Ren

He/she/it (no preference). Lesbian, taken. I like to draw and write! I really like SmallEtho (Joel x Etho), the Ranchers (Jimmy x Tango), and Scarian (Scar x Grian). `–> TO CLARIFY; I ship the CHARACTERS, NOT the people! PFP: soytwin (Tumblr)

[rendahlia]

smalletho AU basic premise lore dump im gonna shove onto all of you

long ass rant incoming yo 😹😹

its actually not that long but wtv

AU where Etho is in love with Joel, Joel IS in love with Etho aswell but has internalized homophobia and thinks hes just good friends with Etho.

Etho confesses after some time but Joel isn't gay, 100000%! so turns him down (quite bitterly) and they don't talk for months.

This then affects Etho heavily, not sure how but we're getting there,

and affects Joel a LOT more than he would have hoped, bcs as we all know, he isn't gay whatsoever and could never love Etho bcs hes a man!

Joel then after like maybe a month or smth idk man calls Etho saying he messed up and hes really sorry and they become friends again and Joel realizes that he likes men, Etho specifically, but obviously its really awkward to realize you have a fat crush on a man when you've convinced yourself that you're 'normal' by being straight your whole life

so after a WHILE Joel in some way confessed to Etho but says that he feels disgusted by liking men even though hes okay with others being gay and he wants to sort though his own personal issues about it before considering dating anyone

Etho as the OBSESSED sweetheart he is offers to try help him through his internalized homophobia and when they eventually do start dating Joel still feels a slight feeling of disgust for like ages and unlike most gay x internalized homophobia gay fic, the feeling will stay forever but in small snipits bcs i feel like most people completely ignore how most people whos grown up with internalized homophobia will still keep it for years and years even when they know its okay and i want it to be a thing in my AU/fic

[rendahlia]

yo guys ignore how I'm a day behind iland how kinda lazy this is BC I forgot how to draw his clothes and when I got home I got too lazy to finish them, or draw mumbo.. I'll draw him tmr I guess </3

3rd June: Tango!

i liek drawing his hair..

@liferadayjune

[rendahlia]

hi guys i DID draw Lizzie yesterday but it was really bad and I'm not sharing that buttttt

@liferadayjune: June 2nd, Favourite Win!

gonna be honest I don't really have a favourite win this one is just the first one I thought of, plus I already knew how to draw joel

I have a love hate relationship with this art

[rendahlia]

guys if I don't see a bunch of SmallEtho, TreeBark, and the Ranchers fanart this month, Etho and Joel will not be having a fun time in my fic.

ykw nah it's pride month I can do whatever I want, SmallEtho toxic MLM, GO! GO! GO!

apart from you guys have to wait to actually read it because guess what, that's right, I'm a slow writer!!!

though things should be sailing smoother now that I have 2 beta readers now as apose to uh... zero...

if I keep having as much motivation as I do now, chapter one might honestly come out before the end of this month...... absolutely no promises though!!

though BC I'm nice you guys can have the name of the fic BC it had a placeholder name for a little bit;

Fueled Fire Burns the Heart

I'm very excited to (eventually..) share this silly little project of mine with you all <3

im gonna go draw Lizzie for lifer a day June now.. byee

[rendahlia]

hi guys I'm still gr4ss__hopper (or gr4ssunderscoreunderscorehopper) I just changed my thing to rendahlia since being called grasshopper isn't really the most original. I'm also getting more comfortable in my own skin with the name Ren, and as most people who's changed their name might know, I'm now really excited to be calling myself Ren as much as humanly possible!

tldr; I changed my online presence from gr4ssunderscoreunderscorehopper / gr4ss__hopper to rendahlia / rendahlias

[rendahlia]

just finished watching Vampires SMP from Rens pov today!!!

I AM NOT OKAY.

REN WHAT THE FLUH WAS THAT I AM GOING TO CRY.

wdym this is unscripted that was beautiful and you're telling me that just HAPPENED?? REN YOU GENIUS OF A MAN.

anyway now I don't have anything else to watch with his silly little accent :c

I miss it already.

[rendahlia]

hi guys im feeling nice so have some art i completely forgot to post here

[rendahlia]

and this is exactly how all of my ideas for my smalletho fic come to be

[rendahlia]

woah, what's this??? a sneakpeak into my fic???

well, I guess you could call it that 😭

oh lord, he's writing!!! O horror! horror! horror!

[rendahlia]

I sometimes write shorter snippets of parts in my longer SmallEtho fic that I'm not up to yet and I'm like "ooooh Tumblr will love this..." but then remember that I can't show you guys because I'm no where near it in my full fic. RAAAUUUGH.

why did I decide to make the fic start SO far away from any action bro 😂 😂 😂 😂

[rendahlia]

what if in that one scene in one of Joel's hermitcraft 11 episodes (I dont remember which one) where he starts chanting "everything's fine. everything normal." he's actually trying to get help from the viewer because he himself knows something is off but can't do anything about it

but there's some type of force not allowing him to ask for help?

honestly just a cool thought which could be an awesome way for his season 11 to turn out. considering he doesn't typically do lore and I think this is the closest we've ever gotten to Joel-lore and I am LOVING IT

i was gonna make the bit around Joel in the first section shaded in pencil but forgot so I might have a few adjustments soon

[soficraft]

Lime may have won mcc, but the real winner here are the ethogirls, the ethubs, boat boys, short grass and small ethubs shippers.

[rendahlia]

Eloise is literally like a third wheel on a bike

doesnt NEED to be there but stabilises the rest of the bike 😭😭

[rendahlia]

how I feel taking characters that aren't mine and putting them into a world where they're toxic and sad

GUYS ARE YOU PROUD OF ME I DREW FOR MY AU FOR ONCE!!!!

this takes place after Etho confesses gis love for Joel

Joel; "I'm not gay, Etho."

Etho; " ...right. of course. I'm sorry."

[triangleguy]

does this happen to anyone else

[rendahlia]

the fact that I already know if I ever discover I'm trans masc one day I WILL be using the name Joel and if I don't I got kidnapped and traded by a clone

the only thing stopping me at this current moment is I do not look like a Joel but I think if I were more masculine it could fit.

[rendahlia]

hi guys I'm starting to work on a Joel season 11 hermitcraft cosplay!

all I have atm are plans and I know I'm going to follow through because I have a full reason too (a renfaire thing in august awaits me)

so I got fabric favourited for my parents to buy bc im BROKE but then I'll be buying the accessories

both beautiful fabrics

[rendahlia]

me when I desperately try to draw toxic SmallEtho bc I HAVE PLANS FOR MY AU but Joel hermitcraft season 11 HAUNTS my pencil... I swear... I'm not obsessed with this man, my pencil is...

[a-silly-poll-side-blog-yay]

your recently viewed media and your fav fandom just got a crossover! how is it going?

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results

Voting ended onMay 10

[sunshine-snake]

The Click videos & the Life Series.

Him and Martyn would never shut up.

[rendahlia]

didn't know hermitcraft was getting a Collab with hermitcraft!!!! wow!!!