just a lil goblin guy

he/them | writer | reenactor | sewist | nerdy | queer and angry | neurosparkly | RuffNTumble on a03

[ruff-n-tumble-boy]

Hi there, My name is Christian aka Ruff, Void, Hardwin, Bean and Xtian, depending on where you know me from.

A few quick facts:

Age: 37, elder millennial

Gender: transmasculine nonbinary goblin

Pronouns: he/them

Location: United States

Political Beliefs: Lefist

Religion: Universalist

Orientation: Queer

Interests: sewing, reading, writing, crafting, pop culture, history, reenactment, ttrpgs, video games, cooking, experimental archaeology, collecting, research, music, literary analysis, fashion, DIY, recycling/reusing

Fandoms: KPop Demon Hunters, LOTR, Sailor Moon, Critical Role, Hollow Knight, Stardew Valley, The Last Unicorn, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Charlie Bone, Resident Evil, Bioshock

FAQ:

How long have you been on hormones? It will be ten years on December 21st.

When did you have top surgery? October of 2020!

Didn't you used to write a lot of stuff for Pretty Little Liars? Yes I did, and I'm also a founding member of the Paily Anchors, a community/tag for Emily/Paige shippers.

What's that thing you do with the swords and stuff? It's called The Society for Creative Anachronism, and you can find out more at www.sca.org

Can I ask you questions about your transition? Sure, go for it! Just try to be respectful and understand I have the right to not answer anything I find offensive.

You have a dog? I do, and his name is Captain Barrington of the USS Pawsitania.

You have a twin?! Yep, they're @ggungabyfish ! My sister @mysarcasticgreencrayon is also on Tumblr. We're all nerds here!

Dude shut up, I'm here for the polytrix!

Ok ok, here you go.

If you happen to like my writing, or the crazy stuff I post here, I have a tip jar: https://ko-fi.com/ruffntumbleboy

NO TERFS, RACISTS, NAZIS, HOMPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES OR MAGATS ALLOWED. 1312

SUPPORTER OF DECLARATION 127

[saywhat-politics]

Kennedy Center being used as projector screen for Trump and Epstein videos - AOL

The prank appears to be the work of anti-Trump street artists known as VJayBombs, which posted an online montage of projections on other Was

President Donald Trump got a lesson in the law of unintended consequences when pranksters used the tarp that's hiding the removal of his name from the Kennedy Center to frame vintage video clips of him gallivanting with Jeffrey Epstein.

"Yesterday night a protester projected what we all wanted on the tarp of the Kennedy Center," X user @sarrah_bellus wrote Sunday morning on X, along with a recording of the video as it was projected onto the center's doors.

The stunt appeared to be the work of a group of anti-Trump street artists known as VJayBombs, which posted a montage of video clips on Instagram that show the Kennedy Center was among several targets during a spree of similar projections onto Washington, D.C., landmarks and locations.

[blackbearmagic]

Good morning,

museums should repatriate artifacts belonging to living cultures and display reproductions instead

[blackbearmagic]

Good afternoon,

no one is entitled to the sacred art, tools, or costumes of another culture (save members of the culture itself) and nonsacred reproductions will serve just as well for the purposes of education and appreciation

[blackbearmagic]

Good evening,

having museums full of reproductions would be even cooler than having museums full of sacred artifacts because when modern craftspeople are able to replicate those artifacts, it’s usually because they still make the same items the same way today

this means that you could have description tags emphasizing that such-and-such item has been made by these people in almost the same way for hundreds of years

having museums full of beautiful reproductions takes the emphasis off of Things and places it on the People who make them, which is really as it should be

[ruff-n-tumble-boy]

project Hail Mary is on prime video but also most piracy sites. Which you can access via the freemediaheckyeah wiki

ooh awesome thanks!

[ruff-n-tumble-boy]

all right where the heck can I watch Project Hail Mary so I can get on the BloodyMary train?

[kilncreatures]

forest dogy

[ruff-n-tumble-boy]

The semester is over and thus, I have returned.

[cuunos]

reallllly feel like some of you have to start understanding people are sometimes going to make mistakes and not understand something and not know things and it's going to slot them in a perfect place for you to scoff and call them problematic and evil and they're not even going to know why.

[cuunos]

not everyone is chronically online, or online at all. don't act like everyone who's ever enjoyed harry potter is a cartoon villain, when most of them barely know who jkr is and definitely don't know what she's done, or know what the actual symptoms of schizophrenia are, or understand what a neopronoun is. like, yeah, okay, you can get frustrated when people don't listen or when they willfully ignore you, but don't pretend everyone on earth is supposed to know already. my life advice.

[cuunos]

my friend is a cishet white guy who's entire knowledge of schizophrenia was "yeah that's the thing people have in horror movies that make them kill people." he didn't even know hallucinations were involved. after meeting me, he googled it. like, while we were hanging out, he pulled out his phone, took two minutes to read up on it, and went "oh, so it's like autism, but scarier for you." i told him about neopronouns, and therians, and objectum, and a bunch of other chronically online bullshit, and he nodded along. later he messaged me with a couple questions, which i explained, and he thought it was all very cool. he has a snapchat and an instagram, both of which are exclusively for hunting and fishing friends, he didn't even know why the r slur wasn't okay to say. im not saying you have to educate everyone you meet on the street, but for the love of god, you need to recognize when someone's actually trying to hurt you and when someone is just not really sure what's going on.

[weirdtranssexual]

i mean this in the nicest way possible but some of you need to learn how to be annoyed

[weirdtranssexual]

people are going to annoy you and that’s not a reason to burn bridges or blow up relationships

some people will even annoy you often! some people aren’t good at social cues and will therefore be frequently annoying! still not a reason to blow everything up!

[baraphalloplastyclinic]

I actually do think we should discourage women from becoming housewives. Do not become financially dependent on a man. That's how a lot of women ended up dead over the years. A man gets violent suddenly and you have to choose between homelessness or potentially dying at his hand because you have an enormous gap in your resume and no degrees or certifications or anything that will help you pursue a career that will allow you to be financially independent. He owns your bank account. His name is probably the one on the car. Try and leave and he can report it stolen. Where will you go then?

Don't become a housewife.

[ladyfoxfire]

And if you do become a housewife, take steps to protect yourself. Make sure you’re legally married, for starters; stay-at-home girlfriends have very little legal recourse to claim their partner’s assets in a breakup. Make sure your name is on the house deed/rental agreement, and have your car in your name, even if your spouse is paying for it. Have your spouse transfer money every month into an account solely in your name, so you can buy yourself things without needing permission, but also so you can save up to leave if needed.

If your spouse fights you on any of this, then don’t quit your job. The tradwife to poverty pipeline is real, and so is financial abuse.

[dressedupliketheking]

also, many women/people experience controlling behaviour and domestic violence from their partner for the first time during pregnancy. don’t risk thinking “he’s just stressed, it’ll get better when the baby comes” because it won’t. neither you and your child will ever be safe with that man. get out as early and safely as you can

[fluentisonus]

genuinely inconsolable I can't have one of these pompeii bread plushies fr.

[rukafais]

Blorbo from my mosaics.....

[modmad]

[norsevvy]

having post-canon polytrix thoughts again where all of them are SO BAD at expressing their issues that it's almost just comical. mira edition

mira is the best out of all of them but she gets embarrassed when it comes to Herself. it's totally fine and easy to figure out what rumi and zoey want and it's totally Normal And Fine And Expected for them to want those things, but god forbid SHE wants anything. getting concussed would be easier than having to shamefully admit she likes it when they call her pretty

she's both insanely confident and wildly insecure. all her life she's been berated for wanting attention, for wanting to have any kind of praise or support or encouragement. she's grown up without and has taken all of rumi and zoey's praise as just surface-level "What You Tell Your Famous Coworker And Bandmate" rather than letting it hit deeper. it's easier to not get hurt if you don't even give yourself the opportunity for it to happen, and mira has LIVED by that rule

she also sees her problems as Not As Bad as rumi's, who literally just tried to end it all like 2 weeks ago, so bringing it up seems kind of ridiculous, and it's not even a big deal anyways so it's fine and she'll get over it and won't think about it in a month (LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE) so it's FINE. not a big deal.

up until zoey helpfully introduces the No Lying Rule (which, as its name suggests, means No Lying) and mira is suddenly in super mega hell, because does it technically count as a lie if she's just obscuring information or purposefully not bringing something up?

rumi asks that exact question. zoey stares at her for a VERY long time and says that Yes. It Does In Fact Count.

worst day of mira's life. because she loves rumi and zoey so badly so much and she would never want to upset them or hurt them or have them be upset at her or because of something she's done, so obviously she can't lie or hide this, because zoey will find out and will Know and it'll count as lying and GOD. NIGHTMARE SCENARIO.

rumi immediately gets better at the whole No Lying thing. she usually stops in the middle of her sentences and goes "no that was a lie. sorry." or "i was thinking about lying. sorry." and it's just that over and over again until it gets easier to swallow the lies and say the truths without flinching

zoey takes on the same method; it's a lot of "mmm maybe that's a lie. can we get like. a lie meter. i think this is placing at like a level 2 lie but idk. also i lied about not wanting to go and get boba. well ok no i didn't want to at first but now i do. so it's a not-lie. anyways. good talk love you both!"

mira is just agonising for weeks until she bitterly and miserably mutters "i need to tell you guys something but i don't know how and it's driving me insane. can i get like. a day to work on it." and of course the answer is yes

and then it just keeps going like that. For Several Days. More Than Just One. zoey lets it go for like two weeks before she makes mira sit down and goes "ok babe we're kinda gonna have to lock in because your awful game of charades is driving rumi insane. she's pacing. she herded me into her bedroom and then around the living room like the world's most unenriched border collie in the world. do you know what it's like to be herded around the couch five times. actually it was ten times because i apparently 'did the loop wrong' and so we had to go AGAIN. anyways. you gotta spill Please"

this is by far the worst day of mira's life and she thought she already had that pass her by. it's a lot of sitting in silence in anguish in misery until she manages to get out "it's. A Name. i would like you to. Call Me. if you wanted. or you could just shoot me in the head. whatever's easier." (zoey is muttering "oh my god oh my god oh my god" under her breath and trying really hard not to laugh because how did she get not one but TWO girlfriends who are INCAPABLE OF BEING NORMAL ABOUT ANYTHING?)

zoey humours her for like 30 minutes by letting mira go at her pace. eventually manages to get it out of her that the "name" in question is in fact a pet name. perhaps a compliment, even. if you will

it gets to a point where zoey is really really trying not to laugh at her while gently soothing "babe i would literally call you like. idk refrigerator if you wanted me to do that. you are Severely underestimating all the things i would call you if you just asked me to. if you wanted me to exclusively call you COWSAR Garage Ready 20.67 in. 1.8 Cu. Ft. Manual Defrost Chest Freezer. i would. including in bed. just tell me the name mira oh my god rumi is going to come out here and tell us she rented out a farm so she could herd sheep JUST TELL ME"

shamefully, shaking in terror and embarrassment and shame (worst day of her life) mira admits that the wildly shameful embarrassing pathetic pet name she would like to be called is, in fact

pretty girl

zoey's instant reaction is unfortunately

she manages to resist Bursting Out Laughing though!

zoey just laughs. a little. laughs a Little Bit and kisses mira's cheek and goes "okay, pretty girl. you got it. i'll let rumi know"

best day of mira's life, actually

[tlirsgender]

They don't tell you this but besides the Beloved Mutual there's also the Longterm Follower who you don't follow back but they're always in your notes and you're kind of watching them. Checking on the longterm follower's bio every so often like turning over a log. She's trans now good for her

[tlirsgender]

Longterm followers I am putting fresh leaves and hrt in your enclosure

[murraysiskind-deactivated202511]

It’s so crazy that suicide prevention is just people going awwww don’t!! Awwww come on noooooooooo stopppppp

[allhailklisz]

[yokelfelonking]

One of the best ones I saw was a thing noting that every single one of the few survivors of suicide jumps off of the Golden Gate Bridge realized, on the way down, that the problems they were killing themselves over actually were fixable or could be worked through...except for the now - extremely unfixable - problem of gravity.

[authortobenamedlater]

Went to the Holocaust Museum in DC once. There was a video interview of an Auschwitz survivor who said he and some other prisoners stayed up all night with a man who wanted to kill himself. The man didn’t kill himself and survived to liberation.

In the video the survivor said “Never seek a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And they’re all temporary problems.”

Hearing that from a guy who survived the Holocaust rewired my brain a little bit.

[drgrlfriend]

I think something a lot of people don't understand is that depression is not suicidality, and suicidality is not depression. People can, and are, depressed without being suicidal, and sometimes suicidality peaks as people are emerging from depression. Suicidality is a wave, and the trick is to allow that wave to crest and subside WITHOUT acting on it. Whatever it takes to ride it out. For some people that's distraction, like watching television. For others it's calling a friend -- not to talk about the suicidality, but just to talk. For others it could be as simple as going to sit in a coffee shop or library, because the presence of other people is a huge diminisher of suicide risk. That's what suicide safety planning is about. It's like having any other type of emergency plan, like a plan for fire or evacuation. It's making a plan when you are in the frame of mind to do so, so that you can just DO the plan without having to think about it when the occasion arises. When you're in the midst of suicidal ideation, or even intent, you're not in a problem-solving mood. So knowing past!you, with the help of a therapist hopefully, came up with the plan and all you have to do is follow up until the wave crests and subsides, is what allows you to see another day.

ETA: Here's a link to a safety plan. https://www.samhsa.gov/sites/default/files/988-safety-plan.pdf

[linolinoing]

It's more love than friendship. If teamwork is something you consciously adjust, then for us, it's just our true feelings. So even if you make mistakes, you can understand and feel the desire to grow together. I think that's the most important thing. When the 8 of us are together, we live and when we're apart, we die!

HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY MY SKZ! ∞

[jaehyum]

zoey -> kpop demon hunters

[ruff-n-tumble-boy]

If this is what it feels like you have your heart broken again, I don't think I want it.