"You were gone for quite some time — and now that you are finally back, you do not even bother to come visit me?"
Ji Indur whirled around as he heard the voice. For a moment he seemed stunned then he closed the small distance between them just to almost end up tackling poor Ren to the ground as his arms wrapped tightly around the other man, pulling him against his chest, firm enough to steal Ren’s breath if he still needed it. “Ren. My dearest, most beloved Ren. It was not that I did not want to see you- it was rather something I was craving the most- but after having been gone for so long…I feared you’d reject me out of anger and loneliness. I am but a terrible friend and even worse as a lover. I should not have left without you. My quarters were so lonely without you.”
Ren froze. For a moment he was unsure whether he wanted such affection from the pirate or not. The other had clearly missed the cartographer, but did Ji Indur truly realize what it had been like for Ren to be separated from the captain for so long? Especially with Sivya constantly whispering into the wraith’s ear how Ji Indur had left Ren because he had stopped loving him or that perhaps the pirate had met his demise at some point and now Ren was all alone…
You can not forgive him this time. Hit him. Tell him to go away. He’s using you. Oh, the never-ending voice of the accursed ring. Ren was used to ignoring Sivya’s ill advice, yet for the past months - or had it been a year already? - it had been all Ren had heard. His sole companion. Nevertheless Ren ended up giving a gentle kiss on Ji Indur’s cheek, before turning quite grim again.
“They are all gone. Our brothers.”
Ji Indur could instantly feel that something is off about Ren’s reactions and it took no genius to understand why the other wraith is acting this way. Too long had he taken to return, with no message reaching the shores. And he did not want to think up an excuse -or rather a lie- because Ren deserved so much better. There had been obstacles in his way, yes, but still he should have tried harder, should he not? The grim expression after his cheek is kissed, combined with Ren pulling away, felt like a stab into the pirate’s chest, a sudden guilt overwhelming him as he averted his gaze. He truly had messed this up and no excuse would be good enough to make up for the time lost.
At Ren’s words he looked even more worn out, brushing his hand over his eyes in a tired gesture. “I know… I went looking for Murazor in his Greenhouse but..he was not there. I spoke to Glorfindel but he was, frankly, happy to see him gone if I’m not mistaken. Uvatha went with the wolves. I don’t know where Adunaphel and her brother went. And I sure hope that the fear did not chase away Ar-Dinafaer. I wish I had better news but…” The worry turned into sudden fear as a thought brushed through Ji Indur’s mind, eyes back on Ren’s face before he looked first at the catographer’s then his own ring. “I… It couldn’t be… Right..? Tell me that I’m just seeing ghosts of the past.” With his travels on board of the Kraken he would not have noticed if there had been any increased whispers but Ren…Ren would have. “Did anything…change?”
As soon as Ji Indur started mentionin names, names that Ren knew, names of those he missed dearly, the Easterling closed his eyes. By the time the pirate uttered Uvatha’s name out loud, the cartographer winced. How he missed him. Whereas Ji Indur had been the love of Ren’s life, Uvatha had been his closest friend. Not knowing where he was, was plain torture. Ren could only hope all was well with the dog-like wraith.
As Ji Indur’s eyes drifted towards Sivya, Ren instinctively touched his own ring. His gesture was a remnant of the past that still had not left him, no matter all the years that had gone by since the fall of their former slave master.
“Change? No, nothing changed. Except perhaps that Sivya has been my one and only lover for the time you were gone. I most humbly beg of your forgiveness if I do not appear to be myself. I do not know how much she controls me, my words and my actions.”

















