✧ ‧₊˚ 💭 ⋮ Redeemers Trace is a project of mine that follows a bounty hunting organization by the name of stealth Hunt Consulting Enterprise (S.H.C.E). However, instead of turning in these criminals, S.H.C.E offers these criminals a chance of redemption by working underneath their organization.
Time these fugitives would have spent in prison is instead owed to S.H.C.E. Their time can be reduced by doing their job at S.H.C.E, but also by putting in the effort to “redeem” themselves using resources S.H.C.E provides.
Redeemers Trace main focus is on how one's environment shapes them to be the person they are; but how they can change when given the support and having the will to put in the effort.
✧ ‧₊˚ 💭 ⋮ Redeemers Trace is in it's concept phase; this account is to help keep track of my progress and slowly get used to posting content related to it- as I never know where to start unfortunately. I'd love to one day turn it into a graphic web novel or film series though if and when I'm ready.
✧ ‧₊˚ 🤙 ⋮ Inspirations → Nurture vs Nature – My Intense Love and Passion for Psychology (And Furry Media) – Suicide Sqaud (Inital Inspiration for Concept!) – Hazbin Hotel (..In concept. More as an example of what I would like to not do.) – Dispatch – Bojack Horseman – rat.thieves – maggotnizer – ashr3vn
𐔌 . ⋮ "show me your teeth, boy" W.I.P (🏳️⚧️) .ᐟ ֹ ₊
lil sneak peak of something in the works regarding a Kaine's experience as a trans man brought up in a small, religious and conservative community, and how it ties to his sense of self in Redeemers Trace.
No idea when I'll finish this; making Rogue's series that explores her gender took forever </3!!
hi!! I've been working on a few characters for Redeemers Trace and I'm planning a more formal introduction for my character Angel Cake here.. But I was trying to compile their identity together to use as a quick reference for myself and thought I should share it on here too, even if it was just really meant for personal reference for me!
Angel Cake's design is a bit off compared to other art I've done to explore her design as I'm not very used to digital art TwT so keep that in mind for future reference :"D!!
As a quick informal introduction; Angel Cake is one of my characters featured within Redeemers Trace who has connections with Venus Hill and LoveCraft. They're temperamental, aggressive and prone to outbursts yet fiercely loyal, protective and their own type of righteous. Angel Cake runs an underground, rave night club primarily focused on providing a space for queer and other "unconventional" people such as herself (in regards to being contraqueer, xenogender, intersex, polyam, kinky, alternative, mixed species, an addict, a survivor/victim, mentally ill, etc). Star runs the place as a manager specifically, but also DJs, plans events and works as security as glit likes to be involved on her "better" days. I'm still working out everything I want to discuss with Angel Cake compared to their partners (as before they were just meant to be a package deal meant to tackle the same issues. I've since worked on differentiating their characters and what I want to show.) But so far sparkle is meant to show navigating life as a intersex, queer victim/survivor of child trafficking and how it's affected their sense of self and identity, struggling with substance abuse, being kinky, being a protecter due to trauma, being aggressive due to trauma, struggling with emotional regulation and dysfunction and being an agere caretaker (!! Different from kink wanted to mention that as they're commonly associated together). Uhmm also they're in a band with glit girlfriends that focuses on scene and EDM music I think.. Figuring that out a little more :) oh and also they're a unicorn/bull mixed species hybrid thing.
I can't wait to more formally introduce Angel Cake in the future and discuss their role in Redeemers Trace. I don't tend to make a lot of colorful characters so ters really fun to draw and color!
UHMM any other questions feel free to ask whether it's in regards to Angel Cake or what some of these flags mean :)
✧ ‧₊˚ ⚠️ ⋮ I'm a hypocrite when it comes to Redeemers Trace unfortunately. It's a difficult aspect to navigate and I'm hoping it's beneficial to share some of my experiences writing the series whether it's to just get it out, better understand myself or encourage conversation.
Redeemers Trace features and discusses many points of dilemma, morals and ethics being a series that focuses on the the nature vs nurture debate, how people are a product of their environment– But can become more than their environment ultimately and just topicsnod "redemption", bettering oneself and growth.
With that, the topic of forgiveness is brought up within the series. Are these people redeemable? Are these people forgivable? Do they even deserve forgiveness?
I want to display how other characters interact with characters who fit this discussion/debate in the series; and how some do believe they can make up for their previous actions and be forgiven. Maybe how some their actions have effected did forgive them specifically. (And how others don't)
I pour everything into this series and try to not let my own biases and experiences influence the series in terms of how I approach this topic as it's a complicated discussion that isn't black and white. I've really had to broaden my own perspective to explore these concepts and how I want to execute them and tweaking it constantly.
I've learned a lot by doing this; it's helped me be mindful of what affects people externally and internally to behave the way they do.. It's helped me explore how forgiveness isn't inherently absolving of any wrong doing.. How peace and pain comes with forgiveness.. How the person forgiving and receiving forgiveness navigate it.. And more I can't put into words on the top of my head.
But I have an inability to apply all this knowledge to my relationships and personal life and it's ultimately due to my own reluctance and bitterness.
I don't exactly share the belief of forgiveness I demonstrate within Redeemers Trace; I'm able to push it aside to explore the complexity of it for the series and simply for fun and searching to try and apply it to myself to no avail.
I just feel like such a phony and hypocrite for it.
My goal is ultimately to not let my own feelings on forgiveness seep and ruin the writing in the show that feels clearly bias; as it's so important to me to portray this.
It just feels like.. Somewhat inauthentic as a creator to me sometimes. Sigh.
✧ ‧₊˚ 💭 ⋮ Photobashing Test with my OC, LockJaw!! UHMM initially this was an anatomy study (you can see the outline of me tracing the figures. I also broke down the pose into shapes but that's not visible here) as I wanted to practice/study drawing this sorta lean body type and how clothing effects the figure/shape language but then like tried to draw LockJaw ans got bored.. But I just really wanted to draw LockJaw.. Or do something with it.. SO I photobashed it! Basically I just used a lot of layering and the magic wand tool on ibispaint. I've never photobashed much before but I've had a lot of experience just with editing and graphic designing, so it made the process a lot easier!! I'd like to try and do this again in the future, it's really fun!!
✧ ‧₊˚ ⚠️ ⋮ Thinking about referring to the heads of S.H.C.E simply as the founders soley instead lately. Heads of S.H.C.E sounds kinda formal, structured and organized– Something S.H.C.E kinda isn't all the time. Sounds TO business-y to me kinda I dunno.
I also want to put an emphasis on community and that everyone who is affiliated with S.H.C.E is apart of it and the reason the program can exist and help people. It can be the founders and those in the contract itself doing jobs, but also social workers, sponsors, theripasts, ect are heavily involved w/ S.H.C.E despite not being exactly apart of the program in the same way the founders and employees are.
Like what really helped me realize this are two of my characters specifically who are involved with social work who help out w/ getting resources for the members of S.H.C.E.. One's a social worker of sorts who primarily works at shelters, and the other is like a chill landlord who helps w/ housing.
I think landlord used to be apart of S.H.C.E at some point and got involved in social work through the program. Shelter social worker is actually named Jagger he'll be mentioned more in the future.
But like, these two are really important within S.H.C.E as they help out a lot w/ resources; but they also help out in programs not related to S.H.C.E at all. Despite that, they aren't "lesser" than the "heads" of S.H.C.E and are SUPER vital to the whole program.
And also I was thinking of the departments and heads of S.H.C.E; I'm reworking them a bit as before the series was SUPERRR action heavy so I really only focused on how the departments could relate to action n stuff.. And when I was reworking it like oh hey this is important enough to be a thing/department I need to make another character for this department I guess I realized WOW that'd be a lot of freaking characters and intricate complicated stuff that I feel like I'm making more complicated for no reason by having what's seen as a "department" so strict wowwwwwww okok... like a lot of responsibilities and programs just generally tied together it'd also be hard to separate.
Uhmm what am I even saying. Yeah a lot of stuff is changing o_<
But by referring to the heads of S.H.C.E as they founders I think it shows their importance within the agency + gives me more room to figure out their actual responsibilities and what they specialize in as CHARACTERS not as a department. I dunno yayyy!!
✧ ‧₊˚ 💭 ⋮ Hey! Decided I'm going to start posting my Instagram story rambles I have over Redeemers Trace on here. Mainly to help organize for me; but if anyone finds them interesting that's cool to.
Last night, I was thinking about asexual Representation in media and talked a lot about ones I wasn't as fond of and why- that whole spiel can be read on @vurrkit for context.
But talking so much about asexual representation made me want to share my current plans I have with my asexual characters in Redeemers Trace!.. Very Messily. I did this WELL past midnight there's quite a bit of grammer mistakes.. So I'll try to sum up quickly on a couple things below and have my crazed rambles.
✦ ‧₊˚ (1) ⋮ Kaine ┈➤ (TW: Implication of religious trauma and sexual assault.) Kaine is Caedsexual and Sagesexual (And also bisexual + a transman). Kaine felt like at some point in his life, he did feel sexual attraction, but even then didn't have a great relationship with it growing up in a strict conservative background and then when leaving that, immediately jumping into risky and unsafe sex, but having that freedom to express himself was something he enjoyed; he didn't have to feel ashamed anymore, it was his choice to engage what he wanted to. Having that feeling of anatomy, freedom, self expression and the safety from it was violently ripped away from him though after being taken advantage of by his former girlfriend though, unfortunately. He spent a long time grappling and understanding that he was sexually assaulted; as he wasn't a "perfect victim" within the entirety of the relationship itself. He was in denial about what happened to him and how it did effect him– And he tried to fix it and make it "right" again by engaging in sexual activity frequently and unsafely again, but it really just made it worse. Until he met Jasper (his partner) I don't think he acknowledges really anything related to this. Kaine doesn't feel comfortable with the term asexual fully, since he knows he used to feel sexual attraction and have a higher libido. But being allosexual doesn't feel comfortable either, as he doesn't really want to have sex anymore, he just wants to feel comfortable and afraid. Neither really feel authentic; but Caedsexual and Sagesexual describe his experience and feelings.. He feels more comfortable using those to identify with and feel comfortable. Even if it doesn't feel exactly right; functioning in an "asexual" relationship (one without the pressure of sex fully) with Jasper is how he feels the most safe and content. Nothing will really feel just right with Kaine when it comes to his sexuality, as a lot of people I've seen who are asexual and have sexual trauma don't tend to feel the most "authentic" due to complicated feelings, reactions, etc to what they experienced, and don't really get closure for it unfortunately. I want to reflect how that feels with Kaine, especially since he his an older, queer, masc transman who's struggled a lot in his life.
✦ ‧₊˚ (2) ⋮ Jasper ┈➤ Jasper is asexual (and also gay + demiboy). It took Kaine a long time to mention his struggles with his sexuality with Jasper, but before then/wayyy before they were together Kaine engaged in a lot of unsafe sexual activity- slept around a lot with complete strangers who clearly only had their interest in mind. Jasper was inlove with Kaine since day 1 pretty much, so seeing Kaine "trust" others to intimately but being so distant with Jasper hurt a lot, and led Jasper to be very jealous and insecure. Jasper had a desire to be close with Kaine in the same way, but he didn't really want to have sex with him explicitly. Jasper wanted to be close and trusted; and that looked like sex to him on how Kaine trusted other people more. Jasper didn't really understand that fully though as this was his first crush he had ever had in real life, all of these feelings were new to him, so he didn't really understand his feelings at first. When Kaine opens up about his experiences, wants, needs and fears Jasper says something along the lines of "we could never have sex and I'd be happy with you still" not exactly but that'd the gist yk. And Jasper truly doesn't care if they have sex or not, it's not the part he yearns for in their relationship. But again, he doesn't fully understand that either and it takes time to navigate how he's feeling, which is that he's really just happy as long as he's trusted and loved by Kaine. Kaine and Jasper do end up trying to sleep together; but everytime one of them ends up panicking. In regards to Jasper, it's just a overwhelming experience + being aware of Kaine's baggage doesn't really bringhim into the greatest mindset when things get intense or intimate. After a few times of this, Jasper slowly comes to understand he really doesn't want or feel the need to go "that far" and he's much more excited doing OTHER stuff.. But even some of that stuff is more suggestive and boarding on sexual or kinky. So it's a lot to think for him what does sexual even mean to him, and what does pleasure mean, and desire and a lot of other stuff pretty much. He mulls on it for a while, but doesn't talk about it with Kaine for a while as he understands how delicate it his for the both of them, but especially him. Eventually, Jasper mentions to Kaine he's "probably asexual or something" and Kaine as feared does freak out as he's worried he pushed Jasper's boundaries (in the same way his were pushed in his previous relationship) or skewed how Jasper "really" felt based on Kaine's struggles. They communicate and talk though yk and fall much better into the structure of their relationship now with Jasper generally being more open about what he wants as it doesn't keep Kaine second guessing and in fear, and Kaine really benefits from not feeling pressured to really do anything inexplicably sexually. I didn't put this in the og but I dunno when else I'll ever mention it they're both asexual weird kinky freaks though good for them for feeling comfortable and safe enough to communicate that.
✦ ‧₊˚ (3) ⋮ Francis ┈➤ Francis is NOT asexual, but he was intended to be initially and I think it's important to discuss why I changed that concept. Francis is very apathetic, uninterested and introverted, so I was initially like "oh he probably wouldn't even be into it anyway" which BAD I was unintentionally stereotyping him to be a cold, indifferent, socially awkward asexual which is used in media quite a bit in a harmful way I mentioned on my main. But also.. I was afraid to write a disabled person discussing their sexuality, libido, desires, etc.. I think pattyly because as the time I was about 16-17 and didn't feel comfortable thinking heavily or writing this topics, but mainly because I was afraid and uncomfortable to discuss a disabled character's sexual needs/wants as it comes up a lot in the day to day life of disabled people. A lot of the time they are questioned about their sex life in a very invasive way and I didn't want to add onto that or have a character just be based of ignorant types of questions. But then I locked the fuck in and was like wow I'm actually adding to the stigma of disabled people not being able to comfortably discuss their experiences with sex because I'm treating it as taboo because he's disabled and I'm like infantilzing him by doing this. I want to discuss the loss of anatomy disabled people have from their disability and the grief he feels from his wife's passing and I shouldn't avoid those since they can be uncomfortable to recognize and think about how much it really does suck.
I'M TIRED I will do more of these throughout the next couple of days <3 but the og text is below.
sorry for not posting actual project relevant things; I've been thinking a lot about Redeemers Trace though.
As an apology here's a GSMV I did of two characters in the series for shits and giggles; currently working on another one instead of properly writing and formatting something relevant <3
⌗ ⋮ Hello!! First "official" post on here outside of the pinned post; which discusses the premise of Redeemers Trace along with some other information.
I wasn't to sure how to start up this account and what to share yet since there's an overwhelming amount of Redeemers Trace content I want to share.. But I thought I'd start simple with a quick introduction of the heads of S.H.C.E! I'm starting with just their heights and as time goes on I'll start introducing each character in depth.
