are constructed; posed as a strict binary with discrete and disparate traits and roles.
LEVEL 2: Man wields power; Woman relies on Man's approval. One role is perceived and valued as better, stronger, smarter. Requiring Man's approval, Woman cultivates inner "man" in order to see herself from Man's perspective as a tool to better anticipate Man's desires.
LEVEL 3: Man perceives Woman's "inner man"; Man perceives anticipatory and appealing behavior as deceptive and manipulative. The potential ability of Woman to manipulate and deceive Man places Women in a position of power above Man, which Man perceives as a threat. In response, Man cultivates "inner woman": a tool which he uses to perceive the "inner man" who Woman uses to predict and appeal to Man.
LEVEL 4: Man "sees" the caricature of "Man" further distorted by the caricature of his conceptualized "Woman" and feels threatened and inferior, but at the same time trapped by the binary which generates this power struggle. Inside of him is a deceptive and threatening "Woman" who he rejects; inside of HER is the Ultimate Man, who this image of Woman supposedly desires the approval of.
If Woman can predict Man, then Woman is an opponent who leverages power through engagement with Man. The only way for "Man" to escape the Threat that Woman poses is to cease engagement. He retains "victory" (escape from woman) by maintaining distance from Woman, and because explicitly admitting the possibility that Woman could ever hold power over Man is Losing, has no option but to tell himself that this is not Fear of Losing Control, but a natural consequence of Posessing Control.
Man rejects any but the most surface-level engagement with Woman, but because "Hiding From Woman" means "Woman Is Threat", and BELIEVING "Woman Is Threat" is unacceptable, Man attempts to cut Woman from the narrative.
LEVEL 5: Man, possessing the "inner woman"'s "inner man" but determined to escape the influence of "woman", mentally erases "Woman" but retains the caricature's caricature of "inner man", who is desirable to BE.
Man possesses exaggerated image of Man, who now exists solely as the Ultimate Desireable Form. In order to achieve this form, Man must constantly see through his eyes, but in order to remain safe in his position of power over Woman, he must erase any trace of evidence that he is DOING this for Woman.
Man must Be the Ultimate Man, because [redacted], who requires Man's Approval.
Having bought in to this dichotomy and fearing the terror and uncertainty of the unknown, unable to shake the foundations of the reality he must now experience, Man forces himself into choosing between floating without purpose or structure in a void where he has no control at all over his environment, or a world where he Cannot be afraid of Woman, he is Superior to Woman, and there is nothing more important that Being The Ultimate Man Receiving Approval from the Ultimate Man
terfs and radfems fuck clean off by the way, I'm a trans dude and you're both weird, but ANYHOW
My theory is this:
If we construct an environment where the rules are
"There are two parties that cannot survive without assistance from the other"
"One party dominates the other"
"Control is domination", and
"To be dominated threatens your survival",
it's pretty much inevitable that at some point we will end up with a significant population of the Dominant party whose psychological state is very much like a traumatized sailor who, after cannibalizing his crewmates for survival, cannot recognize bread as food and instead attempts to eat his rescuers
who else is up permanently feeling like they did something Wrong
For all its faults Tumblr has truly ruined all other social media for me because my friends all have Instagram and are all trying to get me on Instagram more but every time I open Instagram there are like fifteen things screaming for my attention and when I get over myself long enough to start scrolling it's like. Where is my chronological dash. Where is the following-only option. Who are these people. Why are there so many videos. Everyone is screaming at me. And then before I know it I'm thirty minutes into scrolling and I haven't seen a single thing that I actually care about. At least on Tumblr when I see stuff I don't care about I know someone I follow has found a new interest.
very excited for the new tables because I feel like I can already see the train wreck on the horizon.
The new Schemers table? I think they’ll be mostly fine. I can see some tension rising over the fact that the OG’s (Hal, Murray, Azune) have been walking a verrrrry precarious line between all the powers in the city, and have settled more or less into the intricacies of their clandestine operations. And then there’s Tyranny and Wick, and while they CAN lie and can lie well, they still have a bit of catch up to do. I can absolutely see some drama between Wick and Murray, too. Maybe Hal.
Then you have the Seekers, following in the tradition of being one (1) situation away from absolutely tearing into each other. We’ve got Thimble, Occtis, and Kattigan on the buddies-with-Thjazi side, and on the “this guy STINKS” side we’ve got Julien, Bolaire, and Vaelus (vaelus maybe less so, she understands the purpose for stealing the Stone of Nightsong, but I can’t imagine it feels any better). Let alone the fact that Thjazi might as well be With Them In The Room.
And then of course Mr. Tachonis, of which his family name means something personal to almost everyone else in the group. Not that I think anyone blames Occtis, but there’s still that bit of tension that led to many a snappy word in episodes past.
It’s so messy. Bolaire and Thimble? Occtis and Vaelus? Kattigan and Julien’s whole deals? Either they come out better or they come out worse than where they started, but either way I feel like something’s gotta give.
And then there’s Thaisha, going over the river and through the woods to grandmother’s house. I’m simultaneously excited and very scared for her. I’d like to see how she balances the weight of her order’s values and how they intersect with her own, and how much the new relationships and experiences she’s had with the other characters might affect that.
I don’t know if these people need a get along shirt or a fighting pit but either way I hope to see more chaos on the roller coaster.
So the creation of a celestial can be beautiful. It’s jarring to see Thaisha create a gorgeous glorious shining angel in Kaedra by being empathetic and loving and allowing these spirits to choose their own path and then thinking about how the Tachonis tried and failed to do the same by forcing others into pain and death and suffering.
N's Zorua -- Megumi Mizutani
another world
instead of "people pleaser" it might be better to think "disapproval fearer" if that's the emotional stick that's motivating action; important to consider at least three reasons to do something:
it's a good thing to do
I want to do the thing
people will be mad if I don't do the thing
and if 3. is the most weighty reason then that's a potential problem.
started my c3 rewatch :)
me, wearing nothing but a sheer plunge-neck ballgown that’s plastered to my skin from the rain, soaking wet and trembling with cold and fatigue as i stand outside the entrance to the castle: p-please help me ;) i’m s-so lost and s-scared ;) ;) i have no where to stay for the night ;) ;) ;)
the sexy vampire lady who answered the door, and to whom the castle belongs: of course ;) you poor thing ;) ;) come inside, you must be freezing… you may stay as long as you need to recover from your ordeal ;) ;) ;)
You walked up to that house in the rain on purpose
the fuck else would I be sloshing around in a wet ballgown for
I drew it…. & animated it…
The thing that nobody gets in this website is that you played count the rice, you played count the rice.
Nobody seems to understand that you win if you do the win condition twice.
I don't watch Game Changer (just clips) (I know, I should) but I for some reason hear Sam singing this to "the do the wenis"
It's similar
Wenis, if anyone needs it
btw dating sucks as a concept.
meeting up with someone with the explicit goal of figuring out whether or not you want a relationship with them spoils the dynamic. it sucks. it's terrible. fall in love with your friends like normal people.
as expected this one is a hit with the autism website
surprisingly forward-thinking of jim henson and co. to make a female character in the 70's that's allowed to be loud-mouthed and violent and kind of overwhelmingly romantic and even a huge bitch at times and not have a moment where any character asks her to change
going through all the muppet movies in a row made me realize that like. miss piggy was made in the 70's. and it's so rare even today to have a character like her. she's loud, she's selfish, she's funny, she's extremely vain, she's obsessed with romance, she's violent, she's kind of annoying, and there's not a single moment in any of these films where she's asked to tone down any of these personality traits. i am not joking when i say that miss piggy might be one of the best treated female characters ever written
you might be on to something, I've never heard Miss Piggy being called problematic either