In Lunacy, the Savage Dream

Saint or SOL. stylized as sAInToFLeAVEs Lover of dreams.

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Lost in Limbo.

[onefive2]

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Aziel, the exiled Overseer. scuffed design sheet of sorts

chandelier guy...

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chandelier guy WIP cuz I'm mad tired rn

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I think one of my plant's leaves is photosynthesizing from my computer screen and it's really funny to look at

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It hurts to think about it. Makes me feel all nauseous and tight in the throat.

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god i'm experiencing the toxic ex wife thing you are now

and it's VERY MUCH something I should NOT go back to, that fandom traumatized me and taught me TERMS.

AND THEY WERE BLOCK CHARACTERS. LIKE ROBLOX. BUT MICROSOFT 3D OR WHATEVER THE GUY MADE THE MODELS IN MICROSOFT 3D AND THAT WAS THE WHOLE GIMMICK THAT THE CHARACTERS WERE CAPABLE OF BEING 3D

FRICK FNF BUT EVERYONE SINGS THE SONG COVERS GIVING ME WHIPLASH EVERY TIME I SEE THEM AND THEN THEY ARE DRAWN GENUINELY WELL IT MAKES ME MISS THINGS I SHOULDN'T

i buried the part of me that was toxic af at that time I'M NOT GOING BACK

THEIR VOICES SOUND HORRIBLE PLEASE I'M SUPPOSED TO HATE IT NOW RAAHHHH

Lets drink together like old men at a bar

In all seriousness though, I feel sorry for you for that and I pride you for being able to move on and improve as a person, but don't bash yourself for how you were at the time or how you feel about it now.

If I were to assume, it's likely not that you're missing it for what it left you with, but rather the happiness you had at the time and the sense of familiarity with it, even if everything was utterly horrible in hindsight.

It's not your fault for feeling this way, as it is very common for those to long for the times of pain in one's past. I often feel the same way about my GC era in 2024, even if it was horrible for not just me but mostly everyone involved with it at the time.

The advice I can give is try to avoid anything regarding it as much as possible and try to keep your mind off it with activities if it's troubling you too much. I wish you the best and I'll be free to talk if you need it.

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Had one hell of a rough night but I'm feelin much better neow. My digestive tract hates me lmao and it wasn't even the first time this sorta thing happened, but thankfully it wasn't as painful as last time.

[vindy-vindingmachine]

H.

ok.

last day of school done.

it’s over.

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hurray :D

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I strained my shoulder earlier this morning and it still hurts like hell oh my lord.

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I sure wonder who this was based off of

Designs for a project of mine.

Characters here are Vireo (placeholder) and Sylvester. They're the same person.

sketches// simplified vers and face concept

designs are bound to change, but I'm most content with how they are rn.

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fuuuuuck I miss roblox like an ex wife man fuuuuuck

[l-vowf-a]

❓️

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horribly dizzy and aches and sickness.. X[

Food poisoning, likely. I shoulda known better than to eat old leftovers.

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So it wasn't food poisoning. Now I'm just wondering what the hell that was.

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horribly dizzy and aches and sickness.. X[

Food poisoning, likely. I shoulda known better than to eat old leftovers.

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I'm looking through my files and sorting them, and I highkey miss my 2025 roblox era. especially admintwt summer. god I loved admintwt summer.

I think it's just because I felt happy in a way I had never felt before. I was apart of a community, even if it was very unstable and absurd, and I had a big friend group of people I looked up to at the time, and I still do look up to em, frankly.

And I think the whole obsessing over dumb, silly little characters with other equally as invested and obsessed people shtick is what really made me happy, too.

Even I left the fandom and those characters, their characterizations weren't really their own to begin with, but rather my own characterizations and how I saw them, since they were basically just blank slates, so I feel myself free to make something new outta them.

It's a strange contrast, going from being in such a fluffy-sort community/friend group to being lonely so suddenly. I'll learn my way to feel like I did before.

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An attempt at a Pyro design

Wanted to go with a worn, dirty, sort of industrial of some kind look, and I think I did fine with that.

+ doodles // minor vomit warn below: