power corrupts, love heals

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sc1enceleads - independent && selective Kate Stewart of the Doctor Who Universe, primarily written media based with headcanon, UNIT audios, and television show influences.

a scientific study in - scientific approach in a military environment, leadership, carrying a legacy, coping with past grooming && inappropriate power dynamics, young && single motherhood, the importance of family, and dealing with the supernatural and extraterrestrials.

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[citywidespecialll]

you’re gonna look me in my big brown eyes and tell me no?

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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT - THE ANTHOLOGY BY TAYLOR SWIFT PROMPT LIST *  assorted lyrics from the album, some lines slightly adapted for meme purposes but feel free to adjust as necessary

even if it's handcuffed, i'm leaving here with you.

trust me. i can handle a dangerous man.

i love you. it's ruining my life.

does it feel all right to not know me?

i am who i am 'cause you trained me.

quick. tell me something awful.

i loved you the way that you were.

we were just kids, babe.

i can fix him.

you and i go from one kiss to getting married.

you said i'm the love of your life.

way up there, i actually love it.

i just don't understand how you don't miss me.

do you hate me?

did you think i had it in me?

what if i told you i'm back?

i still miss the smoke.

i'm not trying to exaggerate, but i think i might die if it happened.

you look like stevie nicks.

it's hell on earth to be heavenly.

i still can't believe it.

this happens once every few lifetimes.

didn't you hear? they called it all off.

it's happening again.

my friends say it isn't right to be scared.

i might just die.

fuck you if i can't have us.

tell me about the first time you saw me.

are you gonna marry, kiss, or kill me?

no one's ever had me... not like you.

stay away from her.

there wouldn't be this if there hadn't been you.

i don't think you've changed much.

that's where i was when i lost it all.

life was always easier on you than it was on me.

i hoped you'd return.

do you believe me now?

what if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time?

what are the chances you'd be downtown?

is it something i did?

oh, we must stop meeting like this.

they say what doesn't kill you makes you aware.

i'm not a donor, but i'd give you my heart if you needed it.

looking backwards might be the only way to move forwards.

the story isn't mine anymore.

what a charming saturday!

none of it is changing.

wild winds are death to the candle.

one bad seed kills the garden.

i'm bitter, but i swear i'm fine.

this place made me feel worthless.

i didn't want to come down.

everything had been above board.

blood's thick, but nothing like a payroll.

you can mark my words that i said it first.

the professor said to write what you know.

all of this to say, i hope you're okay.

your words are still just ringing in my head.

i built a legacy which you can't undo.

who do i have to speak to to change the prophecy?

the effects were temporary.

no, i'm not coming to my senses.

babe, you gotta fake it 'til you make it.

you know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart.

i guess a lesser woman would've lost hope.

thought of calling you, but you won't pick up.

you're a professional.

long may you reign.

you're an animal. you are bloodthirsty.

now i seem to be scared to go outside.

i don't believe in good luck.

i hate it here.

if i'd been there, i'd hate it.

only the gentle survived.

i'm lonely, but i'm good.

you have no room in your dreams for regrets.

i thought it was just goodbye for now.

are you still a mind reader?

let it once be me.

i haven't decided yet.

i still dream of him.

i'm so afraid i sealed my fate.

it was always the same searing pain.

i can't forgive the way you made me feel.

it wasn't a fair fight or a clean kill.

she used to say she wished that you were dead.

tell me all your secrets.

they tried to warn you about me.

you're in terrible danger.

i'm the life you chose.

yes, i'm haunted, but i'm feeling just fine.

no one asks any questions here.

tell me i'm despicable. say it's unforgivable.

i'm running back home to you.

you should see your faces.

you knew the price going in.

was any of it true?

who the fuck was that guy?

i don't ever want you back.

did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed?

you don't get to tell me you feel bad.

you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me.

am i allowed to cry?

there's no such thing as bad thoughts. only your actions talk.

they're going to crucify me anyway.

i know i'm just repeating myself.

that's the closest i've come to my heart exploding.

[bleiddiaiddrwg]

"So. . . you didn't kidnap me? Thank fuck." They sigh, relaxing slightly before narrowing their eyes again. "Or did you, 'cause I was messin' with that tech?" This UNIT lot didn't sound like a corp, or a big one at least, but they might have the technology to spirit someone away.

Thinking for a moment, neurons properly firing, they can't help smirking. "Say, you work with alien shit, right? You heard anythin' about, er. . . techno-necromancers from Alpha Centuri?"

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"No, we haven't any knowledge of what you were doing until you showed up here," Kate explains, "we're just as confused as you are on how you ended up at UNIT." 

Brows furrow at "techno-necromancers" and she looks to Shirley to see if she heard of them before. Upon receiving a head shake, Kate turned back to their new arrival; 

"No, never heard of them before. What are they?" 

She assumes they're what they sound to be, but resurrecting bodies with the usage of technology... very futuristic. And disturbing.

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@jewishjanetandco said: i haven't told them about us. -- Osgood

"I see." With her hands in her pockets of her coat, Kate rocked on her heels.

She hadn't expected Osgood to tell her family, from what she knew of them— particularly Nova — Kate wasn't sure how they'd take it. Partly with how the imbalance between their positions were and ages, and partly because while Osgood's uncle and Mike Yates were long-time partners, she hadn't the slightest idea how they'd feel about Osgood being queer or having a partner of her own. 

"I'm good with just being your friend around them," Kate reassured, looking at Osgood with a soft expression. "And boss, but our main focus here is friend."

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To be clear; Kate is kind, not nice.

[itsthebrigadier]

"It reminds me of the time you made me a thermos of coffee for work. You manage to get a hold of my scotch used that instead of water to brew the coffee. And let's just say it was an interesting start to my day."

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"I don't know how I managed that, usually you kept the scotch out of reach. I must've been determined to make your coffee that morning. Can't say it sounds half-bad, was it at least good, albeit the wrong time of day for it?" Amusement danced in her eyes.

[mythshire]

※.·:·.※ 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐖 ··· a collection of chosen bonds, found family, & unconditional belonging roleplay sentence starters. genre: platonic love, hurt and comfort, loyalty.

• You know you don't have to keep checking on me, right? I'm fine. • How are you? Wait, did I ask that already? • I don't know what I'd do without you. I mean that. • Oh, God. I thought something happened to you. Don't scare me like that. • You're not alone in this. You know that, right? • We're family. That's what we do. We show up. • Make yourself at home, okay? This is your place too now. • Get out of here with that. You're not a burden. Don't ever say that again. • Is there anything you need? Food? A blanket? Someone to just sit with you? • So, what's next for us? • I have to admit there's a small part of me that's terrified you'll wake up one day and realize you don't need me anymore... that you'll leave. • It's just... I've never had this before. People who stay. • Why are you still here? I mean, you could go anywhere. Be with anyone. • I know I'm not easy to deal with. But thank you. For staying anyway. • [Name], I don't know what I'm doing half the time, okay? But I know I'm not doing it without you. • I don't really know where else I'd want to be, except right here. • You're the best thing that ever happened to me, you know that? • I really think you saved my life. Not dramatically. Just... by being here. • Hey. Bad dream? Come here. I've got you. • You don't owe me anything. This is what family does • Stop apologizing. You're allowed to need help. • I made your favorite. Thought you could use some comfort food today. • You look exhausted. When's the last time you actually slept? • I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me, remember? • We've been through worse. We'll get through this too. • You don't have to be strong all the time. Not with me. • I brought you something. It's stupid, but it made me think of you. • Come on. Let's get you home. • You matter to me. More than you know. • I've got your back. Always have, always will. • You're shaking. Here, take my jacket. • I know you're scared. It's okay to be scared. • You did good today. Really good. • I'm proud of you. I don't say that enough. • Stop pushing me away. I'm not leaving. • You think I'd let you face this alone? Not a chance. • I'll stay up with you. I don't mind. • You're safe here. I promise. • Tell me what you need. Anything. • You don't have to pretend with me. • I trust you. Completely. • You've got this. And if you don't, we've got this. • I'd do anything for you. You know that, right? • You're not too much. You're never too much. • This is your home now. For as long as you want it. • I'll fight for you if you can't fight for yourself right now. • You make me want to be better. A better person. • I chose you. I keep choosing you. Every day. • You're allowed to fall apart. I'll hold the pieces until you're ready.

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@fablelike said: " i have a bad feeling about this... "  ruby !

"Mhm," Kate agrees, glancing back in the direction of the young man following them for the past couple minutes around the shop. 

Not noticing that either woman noticed him, he continues to shoot glances of his own from the opposite end of the aisle. Of the few theories Kate settled on in the last minute; this was either someone connected to the foster child, Emilia, currently asleep in the double-pushchair with Joseph, or one Kate had previously come in contact with through UNIT. 

Neither Kate's particular comfortable with, as Emilia had been placed with her and Carla due to the mother struggling to leave her partner safely, and there had been previous threats made toward the little girl (thankfully never acted upon). And Kate has begun to put some distance between her professional life and personal life. 

"I don't think that's her mum's partner," Kate says softly, turning the corner to the next aisle. "Think it's a relative?"

[scribeherself]

You do not have to earn softness. it belongs to you.

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@frontsdesk said: " was i awful last night? "

"Not particularly," Kate answers, tying her trainer before looking up at Key on the couch, hair a sleepy mess. "You didn't do anything too crazy, maybe a little flirt here and there but we kept an eye on you."

As usual, Kate herself had drank but nothing that left her with a hangover. Always the responsible one, practical about making sure everyone there got home safely, reminding them to be hydrate once there. 

Key had teased her for not letting loose more, celebrate without caring as much about later. Kate hadn't been in the mood to explain she rarely got drunk, especially when out of her house, let alone much in the company of others. The preference to be put together, the mask hardly ever falling even when alone with those she trusted the most. 

"And no, no tits were flashed but I think you got close once," Kate teases, standing and fixing her short ponytail. "I'm going for a walk, I assume you're not in the mood to join me."

[bleiddiaiddrwg]

"Oh, you had easy with it being accidental." A laugh leaves him again. He'd seen the pure anger in the eyes of his younger cousins. It was almost sibling rivalry between Con and Gordy. Fists definitely went flying before he was able to jump in to stop them.

Obasi shrugs, still smiling. "Nothing too exciting. Getting people on security detail, plenty of paperwork myself. Thought you should share the joys of it with me." He nods down to the files he's just handed over.

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"Do I want to know how bad it is when its intentional?" Neither boy has ever had too much of a temper, but she can imagine there was a time or two when the parents weren't around and they got upset, fists might go flying.

Obasi being there to mediate offers small comforts in the form of no one ending up too maimed in a bout of anger.

"Endless piles of paperwork, it reproduces the second we leave the building," Kate says with great amusement, giving a quick skim over the first few paragraphs. "Who... I might need a drink after this one. I don't know whose man this was, but we are required to make it clear, again, there is a protocol to call for back-up first before approaching what might be a space pod that crashed to earth."

[llibelula]

@sc1enceleads asked Let me know if anything is bothering you.

Chloe nods, wrings her hands as she glances to the window. It's a lavish flat. Lua has done well to arrange it but it still doesn't feel enough. She misses the familiar hum of the ship that would surround her, soothe her. She's so quiet when Chloe tries to reach out, but how does she explain any of it to Kate? Where does she even begin?

"There aren't any Zeppelins here," she replies, chuckles softly as she cradles her glass. "They line the Thames back home, vessels of the uber wealthy, steadier than the stars. I used to look at them at night when I couldn't sleep. Now...here, there isn't anything. Just clouds." She hesitates. "I wish I could at least see the stars, you know?"

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Leaning against the arm of the couch, her own arms partially folded as she takes a sip of drink, Kate feels the anxiety radiating off Chloe. The difference in their worlds must feel akin to one of those dreams where everything is about the same, but not quite, and waking meant having to exist in a reality that no longer feels real. 

"When you're so used to one thing, it's heartbreaking to lose it," Kate says softly in understanding. "And the stars, they're almost a part of you, aren't they? Not just wonderful balls of plasma, but something you've known all your life. Even intimately once you started to travel amongst them."

[londonbelles]

Madeleine returned the half smile with one of her own, tightening her grip on the mug of coffee the lovely tea lady had given her, along with an extra slice of shortbread. Either she was sweet on the American or overheard her comment about missing proper shortbread after returning to the states, Madeleine wasn't sure, but she wouldn't complain.

She let her gaze flit over Kate's face, her smile twitching a little wider as she noted the familiar features she'd been smitten with had only grown more beautiful in her absence. Did she often wonder how life would have turned out if she'd stayed in London and finished her medical degree here? Of course, she did. Did she miss Kate and that sweet little boy like crazy those first few months back on American soil? She was heartbroken to leave them, but life moved quickly, and those treasured memories tucked safely in her heart helped her in some of her darkest moments, personally and professionally.

Even all these years later, Mads had to stamp down the urge to soothe the uncertainty she could feel radiating off Kate. The urge to place a reassuring hand on her arm or back was making her busy hands itch, but Madeleine refrained. She didn't want to overstep or make Kate uncomfortable after so long apart.

"Good, busy with work and family stuff, but good. Yourself? And how's Gordy doing these days?" She asked, doing her best to keep her tone light and trying to keep her own nervousness tucked away.

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They parted on okay terms, agreeing that it needed to be the case for either of them to move on, yet Kate tried not to frown at the mention of Gordy. Madeleine no longer had access to that part of her life. Didn't know that Kate had had a second child by now as she kept quiet when passing on information to Madeleine when letting her know her dad died. 

But it was inappropriate to not continue their bit of small talk there, in front of others. To not let rumours be started about how their Chief Scientific Officer didn't get along with the American doctor who worked in the medbay. Kate preferred not to set any kind of tone for others to make note of.

"He's doing well," Kate assured Madeleine with a hint of fondness in her smile. "And I'm doing good, a bit busy the last week or so, things have finally settled down. For now. How has your first week been so far? I've heard Howie has had to make an appearance there, lovely young man, but you will be seeing him a lot there, do take care of him. Give him a scold when applicable."

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HEADCANON

At some point either before or post-the war between verse, Kate has gotten her foster parent certification to foster parent once she moves in with the Sunday family.

She also takes the occasional Open University course (such as Psychology, social science and wellbeing), that she not only fast tracks but does a good portion of it at night, especially if they get infants who are still young enough to require nighttime feedings. Kate will pop in an earbud to listen to a lecture while taking care of the baby.

Part of her taking these courses is to help herself as a foster parent, but also have something else in her life that isn't for work.

[notthatblondie]

Mess with my kindness and you’ll meet a version of me I don’t even like.

[ventureheart]

Clara chuckles lightly, has to take in a big inhale as though she hasn't breathed yet. It could have been a worse response, nothing quite right yet. She's still flickering, and it's like she is seeing a wider range of colours, hearing the songs people sing that she's never heard before. She doesn't know what to make of it, sort of wishes the hug would have lasted longer just so that she could have forgotten for one second longer.

"Well, I can't make any promises." It's said with a little apologetic smile. She already knows that there are so many questions that she isn't sure she can answer. A part of her does wonder if she'd ever told Kate about the mishap in 24th Century India, but that can come later. "I'll try not to, though. Dying is definitely not fun." She hesitates, watches Kate for a moment. "I bet the last however long it's been hasn't exactly been nice. Sorry."

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No, most of those who Kate works with can't make those promises, not even Kate herself can. It comes with the job, and especially those involved in field work of any kind remain at a higher risk than the desk workers. Although, with UNIT's luck, they also run a risk more than many office workers ever would. No one can truly go into UNIT blind, as it is, many catch on pretty quickly what they're getting into. 

"Can't imagine dying is anything to sneeze at," Kate says softly, having seen enough of it to know from the opposite side how hard it is. And to be on the dying end, well, it has to be even harder coming back from it. Hesitantly, she pulls Clara once more into a hug, though uncertain if for herself or the way Clara looks at her prompts it. "Out of your control, out of ours. All that matters is you're with us now. Get checked over when you're ready and then we'll debrief, how does that sound?"