Okay one last thing before bed. I can pretend like people read these. When I got long covid, I sort of stopped being able to read books for a long time. I was still entirely capable of reading, but something wasn't processing correctly and it made reading fiction not fun. I've always been a big reader. So I switched to audiobooks. And even after I started to usually be okay reading paper books again, I mostly stuck with audiobooks. Then I lost my grandmother two months ago. Can't really do audiobooks right now. There's too much free space in my brain while listening and I just start to feel sad (which is bad because usually I'm driving). At first, I actually couldn't read anything, not audiobook or paper or even webcomics, except that in my grief-addled state, I somehow landed on rereading Project Hail Mary in Spanish and that felt okay when nothing else did. Anyways, I frequently have long drives (over an hour each way) mostly to see family and friends and I get really bored without audiobooks. For a while, I was just like talking to myself and singing and stuff, which was somehow better even though it's actually way more of my brain free than listening to an audiobook, but I guess it's a different part. But I was getting so bored. So I decided to try an audiobook in Spanish and that was okay (Beartown by Fredrik Backman, also a reread). Keeps my whole brain occupied just trying to figure out what everything means.
I'm not really fluent enough to be doing this though. If I didn't know The Book pretty well from having read it multiple times in English, I'd be Totally Lost. I took Spanish in middle school and high school and then a year in college, but I was never close to fluent and the most I've kept up with it since then is listening to some music. I've got the audiobook at 80% speed, but I can't look up words because I'm driving. But it turns out that that's okay and this is really improving my Spanish skills a lot pretty quickly. I'd say I would've done this ages ago if I had realized, but I don't think I had the patience for it. So yeah, grief is weird, but it has really helped my Spanish skills. Would prefer having my grandma back though.
























