this blog is about hyperfixations & love.

johanna / 24 / femme as in dyke, manic-depressive as in poet, poster as in lover

[sapphicpenguin]

hi it's johanna, your femme/bipolar/penguin/mcr/poetry mutual with various fandom relapses sprinkled in

my chemical romance fans may know me from the unkillables zine

religion weirdos may know me as my altar (haha) ego @queerprayers

no one knows me from anything else but I have a writing portfolio/blog

storygraph I read books sometimes

had this blog since I was 13 I think. so if you scroll too deep that's on you

if I refer to my boyfriend that's my butch yes I'm "still" a lesbian. no one send me discourse you will be laughed at

I'm bad at DMs but I love you and anyone who sends me a random penguin post has my whole heart

[orphiclovers-deactivated2026032]

If I was in a fanfiction and started coughing up flowers while working at a flower shop (because this is a flower shop au) I would NOT connect my crush on the tattoo artist next door to the flower cough situation. I would freak the fuck out and think the pollen at work was doing some Last of Us shit to me, quit my job and move FAR away. inadvertently my flame for the tattoo artist would fade with distance, solving my hanahaki situation and proving my 'the flowers were trying to turn me into a plant zombie' theory

[buildanaltarwhereitswells]

2030 mcr fandom discourse

post 1: can we please normalize using he/him for gerard… some of u lean REAL hard into that /they and it’s getting prettyyy aggressive lmfao…

post 2: l*nz was literally the one who introduced frank to ai art and tried to get him cancelled and made mikey buy into that pyramid scheme so he would go broke because she wanted the band to break up… but y’all aren’t ready for that conversation!!

#and im not even gonna get into her usage of the d slur in the swarm tour documentary

post 3: idk i know gerard wore nothing but vintage women's negligee on stage last year but could the photographers maybe chill out. it seems a bit over the line to me... like what if he doesn't want pictures taken...

[gcballet]

[skullsliced]

i’m gonna be sick.

[crimewave420]

what kind of blogs do you follow

I follow a wide range of blogs to make sure my own blog content is as inconsistent and annoying as possible

[magneatio]

let’s have a fun fucking summmmeeeerrrrrrrrr ✨✨✨

[raisinchallah]

ok enough regular fujoshi media we need to investigate how writing about men fucking is actually proxy sex between women we need a story about two womens increasingly codependent and toxic online friendship built on writing slash fiction together escalating to doing sex roleplay on instant messengers pretending to be their favorite ship to get better at writing so they can really embody the mind of the characters obviously and talking one of the women thru her divorce and their weird emotionally blurred and toxic friendship as the more talented friend keeps leveraging her popularity and control over a major fanfic site in the fandom to keep control over the rapidly deteriorating friendship and they have weird phone sex and one of them realizes they are gay for real and gets a girlfriend whos jealous of how much time shes spending online and the friendship eventually explodes and one of them goes on to get published and the other woman shows up at her book signing and its the first time they have ever seen each other face to face but only one of them knows who the other is

[carvedhopeonmywrist]

eternal ass june ive already reincarnated 10,000 lives this month

[jaigeye]

brokeback mountain, the handmaiden, moonlight, portrait of a lady on fire - true love, richard siken / thomas yingling, Hart Crane and the Homosexual Text

[bloedgetuige]

might be the funniest review ive ever seen on storygraph

[bloedgetuige]

the book was The Sex Lives of Saints: An Erotics of Ancient Hagiography by Virginia Burrus

[thekidsfromyestergay]

Incredibly funny that conventional weapons was their attempt to make a generic rock record. Like girl this is what you do when you're trying NOT to sound like a faggot?

[bookwyrminspiration]

sometimes a theme recurs in your work without your permission. and sometimes it reaches a threshold where you're like. well now i think this is saying something about me against my will. don't know what though

[sliversoakley4]

[intactics]

[woman who won't stop posting Guernica voice] guess the mood today ladies

[intactics]

that's right it's Guernica again

[intactics]

you'll never guess today's motif

[steelycunt]

in an ao3 full of sex scenes written like everyone’s taken a night school course on fucking shibari and then written up the experience for a linkedin post the bad bdsm etiquette tag appears to me like a verdant oasis in the unforgiving desert

[movie-gifs]

You are not cursed. You are loved by me. Phantom Thread (2017) dir. Paul Thomas Anderson