Sam Totally Bangs

On Motherhood and Making It

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When all your friends are engaged or married and you're over here like...

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We were planning on going to the @ridetrimet casting call earlier, but ironically enough, the bus schedule just didn't work with his naps today. Oh well! Didn't want our cute to go to waste, so we took some selfies instead. #trimet #pdx #pdxbaby #pdxmom #babymodel #babyselfie #mommyandme #portland

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Making fit happen between housework that needs to get done while baby naps. (With a little help from iced coffee because calm down with your summertime, Portland.) ------- I tend to get very stubborn and short sighted when it comes to my workouts. Too often I see it as an all or nothing approach: "If I can't put in a full, hard hour at the gym then it's not even worth it." ------- Except that it is. Just because I can't do the workout that I WANT to do, doesn't mean I can't do a workout that still compliments my goals. I've just got to reprioritize and consider: is that SPECIFIC workout the only way to get where I want, or can I fit something in NOW instead of sulking on the internet between loads of dirty diapers? If you can change your mindset, the answer becomes pretty clear. #prioritizeyourfitness #makefithappen #fithappens #fitmom #fitmomsofig #momswholift #ladieswholift #fitfam #momlife #mombod #naptimegrind #momswag #momsohard #momsofig #kettlebell #workout #fitness #fitnessfriday #homeworkout #personaltrainer #pdxmom #portlandmom

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Parenting in 2016. You can't make this shit up.

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Slowly seeing some progress in my core, despite being crazy bloated from yesterday's sugar, salt and beer binge. Diastasis is almost closed and I've been laying off weighted oblique moves to try and cinch my waist a bit more. Figure I'll be lookin pretty good come little man's first birthday! #postpartumfitness #progress #diastasisrecti #fitmom #fitfam #fitmomsofig #girlswholift #momswholift #momswag #progresspic

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When I’m told to “tuck” in barre class but just end up like,

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See also: jeans for everything.

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Working on some diastasis so I've been focusing more on boxing for the upper body and heavy lifting for that posterior chain. Starting to see some progress in the booty! #fitfam #fitmom #momswholift #momswag #becauseglutes #glutes #legday #quadgoals #fitnessfriday #postpartumfitness #diastasisrecti #liftheavy #girlswholift

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Just polished off the baby's snacks while sitting in the truck because he's sleeping, it's pouring and I'm starving. I'm not proud. Mom life yo.

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Sleep training made slightly more bearable by donuts and cocktails. #momlife #momsohard #momswag #badmom #happysleeper #sleeptraining #bluestardonuts #donuts #cocktails #nocino @stonebarn @bluestardonuts #pdxmom #portland #pnw #pdx

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My beautiful bug turned nine months old on Tuesday. He has a tooth, pulls himself up, and pushes me away to crawl all over the house. He's incredibly curious, loves to show off his clapping skills and makes the best faces. He's a great sharer of food, toys and smiles. He gives great hugs and is the best snuggler around. Sure, we're still working on bedtime and sleeping through the night, but every time he looks at me and gives me his big old grin, I'm reminded that it's all totally worth it. It certainly isn't what I expected my life to be at this point in time, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. #momlife #bsbaby #9monthsold #blueeyes #thosecheekstho #babyboy #pdxmom #pdxbaby #portlandbaby #babymodel

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First time in a swimsuit #postpartum ... I've looked worse! No filter (Just vignetted). Plenty of work left to do, but I've come a long way! Oh, and a cute baby for good measure. #fitmom #fitfam #fitnessfriday #swimsuit #bikini #postpartumfitness #milfintraining #momswag #momswholift #momlife #boymom #babyselfie #bsbaby #nofilter #progress

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Why yes, I AM exhausted, thanks for noticing.

Please don’t ask me if my baby is sleeping through the night. Do I LOOK like he’s sleeping through the night? I’ve deduced people ask this for one of three reasons: 1) They don’t have kids and it seems a more palatable topic than poop. 2) Their baby isn’t sleeping through the night and they want to cry to someone. 3) They want to gloat that their precious angel is sleeping through the night and tell you everything about sleep training that you’re doing wrong. None of these reasons are helpful to the parent of an infant. Poop stories are hilarious. My being on day 3 of 45 minute catnaps all night, avoiding caffeine JUST IN CASE is NOT hilarious. Oh man, YOUR kid isn’t sleeping either? Well I certainly have no ideas for you. We may as well go knock back a few together because… Oh, jk ‘cause breastfeeding. I’ve heard every sleep training method in full detail at this point. While sane me is super happy that holding your bundle of joy upside down while you do squats and recite the alphabet backwards has given you a blissful 8 hours of sleep for the past three months, sleep deprived me wants to punch you square in the face. It’s gonna happen one of these days; I can feel the twitch every time. “Oh, he’s not sleeping? Well have you tried…” PUNCH. BROKEN NOSE. Consider yourself warned.

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Today has been a nightmare. Okay, maybe not THAT bad, but definitely a lucid dream. I'm so exhausted I feel disconnected from everything. Been solo parenting since Monday and sleep has been worse than usual thanks to a tooth cutting through. Did a bunch of meal prep and made it to the gym the past couple days, but being overtired makes me crave junk and I've totally been giving in. Took a short walk this morning to try and get him to nap, but I think that's all the exercise I'll be able to get in today. Hopefully I can make it an early bedtime for him before my client at 7, then hit the sack early myself. Very little accomplished in the way of "bettering myself" this week, but I guess you can't win them all. At least he likes to play with the junk mail... He's been quiet for five minutes.

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I’m on this diet where I think about all the ways to clean up my eating and then just have pizza and cookies for dinner.

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My childhood bestie is getting married AND I'M SO DAMN EXCITED. AND a little jealous. But mostly excited! #sweatingforherwedding

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Having a rough day in motherhood.

I knew we were in for a rough Friday when Jamie woke up an hour early this morning. I know it was partly my fault for keeping him out past his bedtime, and in turn, making it nearly impossible to get him to sleep once we got home.

But in the spirit of making myself a priority, I decided to make plans with a girlfriend for happy hour. It’s a new friend, also a younger mom, and I love hanging with her. I made sure we did story time in the morning and a run in the afternoon so that the majority of the day was fun stuff for the baby. (And to burn some extra calories for happy hour.)

Brought his noise cancellation headphones and he took a pretty decent nap while I overindulged on fried vegetables and a yummy cocktail. And naturally the whole time I felt guilty. Guilty for food choices, for making plans for myself… So then I came home and ate raw cookie dough once I finally fought him down to sleep.

I had big plans to make amends at the gym this morning until my 5:30am wake-up. I was unfairly crabby and not super into playing, but he was happy as a clam - albeit a sleepy one. Then I got him back down for a nap after breakfast and went back to sleep myself, so I thought I had the day back on track. Our dog woke us up after about an hour and a half, but he seemed ready to be up so I started getting us ready. I let him crawl around and play while I made coffee and got dressed. Then I went to get him ready to leave and the meltdown started.

About 45 minutes later, after some screaming and some nursing, he’s back asleep. At first I was upset that the gym would have to wait, but I quickly reminded myself that his sleep is far more important. And that snuggling and nursing he so desperately wanted is something that he’ll only want from me for a short amount of time.

It’s a little ironic that he woke up yesterday as I was starting to make a priority web (because Virgo) to try and balance mom me with career-goals me, but I think that gave me my answer. Mom me is in the driver’s seat for now, and when I have time to research monologues or write agency letters, great.

So now I’m drinking some coffee and trying to reset my intentions for the day. Yes, I need to take care of myself, but only if my baby is taken care of first. The gym will always be there. He’s only a baby once.