When things aren't going as expected, sometimes I can't help but tell myself: "I quit." . From being a freelancer with occasional gigs, I decided to try my luck to finally be a formal employee, starting with the BPO industry. It was hard to get myself into it at first, and I remember being the wave's underdog. My pessimism kept me at bay, and I always expected I won't make the cut— that way, if the worse did happen, it wouldn't be too hard to take it all in. After being certified, the first few months have admittedly been a struggle. If there was one thing I was good at, it was being consistent at failing my stats week after week. I even remember during one of my coaching sessions with my first Team Lead, that maybe the BPO industry isn't the right place for me. For the most part, it was true. I still had my heart set on doing art as my profession, but as a non-degree holder, being a CSR was the best resort for a stable funding at that moment. Knowing that everything is just temporary, I tried my best to avoid being attached with the people around me and focused instead on work. However, that part was inevitable. I became too emotional when my first team got dissolved succeeding my TL's promotion. I was handed over to another team lead, and with her help, I was able to finally hit all of my targets cosistently one step at a time. I did whatever I can to contribute to my new family, and they eventually became one of the reasons why I'm motivated to come to work and push myself to be better. A lot of unanticipated changes occured since then. Tears were shed; people came and people left. It was hard to keep up with all the things happening around us, and I've heard myself saying repeatedly how much I wanted to quit and leave everything behind. But even when work has been quite demanding, even when things doesn't feel too fulfilling as they were before, I'm still here. When you think hard and appreciate the good instead of the unpleasant ones, you suddenly remember the reasons why you're here, and why you do what you do. In my case, it's not about the company, the work, or the salary anymore. It's my family. #AugustPhotoDiarySeries https://www.instagram.com/p/B1JnIL6F-1P/?igshid=1pdgiijkd69tj