My experiences with Godenteredmybody/Gib
If you don’t already know, Godenteredmybody aka Gib, the previous face of the weirdcore community (owning the og server before its deletion, subreddit, and involvement with all community-based affairs), was called out for harboring inappropriate behavior towards minors by several past mods, including me. Understandably this has yielded mixed reactions, as Gib was a highly trusted and looked upon member of the community.
However there is still more extent to what has occurred, and for the first time I am bringing my experiences to light. I apologize in advance for this post being lengthy, but I want to provide as much information as I can. If you haven’t already, please read the callout post chain I linked above as it adds context to everything.
Before I begin, let me make a psa: I am not saying that Gib groomed me. I am pointing out a lot of his actions toward me as well as many other people were very questionable on several occasions and were blown off by his way of normalization.
Tw // mentions of grooming/encouraged nsfw behavior, minors being exposed to nsfw content, mentions of sexually explicit behavior, and general discussion of very uncomfortable situations.
I met Gib when I was 16-17, and within a few months we became close friends. In the coming months Gib took a liking to me, conversing a lot and even promoting me to mod status. This is where the timeline begins, as Gib held me in special regard. He did in fact, state this on at least one occasion, alongside allowing me special privileges with other people in his circle (almost exclusively other mods whom were christened by him).
I was also never reprimanded or criticized for anything by him. I used to have a habit of making vulgar jokes to the point of purposefully getting a server wide reaction, and Gib would constantly shrug it off despite. I did notice this before and asked if what I was doing was okay, to which I’d usually get a “you’re fine” from Gib.
Art and character content
This next part’s gonna have a lot.
Around April 2021, I showcased one of my characters to the server. [For anyone not in the server and/or not familiar, a demon man with a round red/white face (different character from my Tumblr mascot)]. Gib immediately took interest in him, and soon he became a regular presence in the server alongside other people’s ocs. While I did like the attention, eventually Gib became significantly attached to my character. Throughout the rest of 2021-2022, Gib constantly drew images of him unprompted. For perspective, I have a folder dedicated to this oc on my phone, and over 70 images were drawn by Gib. Keep in mind this is only ones I had saved.
I didn’t mind, as I do have comfort characters of my own, but there were several patterns that leave me feeling it wasn’t fully innocent interest. For one, Gib had a habit of drawing my character topless. When I once asked him, he said that it was “gender envy” (this was prior to his transitioning). While I could understand that sentiment, I do not think someone would draw another person’s oc half-naked several times for that reason alone, especially without asking. Alongside that, Gib did draw him in situations that were contextually explicit. Examples include him stomping on another server character’s genitals, one of Gib’s characters touching his chest lewdly while he was visibly uncomfortable, and him stuck in a jar. At one point he also made a channel called ‘demon s*x roleplay’ and immediately deleted it.
The two biggest things to point out here are that this began prior to me turning 18, and Gib never reached out for my consent doing any of this.
The part that makes me uncomfortable about this is Gib’s history. Being an artist in both the wc server and the private one, he did post a lot of art and would even do some for other server members. The problem with that is that he was fine with being overtly nsfw. He had a tendency to post suggestive drawings and even full nsfw cropped/censored as a joke, all in the presence of minors. (In some cases it was fully uncensored in group drawing streams.) Once he toured his sketchbook live and refused to show several pages implying they were explicit. By his standards, these must have been considerably inappropriate.
[Based on this, and his obsession with my character… what’s to say there’s isn’t legitimate porn drawn of my oc behind my back that was just never made public? I certainly hope there isn’t, because I trusted Gib enough to not do that.]
Now I don’t want to sound like a prude. I do enjoy mature humor and I have nothing against porn as an adult. I can’t stress this enough — drawing porn for “funnies” still makes it porn. Regardless of context, you shouldn’t be exposing it to minors at all. Again, everything that happened I’ve mentioned above was before I was 18. And in the original weirdcore server there were members as young as 13.
Getting under the surface
I’ve mentioned that I was close to Gib, and that is notable in my case. I have prominent trust issues that make it difficult for me to completely lower my guard around others. But I was practically an open book with Gib. He made himself trustworthy enough that around him, I allowed myself to be vulnerable to the point he knew deeper aspects of myself. He knew most of my secrets, personal struggles, and even intimate desires. He was supportive and accepting far more than anyone I’d ever known, so I had no reason to feel like I had to hide anything.
But most importantly about this: Gib knew that I was a victim of grooming and was still actively recovering from it. Through the same time period when I became part of the weirdcore community, elsewhere I was sexually harassed and manipulated/conditioned as a minor. This happened twice under different circumstances, and I ended up processing this in front of Gib and the other members of the private gc. I didn’t have trusted people to turn to outside of my friends who were willing to talk, so there were voice calls where discussion happened.
I don’t want to make this out like Gib meant to be malicious, but he easily had all the pieces in place to take advantage of me if so desired. Especially with his habit of normalizing behavior.
I’m not gonna spend a lot of time into writing this part because I don’t want to conflate my personal feelings unnecessarily.
The surfacing of everything Gib did hit me hard. At first I had thought it was a major misunderstanding when I saw @americanhouses’s post for the first time, but the reblog from @puredragonn is when the realization hit. It really felt like a serious betrayal, and I know I’m not the only one. I loved and trusted him as a friend, I was literally still talking to him up until the day of.
I ended up vomiting two days in to the callout, and was in a really low state for the rest of the month combined with other shit in my life. I’m doing better than I was at least, but my mood still gets dampened thinking about Gib.
I’ve been talking with Dragonn about everything, and she’s been really nice to communicate with. We’ve shared similar experiences with Gib so it’s helped me process some. I wanna thank her for cementing my courage to get this all out here.
If anyone has any questions about anything regarding this situation, my asks are open. Just please be respectful and know boundaries, that’s all I’m asking.
And Gib, if by chance you’re reading this… know that I haven’t forgotten all the memories we shared throughout Weirdcord, but I’m not going to see you in the same light I used to. I hope you consider your actions, do some serious soul-searching, and turn out better in the end.