SHAWK THERAPY

Hi, I like to write poems and this is what it is for. For my other blog it is http://shawkyourworld.tumblr.com/ The reason why it is called rize poems is because rize is my "poet" name. Shawk is made from my name and it is therapy haha jkjk. I hope you enjoy my poems and my criticize and help me make these better as I go on. If perhaps you have a subject request please message me and I will see what I can do (in the ask me anything link below). Also if you would like to submit a poem I will be sure to give you full credit if you would like to send me some of yours (also in the ask me anything link below). Enjoy :) Another poet, Nostalja, also writes and runs this blog. Her personal blog is: http://gaorderofthephoenix.tumblr.com

[rizepoems]

And maybe this is but a lucid dream And what fine dawn will greet me when I wake Such damned illusions are not what they seem But a nightmare that flees when comes daybreak

Alas I’m too trapped here and can’t break free Shackled deep in the prison of my mind A madness growing too quickly to see Spreading through darkness and leaving me blind

But in a sleep safe I’m wary to rise My daily torture comfort as routine This pain the best for mental exercise As much a treasured friend as cruelest fiend

If reality be a paradise I choose to dream since words need pain as vice

-Carrie Yang

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The Harbor

A ship arrived at the port one day His cargo unknown to the rest of the bay. The officials came to check on the dock But the sight of the load put them to shock. Onto the deck came hundreds of slaves so frail Each one being pulled out of the belly of the whale. The captain was arrested but he merely claimed He was only a messenger, he shouldn't be blamed. The captain was beaten by prisoners and officials alike And he became hardened with each and every strike. Amongst the oppressors lay the oppressed, his friends Those who gave him strength when they met their ends. Each day was a year on this barred battleground The captain survived, each day more lost than found. After two years of prison, he was released But his conflict by then had still not ceased. He arrived to his ship, them both worn and torn apart The devil controlled his body, but God his heart. Confused on what to do, a hurricane started to form And the captain set sail to the heart of the storm. A man of revenge of forgiveness, what will he become He pondered as the rain made his body numb. The light faded as darkness began to devour Until all that was left was a faint light awaiting its hour.

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He is a Rose

He is a rose With a heart so beautiful and pure. In Him others grow His roots grow steadfast and sure.

He is a rose Cut and withered, He blooms red. They pinned Him to a board And placed His thorns on His head.

He is a rose As he blossoms towards above. His pollen rests in our hearts An everlasting gift of love.

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Authority

Authority is not what you hold But still, submission is not what you do. I am no Master, brutal and so cold Instead a Father, waiting here for you. My Son descended to Earth then to Hell To take away your sin and rise again. Created in My Image, you will dwell In what I have provided to all men. I fought for you, achieving victory And wait to be with you forevermore. Embrace Me, let Me take your misery And you can rise on eagles’ wings and soar.      So, come to me you thirsty, drink your fill      Your broken bodies can now rest here still.

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SORRY!!!

Hey guys who actually read these poems!!! We're sorry for not haven't posted recently but we've been swapped with midterms and finals and hope you forgive us and bear with us as we post more... On a side note, we have at least three poems on their way and two of them being published soon at a university journal!!! One small step closer to major publications(hopefully)... Have a wonderful day!!!

[rizepoems]

Birds Migrate South

She left me standing there that day I begged her not to go, to stay She looked back at me with a smile “It’s okay, you’ll heal in a little while.” A crack in my bone fully snaps back And I lie in the porch in a panic attack My years flowed out and I shivered in pain I breathed violently as I lay in the rain. I knew God was there, yet He seemed so passive Against the blow of the demon so massive. Floating in my tears, I wondered what went wrong What had obliterated our love so strong? I did all I could and gave the perfect gift Yet it was inevitable to expand the rift. As all light faded and sound became din The invincible flying man had broken. She walked into the forest an begun to walk astray With the gift in her hands he had given away Growing tired now, she sat beside Douglas to rest A thud. Her tall dreams falling down she guessed. She closed her eyes slowly and began to dream The devil burned her world and her souls faded to steam.

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Writing with my loaded gun.

So this is that I’m reduced to, ha! Writing shitty poetry on a just another shitty day in the life of an eighteen year old child. A certified nobody.

And you adults with all your fancy suits and fancy words and fancy slurs seriously depend on my generation? If the world rests on my shoulders then fuck! This world is certainly going to shit.

I don’t want to go out into this godforsaken world. It’s a war out there baby! You! are not a snowflake. You! are the same mass produced red target as everyone else Just waiting to get shot so that you can fulfill your life.

They want to rip you apart. Don’t say I didn’t warn you! Waiting for a living sacrifice to atone for all of their sins, just dumping all of their problems and shit on us because because we are supposed to be the change and lead the way (or some derivative of that bullshit).

So fuck you and fuck them. Hypocrites, all. They just want to shoot you and then fuck you for wasting a bullet.

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Solar Eclipse

When you fight or cry you always come to me And we talk till the sun came up or till you felt fine Amidst all your problems you still couldn't see No matter how much we're friends you've drawn the invisible line He's yours by day but you're mine by night And no matter what happens I'm always pushed aside He treats you horribly yet you're blinded by his light And I do not know how much longer in my time I can bide The day is longer so you spend more time with the sun Then you turn to the moon to cry your night away When I listen and help my short time is soon done And you plunge once more back into the fray He excels and surpasses me in everything but this: My love for you is far stronger than his could ever be His love is only superficial and lies on the surface My love runs deeper but you can never see me So go, go now, go with him down that road Don't worry about me because I'll be close behind And when his time passes I'll help ease your load The sun is gone and the moon can't make you blind.

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Before The Street Begins

Fear takes control of the all around And everywhere begins to grow tall Lies that you tell fill my mind and Lower I start to sink down and away Into the abyss, my eternal grave None can find me but please do help Gone now but not lost forever.

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An Idle Mind is Not Kind

An idle mind is not kind Our insecurities Plant the most vicious seeds And taking root deep in our heads it is the poison, and as it spreads we wither with each passing thought that darkens each bit of light we sought in this time of need.

And desperate thoughts cause desperate deeds. Without mercy this parasite feeds on every doubt to cross your mind. A doubting mind is far from kind.

They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder But what if it can only make it wander? And we can ask questions And let our imaginations run And fabricate the worst

And as I drown in all this self-made despair and come up for one last bit of sweet air The one thought pulling me through: I'm suddenly reminded of you. I'm slowly coming up to breathe, and breathe, and breathe We breathe.

And broken as we are, we come together Beaten by our doubts, and weathered by harsh insecurities. But in the end there's something greater To push us past corrosive thoughts And we come out polished.  Though it feels as if we're stretched apart across the distance, still our hearts refuse to be demolished. 

For I love you with all my broken soul. You are the only part to make me whole.

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Sad and lonely.

Like usual.

I am displaced. Dislocated. Wrong, wrong, wrong.

So wrong I cant find the right.

I knew all along that this fight was one in which I would keep losing keep bruising and I’m dying, not lying I cant find myself in this fog of deep self regret.

http://internalroar.tumblr.com/

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I am empty

  A swirling vortex of unemotion

Can I

   Can I

      Can I?  

So restless restless restless.

  I want to fly twirling twirling into an angry world, gnashing teeth and gritty competition

  I am silent, screaming!, in my confines

Is this the onset of neurosis?

In the last moments of my sanity let me request my insane self to let be.

Leave me leave me in peace and in peace I want to break I want to leave and live and let be.

http://internalroar.tumblr.com/

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Mosquito Bite

We walked beside the shore in two large groups To only get close to each other more Whatever happened stayed in our own loop We would want no thing to destroy our core Mosquito bites made the trek long and hard And we scratched and itched until skin was raw A bug that caused pain like a small glass shard Our fingernails were like teeth of a saw A week we had spent with these young insects We were drained of energy and health too But we pushed together nevertheless This won't be a week I want to rue In the end we overcame all weakness But despite mental tiredness and bodies sore This experience was like none before.

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Forgiveness

Oh my beloved please forgive my wrongs I know that I have done you a bad deed And if I could, I'd sing a thousand songs Whose gentle melodies would plant a seed This seed would surely grow into a tree Whose roots would bury deep beneath the ground Tall branches would reach out and cry to thee: The wind whispers my love, please hear its sound. Forgiveness is all I can ask of you Without it, I can hardly bear to live I beg you to believe my words are true And find it in your heart the grace to give

For who am I without your warmth, your love? As lonely as vast is the sky above.

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Though the lies taste bitter in our mouths, we live off them, drink them. Taking small sips to force ourselves to believe that it's the real thing.

We're all ghosts of our futures, living in a false state of reality; Trapped inside our web of deception woven by forbidden dreams.

Slip beneath the surface of "security" and make-believe. Silently we'll all die.

Green with envy, and a hint of blue: shade in our tainted souls as our poisoned hearts choke on the truth. 

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Fairytale

She stood at that spot

Looking so beautiful

The ball would last

Until the clock struck twelve

I wanted to dance

Grab her hand and tale her away

She danced with every man

So impossible to reach her.

Running out of time

I reached for her hand

And we danced all night

I took her away

Away from the others

Into the garden

And sat by the pond

A poor prince was I

With the most beautiful woman

What a dream it was

If only she knew the secret,

The one I carried so close

To my heart

The clock read 11:53

But I was prepared

I picked her up

Spoke to her

The illusion explained

11:59 now, forgive me

And light surged forward

I closed my eyes shut

As tears flowed from my eyes

Ta- da, it’s over

Take a look

My fairytale lasted

Until the clock chimed.

I opened my eyes

A woman in a torn dress

But so beautiful she was

She was poor and conflicted

As I was once

“See?” she said,

“You’re not alone.”

Just my perfect bride

We stood, in each other’s arms

Torn in appearance

One in heart

Beauty faded from us

But we looked the same

In love.

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Escaping

With such consciousness she spread her wings in vain And with velvet fingertips, she drew out her pain As the shore and the waves combined in the the twilight she escaped through her lies into the bitter night. Delicacy stained her cursed hands as she flew through the past, carefully making plans To find the one place that she could call home Where forever her heart and her soul would roam