Rii @riir111 - Tumblr Blog

i’m going to use this app for my random ed thoughts now

random thoughts of this night:

my ed is so weird cuz i genuinely don’t think i’m fat, pu rging js makes me feel in control idek it doesn’t make any sense but idk how to stop anymore. i’m lowk so disappointed in myself because i was doing so well for such a long time 😞😞

#ed not edsheeran #relapse #im a clown

i downloaded tumblr again after 5 years, why is this app so ahh rn LMAOOOO

#ed #relapse #yay

skinnyteapot

I always feel so fucking fat

lilithmaze1998

Being at a “normal” / healthy weight, with a healthy BMI is so weird. You’re not fat, but you’re not skinny either.

You have an eating disorder, but you invalidate yourself because you feel like you’re faking it since you’re not skinny enough to have a severe problem.

Feeling like a disgrace to the ana community which consists of beautiful skinny people - people you don’t belong among.

Feeling guilty for reblogging all these thinspo posts because your illness is not “real enough”.

Wondering why tf you’re ALWAYS cold when your body has plenty of fat to keep you warm.

Wondering why you feel dizzy when you skip another meal when your body l i t e r a l l y has enough stored energy to keep you “fed” for days.

Being in love with skinny jeans and oversized hoodies but they make you look fat and skinny at the same time somehow? How is that even possible???

Having your collar bones visible, but they’re not poking out of your skin enough, not the way they do on all these thinspo pics.

Feeling disgusted and ashamed to leave your house every time you get bloated, because, from a normal semi-flat stomach, you go to an 8-month-pregnant woman with twins.

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