6h
Maybe this is the pattern now
i just let go of a PhD application that I thought would be an easy get. I simply don't have the energy to finish an application with so many requirements only for it to be rejected without even being seen.
Last night, as I was journaling about the day, I realized that around this time last year was when I was slowing down and took extreme far-off travels, trying my best not to lose hope and to destress a little bit. Maybe that's the pattern, that when it's May, I will need like a three-month break. All I know is that I don't want to be here or to test that hypothesis here under any circumstances next year.
