steve's POV of this because I couldn't help myself:
Steve knows he’s a little obsessive. Sure, he admits that, no problem. And it’s not usually about the right things, as some people like to say, but it’s not like he cares. He’s dumb, not blind.
Definitely not blind enough to miss Eddie Munson.
But he’s not that dumb, either—knows he has to be careful, lest he tend with social suicide. And with social suicide comes…
Well, better not to think of that one.
Anyway—the point is, he’s not blind, and only a little dumb. He knows when he wants something, and he wants Eddie “The Freak” Munson.
And maybe he goes about it… not quite the right way. But hey, Munson looks ready to bolt every time they make eye contact, so Steve’s gotta do some groundwork first.
It’s like basketball, he thinks. Like swimming. He’s got an end goal, a championship to get to—he’s just got to put in the practice and the legwork. Running drills and laps ‘til he drops.
See, the thing is, they don’t interact. They haven’t spoken even once, much less bumped past each other in the halls. Maybe that was where Steve should have started, but Eddie had this thing about him that reminds Steve of the deer his dad had taken him out to hunt, once. Skittish. Might gore him with his horns or disappear into thin air.
So he goes down a different path.
Eddie’s always played music—Steve overhears the complaints sometimes, the shrieky metal of his guitar not to anyone’s taste but his own.
He finds The Hideout. It’s a dive, through and through, and they don’t even bother asking him for ID. It’s the kind of place his parents would have to fight a gag being near, and he loves it immediately. He loves it even more when Eddie clambers on stage with his band and belts out songs that would’ve had any of Steve’s old acquaintances bleeding from the ears.
He gets a clearer picture of Eddie, beyond the initial infatuation that draws him in. Something solid, something to hold on to when he goes looking for more.
He sees Eddie pin up a poster for the club Steve didn’t know he ran. Hellfire, with a caricature of a red demon in stark contrast to the white paper. He wonders if Eddie’s the one who drew it. Maybe he drew his own tattoos, too. Steve’s never been much of an artist—jumbled the colors in his rainbows in kindergarten and left them kind of square-ish—but he can appreciate the skill all the same.
It’s gone by lunch, and Steve frowns. He keeps a better lookout, the next time. Eddie’s put so much work into it. He wants to find out who takes it upon themselves to ruin it.
Eddie’s quieter at Wednesday lunches, Steve realizes. For the first five minutes, there’s no shouting or ranting or kicked-aside lunches. It’s interesting, and when he goes to check, he finds it’s because Eddie’s engrossed in the pudding the cafeteria only sees fit to give them once a week. Chocolate, because what else would it be. Steve doesn’t mind the pudding—finds it gives him something to look forward to when he’s trying to keep his eyes open in chemistry.
He thinks he’d look forward to Eddie’s smile more, enjoy his surprise more than any pudding.
Eddie deals out in the woods back behind the soccer fields, at the little picnic table no one even knows exists anymore. Besides Eddie and his… clients.
Steve finds him there, about a month and a half before prom. It’s good timing, he thinks, before everyone goes batshit about prom-posals and the world gets run over with planning and reservations and sold-out florists. He doesn’t know what Eddie might like, not for sure, but he’ll be damned if he doesn’t get it with time to spare. That’s what he’s been practicing for, hasn’t it? Endless drills with one championship game in mind?
However one wins at prom, Steve plans to do it.
He sits across from Eddie and feels the old bench bend under his weight. Eddie cuts his a withering glare that makes Steve grin, and before he can help himself, he’s asking, “Will you go to prom with me?”
Eddie stares at him, for a minute, and Steve stares back. From up close, just as he’s wanted to since what feels like forever. Eddie’s even prettier from here. Steve wants him even more.
The woods echo with Eddie’s shout, better acoustics than the shitty dive bar he plays at, but Steve will keep going all the same. He repeats himself, all but tingling with excitement, and then—and then Eddie’s grinning something sharp, something that looks like it could cut the pads of his fingers were he to try and touch.
“Tell you what,” he spits, and Steve’s helpless to do anything but lean in, closer, breathless with the way Eddie leans in, too, as he continues, “You get me a bouquet of roses as black as your twisted, festering soul, and I’ll wear a pretty little dress for you, too.”
Roses. Roses, roses, roses.
Does Eddie like roses above any other flower? It makes the romantic part of him thrum, excited and planning and thinking.
Black roses? Steve’s never seen them before.
“Do roses… grow in black?” Eddie swallows and sneers and Steve wonders if that’s something he should’ve known already. Maybe.
“I guess that’s for you to find out and for me to know, Harrington,” Eddie sneers. He gets up, snatches his lunchbox, and stalks back through the trees to school.
It’s the definition of left him hanging. It’s practically cruel, mean, waspish. Challenging, Steve thinks. Black roses. No problem.
But that’s what drew him in in the first place. Eddie’s acerbic, snappish, blunt, rude, at times. He doesn’t give a shit about what anyone else thinks. He doesn’t give a shit what Steve thinks, and Steve admires him. Likes the image it paints. So he says, to Eddie’s retreating back, “Benny’s at six?” and grins when Eddie tells him to go fuck himself. That’s how Eddie is, after all, and that’s what Steve wants.
The weeks leading up to prom go exactly how he wants them to.
He leaves his pudding at what he knows is Eddie’s spot at the Hellfire table and Eddie grimaces at him. It feels like the adrenaline of a buzzer-beater winning shot.
Win, win, win, something chants.
He catches the guy who keeps ripping up the Hellfire posters. Steve doesn’t know his name but he knows Steve’s—and he scatters into the crowded halls during passing period with his eyes downcast and a quick step.
He seeks Eddie out, ditching a class or two, and finds him smoking against the brick facade of the building. His curls frame his face, the smoke makes the light around them hazy. He looks good, and Steve finds the words slipping from his mouth without being able to help it.
He practices with the flowers, because, as the only florist in town tells him, looking at him strangely, no, black roses don’t exist, not naturally, but Steve can dye them, if he wants. She’s more than happy to sell him handful after handful of white flowers, however, and the first one that turns out okay—though not perfect—he drops through the window of Eddie’s van. It sits pretty on the seat, and Steve grins.
Eddie’s still grinning, one day, stumbling last out of the music room, and Steve can’t help himself—gets too close and murmurs something about his voice and his music, too fast, too distracted. He can’t quite remember what he said even minutes later, the shape of his smile and the memory of his fingers dancing over guitar strings seared into his memory.
A night that Steve can barely remember, plagued by nightmares and sleeplessness, he finds Eddie at the only convenience store that has the shitty coffee that actually keeps him awake. He trades a pack of smokes he can’t really tolerate anymore for one of Eddie’s beers, and they sit in silence. Eddie’s warmth, even with a inches of air between them, soothes something pacing and frantic inside him, and when he gets home, he sleeps the best he has in months.
It feels like injustice that just a few short days later Billy Hargrove decides he needs his head bashed in, but, well, it can’t always be coming up Harrington, right? And it doesn’t matter—it hurts less, because Eddie looks at him a few seconds longer, his mouth twists in something like concern when he sees Steve’s face, but not Billy’s, and that’s enough to numb the sting and grin right back at him.
That afternoon, he has to deck Tommy Hagan when he catches him out by Eddie’s van, pocketknife in hand, after practice has let out but not Hellfire, spitting obscenities and accusations about them both that make Steve see red. He learns later that he’s broken Tommy’s nose, but, well. Tommy should’ve known better.
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Prom day comes, and Steve realizes—okay, maybe he’s a little dumber than he thought.
See, Steve’s not all that great with sarcasm. He’d like to blame the concussion that has a Billy Hargrove byline, but in truth, he’s never really gotten it.
Billy Hargrove’s plate definitely made it worse, though, and maybe Steve should’ve gone to the doctor but—who has time for that, anyway?
Anyway, the point is—maybe Steve overlooked some sarcasm in favor of being generally charmed with Eddie’s leaning-towards-asshole nature. That’s his fault.
Doesn’t make it hurt any less, though.
He’s at Benny’s at six. Like they’d agreed—like he’d thought they’d agreed. A few minutes before six, even, despite how he’d agonized for longer than he ever had before on what he should wear, what fit with Eddie, what he was supposed to wear for prom. Spent agonizing minutes on what felt like every individual hair so it’d fall in that way he liked, that he hoped Eddie would like.
But he’s there at six. Eddie isn’t. Figures, at first, that he’s late, maybe. Got caught up.
The clock on his dash creeps closer to seven, and then, Steve assumes, maybe Billy scrambled a little more up there than he’d realized. Had he said six? It’d probably been seven, right? That made more sense.
He’s half-asleep in his car when Eddie does appear—a result of even more nightmares and anxiety and maybe, possibly, though he’s terrified to admit it, brain damage. Scared the exhaustion is permanent.
But he jolts awake well enough when Eddie slams his fist on the beamer’s roof, loud metallic clang echoing through his skull like a gunshot.
“—your damage, Harrington?”
“Ed—Eddie,” he chokes. “Hi. Hi, Eddie.”
Eddie looks pissed. Angry, the same kind of frown that’d first drawn Steve’s eyes. “What the hell are you doing?”
Steve doesn’t really know how to answer, so he goes for honesty. It’s failed him in the past, but hell, what else can he offer?
“Um. It was—Benny’s at seven. I was waiting for you.” He’s never felt quite so nervous, wringing his fingers like a little kid. He spies the flowers out of the corner of his eye, lying on the passenger seat, wonders when would be the right time to present them to Eddie. “Didn’t mean to fall asleep.”
Eddie still looks mad. The same face he makes when he’s ranting and putting on a show and anything else Eddie.
“It was Benny’s at seven, right? I thought it was Benny’s at six, at first, but I can’t really keep dates straight up here, anymore,” he knocks against his head with a knuckle, like a moron, “All the pointless melon-splits of American sports, or whatever.” It’s one of the rants he’d managed to pay attention to, Eddie’s hatred of sports in general an easy topic to digest. At least he understood half of that one.
“It was at six,” Eddie huffs. “I didn’t bother showing up.”
“Oh.” Steve can’t keep looking at his face, with that acknowledgement, and notices—Eddie’s not exactly dressed for the occasion. Not at all, really, unless it’s another of his things to show up to prom in Garfield-patterned pajama pants and a dark band tee that Steve can’t make out the name of. He doesn’t really understand. Wouldn’t really mind, any way. “But you did. Now.”
“Yeah, well.” Eddie pulls away. There’s something properly bitter when he says, “Call it a lapse of judgment.”
Oh. Oh.
He can’t look at Eddie anymore, suddenly. Can’t stand it. Realizes, now, how it went over his head, but, again, doesn’t make it hurt any less. There’s black under the fingernails he’s picking at, and he feels so dumb.
But Eddie’s funny in that way. Funny in that it reels Steve back in like a fish too weak to fight a line. Unwilling, maybe.
Eddie doesn’t make fun of him for it. For being confused. For being dumb. Doesn’t make fun of him for missing something that would’ve been so immediately obvious to anyone else. But he does ask.
“What the hell was your plan here, Harrington?”
Steve’s helpless but to answer, like a fool. “Dinner, and then, you know, prom? Isn’t that how is usually goes?” It’s certainly how he’d been hoping it would go.
“You realize you’ve wasted your only senior prom on this dumb joke, right?” Eddie spits. Steve’s head spins. “And I didn’t even fall for it? Way to have your priorities in order, King Steve.”
The name stings, but something else burrows deeper.
“I’ve had the misfortune of having two, and I didn’t subject myself to either. So—”
“Wait, hold on,” Steve manages. Because now he’s confused, again, more, but it’s not clicking, either. It doesn’t make sense. And he’s dumb, but, still—he doesn’t get it. “It wasn’t—what joke, Eddie?”
Eddie’s face does something funny then. Still angry, but also a quiet kind of… devastation, almost. “You know,” he says, like it doesn’t matter, like it’s what should’ve been, “Lure me to prom. Dump a bucket of pig’s blood over my head or however that movie goes.”
What—what? What the fuck?
A stone lodges in Steve’s throat, prevents him from answering, and Eddie finishes, “Even I’m not that dumb, man.”
Steve’s world turns on its head. It feels comical, almost, like shaking a snow globe and then smashing it against unforgiving concrete.
“That’s fucked up,” he hears himself say, distantly, “There’s a movie like that? I wouldn’t—that’s not what I—”
“Yeah, I think I’m starting to get that.”
Steve stops. Can’t bear to speak again.
Eddie thinks… Jesus, fuck, working through what Eddie thinks of him makes Steve want to vomit. He can’t do it. He doesn’t know what to do, now, kind of wishes something would put him out of his misery.
“That was you, wasn’t it? With the pudding and the posters and the flowers.”
It’s not a question. Eddie knows, and Steve can’t bring himself to regret it, even though now it makes his stomach churn.
“I broke Tommy’s nose when I caught him trying to let the air outta your tires, too,” like he’s confessing a sin. It might as well be.
Something in his chest feels like it shatters, and it’s only a second later that he realizes that it was Eddie, instead, pulling open the passenger-side car door. He almost can’t stand to look at them but can’t see all the hard work he put into the flowers, for Eddie, put to waste, and they’re scooped up into his lap without second thought.
And then Eddie’s next to him, all of a sudden. “Okay,” he says. He breathes in quick like it hurts. ““I didn’t know you were being serious. I thought it was just a dumb joke.”
Something twists. “Yeah, I got that part,” Steve chokes.
“Those were for me, right?”
Steve looks up. Eddie’s not looking at him—he’s looking at the flowers. The goddamn flowers. They feel like acid in his hands, and he passes them over, even though he’s almost worried they’ll burn Eddie like they’re burning him.
“Kinda makes it worse, but sure. Yeah, they were for you.”
“Worse?” Eddie asks.
Steve laughs. Can’t help it. At least one person deserves to laugh over that stupid joke, right? “I thought it’d be funny. You said you’d wear a dress if I got you black flowers, but I—I didn’t mean it that way. I just wanted to get you flowers you’d like.”
He really did. He wonders if it looks like that to Eddie, or if it’s another joke Steve didn’t see coming.
Eddie touches the flowers like they’re something precious instead of poisonous.
“You’ve been… practicing these.”
Of course he was. How could he have given Eddie anything less than perfect flowers?
“First ones came out a really gross kind of green,” he admits. Like it matters anymore—like there’s anything to win anymore instead of being booted from the team. Stupid fucking sports metaphors—Eddie hates sports. What’d he been thinking?
“I don’t do prom,” Eddie says next. Steve wishes the car would swallow him.
“Yeah, I figured that one out,” he sighs. Can’t look at Eddie, but sees him press a finger to one of the thick thorns on the flowers’ stems.
“No, I mean—I wouldn’t have gone even if I’d thought you were being honest from the get-go. I don’t DO prom. It’s the death of counter-culture and individuality,” Eddie clarifies, but the words swim around in Steve’s head. He doesn’t understand them, and he doesn’t understand why Eddie is still in his car.
“I don’t know what that means.”
Eddie’s twitchy. Not in the same way he was just a few seconds ago. It’s impossible to keep the shreds of his heart from fluttering.
“What I’m saying is, I’m not gonna go to prom. Ever. That’s an invitation to douchebags like Hargrove and Hagan to split my skull open on the gym floor.” Eddie’s leg jumps, like he wants to run at the idea itself. From Steve, maybe. “I don’t want my last breath to be weeks-old jock socks.”
He ducks like he wants to see Steve’s face.
“But there’s this bar I go to,” he continues, “It doesn’t really check ID. I think they’d go out of business if they did. They let us play on Tuesdays.”
The Hideout. “I know,” he admits, like he could ever forget how Eddie looks up on that stage. When he looks up, it’s not the same Eddie that meets his eyes. A more breathtaking one, almost, wild mass of curly hair backlit by streetlights that make him glow. God help him, Steve still wants.
“That’s more my speed,” Eddie blurts, after a second of silence, like he can’t help himself. His fingers are tearing one of the thorns off of the roses Steve worked so hard on. “It’s… probably better than prom as a first date, anyways.”
First date.
“Really?” he breathes before he can help himself. It feels like a rope dangled over the edge of a cliff to pull him back up. “That’s—you’d wanna? Really?”
He’s gotta be a masochist, with the way his hope builds and withers and builds again, when Eddie responds, “I mean, not right now. I’m not really dressed for the occasion. But maybe, like… tomorrow?”
“Tomorrow,” It feels like a promise that’s a thousand miles away and in the palm of his hand all at once. “That’s soon.”
Eddie’s embarrassment is cute, the red flush climbing up to his ears hidden behind frizzy curls. “Or never,” he snaps, but it doesn’t hurt, this time. “That works too.”
Steve’s smiling, he thinks. How can he do anything else? He’s won. “Tomorrow’s good,” he agrees, and it’s the easiest thing he’s ever done.
Eddie mutters, “Yeah, well. Better be.” And he kicks Steve’s door open—Steve might’ve ripped anyone else a new one, but that’s how Eddie is, and that’s what Steve wants.
“See you then, Eddie,” Steve chirps, as Eddie backs out of the lot, old van clanking up a storm.
He’s gone soon enough, but Steve sits there a while longer.
It’s weird. Everything’s shifted, tilted on its axis, but… it’s almost like this is how it was supposed to be, from the beginning, and Steve had only been content with what he had before because he hadn’t known this was an option. It feels like he can see right through Eddie, to his bones and his soul, knows how to step around him and be welcomed. It’s different—no longer glances from across the room, hoping he won’t run, but a sure touch and knowing.
He hopes Eddie keeps the flowers. Forever, maybe—maybe tomorrow, after they’re a drink or two deep, music pounding so loud it threatens to give him a headache he’ll gladly ignore, Steve can tell Eddie how the florist explained that he could press the flowers, between two heavy books, and immortalize them. It’d be a good memory to keep.
steve's POV of this because I couldn't help myself:
Steve knows he’s a little obsessive. Sure, he admits that, no problem. And it’s not usually about the right things, as some people like to say, but it’s not like he cares. He’s dumb, not blind.
Definitely not blind enough to miss Eddie Munson.
But he’s not that dumb, either—knows he has to be careful, lest he tend with social suicide. And with social suicide comes…
Well, better not to think of that one.
Anyway—the point is, he’s not blind, and only a little dumb. He knows when he wants something, and he wants Eddie “The Freak” Munson.
And maybe he goes about it… not quite the right way. But hey, Munson looks ready to bolt every time they make eye contact, so Steve’s gotta do some groundwork first.
It’s like basketball, he thinks. Like swimming. He’s got an end goal, a championship to get to—he’s just got to put in the practice and the legwork. Running drills and laps ‘til he drops.
See, the thing is, they don’t interact. They haven’t spoken even once, much less bumped past each other in the halls. Maybe that was where Steve should have started, but Eddie had this thing about him that reminds Steve of the deer his dad had taken him out to hunt, once. Skittish. Might gore him with his horns or disappear into thin air.
So he goes down a different path.
Eddie’s always played music—Steve overhears the complaints sometimes, the shrieky metal of his guitar not to anyone’s taste but his own.
He finds The Hideout. It’s a dive, through and through, and they don’t even bother asking him for ID. It’s the kind of place his parents would have to fight a gag being near, and he loves it immediately. He loves it even more when Eddie clambers on stage with his band and belts out songs that would’ve had any of Steve’s old acquaintances bleeding from the ears.
He gets a clearer picture of Eddie, beyond the initial infatuation that draws him in. Something solid, something to hold on to when he goes looking for more.
He sees Eddie pin up a poster for the club Steve didn’t know he ran. Hellfire, with a caricature of a red demon in stark contrast to the white paper. He wonders if Eddie’s the one who drew it. Maybe he drew his own tattoos, too. Steve’s never been much of an artist—jumbled the colors in his rainbows in kindergarten and left them kind of square-ish—but he can appreciate the skill all the same.
It’s gone by lunch, and Steve frowns. He keeps a better lookout, the next time. Eddie’s put so much work into it. He wants to find out who takes it upon themselves to ruin it.
Eddie’s quieter at Wednesday lunches, Steve realizes. For the first five minutes, there’s no shouting or ranting or kicked-aside lunches. It’s interesting, and when he goes to check, he finds it’s because Eddie’s engrossed in the pudding the cafeteria only sees fit to give them once a week. Chocolate, because what else would it be. Steve doesn’t mind the pudding—finds it gives him something to look forward to when he’s trying to keep his eyes open in chemistry.
He thinks he’d look forward to Eddie’s smile more, enjoy his surprise more than any pudding.
Eddie deals out in the woods back behind the soccer fields, at the little picnic table no one even knows exists anymore. Besides Eddie and his… clients.
Steve finds him there, about a month and a half before prom. It’s good timing, he thinks, before everyone goes batshit about prom-posals and the world gets run over with planning and reservations and sold-out florists. He doesn’t know what Eddie might like, not for sure, but he’ll be damned if he doesn’t get it with time to spare. That’s what he’s been practicing for, hasn’t it? Endless drills with one championship game in mind?
However one wins at prom, Steve plans to do it.
He sits across from Eddie and feels the old bench bend under his weight. Eddie cuts his a withering glare that makes Steve grin, and before he can help himself, he’s asking, “Will you go to prom with me?”
Eddie stares at him, for a minute, and Steve stares back. From up close, just as he’s wanted to since what feels like forever. Eddie’s even prettier from here. Steve wants him even more.
The woods echo with Eddie’s shout, better acoustics than the shitty dive bar he plays at, but Steve will keep going all the same. He repeats himself, all but tingling with excitement, and then—and then Eddie’s grinning something sharp, something that looks like it could cut the pads of his fingers were he to try and touch.
“Tell you what,” he spits, and Steve’s helpless to do anything but lean in, closer, breathless with the way Eddie leans in, too, as he continues, “You get me a bouquet of roses as black as your twisted, festering soul, and I’ll wear a pretty little dress for you, too.”
Roses. Roses, roses, roses.
Does Eddie like roses above any other flower? It makes the romantic part of him thrum, excited and planning and thinking.
Black roses? Steve’s never seen them before.
“Do roses… grow in black?” Eddie swallows and sneers and Steve wonders if that’s something he should’ve known already. Maybe.
“I guess that’s for you to find out and for me to know, Harrington,” Eddie sneers. He gets up, snatches his lunchbox, and stalks back through the trees to school.
It’s the definition of left him hanging. It’s practically cruel, mean, waspish. Challenging, Steve thinks. Black roses. No problem.
But that’s what drew him in in the first place. Eddie’s acerbic, snappish, blunt, rude, at times. He doesn’t give a shit about what anyone else thinks. He doesn’t give a shit what Steve thinks, and Steve admires him. Likes the image it paints. So he says, to Eddie’s retreating back, “Benny’s at six?” and grins when Eddie tells him to go fuck himself. That’s how Eddie is, after all, and that’s what Steve wants.
The weeks leading up to prom go exactly how he wants them to.
He leaves his pudding at what he knows is Eddie’s spot at the Hellfire table and Eddie grimaces at him. It feels like the adrenaline of a buzzer-beater winning shot.
Win, win, win, something chants.
He catches the guy who keeps ripping up the Hellfire posters. Steve doesn’t know his name but he knows Steve’s—and he scatters into the crowded halls during passing period with his eyes downcast and a quick step.
He seeks Eddie out, ditching a class or two, and finds him smoking against the brick facade of the building. His curls frame his face, the smoke makes the light around them hazy. He looks good, and Steve finds the words slipping from his mouth without being able to help it.
He practices with the flowers, because, as the only florist in town tells him, looking at him strangely, no, black roses don’t exist, not naturally, but Steve can dye them, if he wants. She’s more than happy to sell him handful after handful of white flowers, however, and the first one that turns out okay—though not perfect—he drops through the window of Eddie’s van. It sits pretty on the seat, and Steve grins.
Eddie’s still grinning, one day, stumbling last out of the music room, and Steve can’t help himself—gets too close and murmurs something about his voice and his music, too fast, too distracted. He can’t quite remember what he said even minutes later, the shape of his smile and the memory of his fingers dancing over guitar strings seared into his memory.
A night that Steve can barely remember, plagued by nightmares and sleeplessness, he finds Eddie at the only convenience store that has the shitty coffee that actually keeps him awake. He trades a pack of smokes he can’t really tolerate anymore for one of Eddie’s beers, and they sit in silence. Eddie’s warmth, even with a inches of air between them, soothes something pacing and frantic inside him, and when he gets home, he sleeps the best he has in months.
It feels like injustice that just a few short days later Billy Hargrove decides he needs his head bashed in, but, well, it can’t always be coming up Harrington, right? And it doesn’t matter—it hurts less, because Eddie looks at him a few seconds longer, his mouth twists in something like concern when he sees Steve’s face, but not Billy’s, and that’s enough to numb the sting and grin right back at him.
That afternoon, he has to deck Tommy Hagan when he catches him out by Eddie’s van, pocketknife in hand, after practice has let out but not Hellfire, spitting obscenities and accusations about them both that make Steve see red. He learns later that he’s broken Tommy’s nose, but, well. Tommy should’ve known better.
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Prom day comes, and Steve realizes—okay, maybe he’s a little dumber than he thought.
See, Steve’s not all that great with sarcasm. He’d like to blame the concussion that has a Billy Hargrove byline, but in truth, he’s never really gotten it.
Billy Hargrove’s plate definitely made it worse, though, and maybe Steve should’ve gone to the doctor but—who has time for that, anyway?
Anyway, the point is—maybe Steve overlooked some sarcasm in favor of being generally charmed with Eddie’s leaning-towards-asshole nature. That’s his fault.
Doesn’t make it hurt any less, though.
He’s at Benny’s at six. Like they’d agreed—like he’d thought they’d agreed. A few minutes before six, even, despite how he’d agonized for longer than he ever had before on what he should wear, what fit with Eddie, what he was supposed to wear for prom. Spent agonizing minutes on what felt like every individual hair so it’d fall in that way he liked, that he hoped Eddie would like.
But he’s there at six. Eddie isn’t. Figures, at first, that he’s late, maybe. Got caught up.
The clock on his dash creeps closer to seven, and then, Steve assumes, maybe Billy scrambled a little more up there than he’d realized. Had he said six? It’d probably been seven, right? That made more sense.
He’s half-asleep in his car when Eddie does appear—a result of even more nightmares and anxiety and maybe, possibly, though he’s terrified to admit it, brain damage. Scared the exhaustion is permanent.
But he jolts awake well enough when Eddie slams his fist on the beamer’s roof, loud metallic clang echoing through his skull like a gunshot.
“—your damage, Harrington?”
“Ed—Eddie,” he chokes. “Hi. Hi, Eddie.”
Eddie looks pissed. Angry, the same kind of frown that’d first drawn Steve’s eyes. “What the hell are you doing?”
Steve doesn’t really know how to answer, so he goes for honesty. It’s failed him in the past, but hell, what else can he offer?
“Um. It was—Benny’s at seven. I was waiting for you.” He’s never felt quite so nervous, wringing his fingers like a little kid. He spies the flowers out of the corner of his eye, lying on the passenger seat, wonders when would be the right time to present them to Eddie. “Didn’t mean to fall asleep.”
Eddie still looks mad. The same face he makes when he’s ranting and putting on a show and anything else Eddie.
“It was Benny’s at seven, right? I thought it was Benny’s at six, at first, but I can’t really keep dates straight up here, anymore,” he knocks against his head with a knuckle, like a moron, “All the pointless melon-splits of American sports, or whatever.” It’s one of the rants he’d managed to pay attention to, Eddie’s hatred of sports in general an easy topic to digest. At least he understood half of that one.
“It was at six,” Eddie huffs. “I didn’t bother showing up.”
“Oh.” Steve can’t keep looking at his face, with that acknowledgement, and notices—Eddie’s not exactly dressed for the occasion. Not at all, really, unless it’s another of his things to show up to prom in Garfield-patterned pajama pants and a dark band tee that Steve can’t make out the name of. He doesn’t really understand. Wouldn’t really mind, any way. “But you did. Now.”
“Yeah, well.” Eddie pulls away. There’s something properly bitter when he says, “Call it a lapse of judgment.”
Oh. Oh.
He can’t look at Eddie anymore, suddenly. Can’t stand it. Realizes, now, how it went over his head, but, again, doesn’t make it hurt any less. There’s black under the fingernails he’s picking at, and he feels so dumb.
But Eddie’s funny in that way. Funny in that it reels Steve back in like a fish too weak to fight a line. Unwilling, maybe.
Eddie doesn’t make fun of him for it. For being confused. For being dumb. Doesn’t make fun of him for missing something that would’ve been so immediately obvious to anyone else. But he does ask.
“What the hell was your plan here, Harrington?”
Steve’s helpless but to answer, like a fool. “Dinner, and then, you know, prom? Isn’t that how is usually goes?” It’s certainly how he’d been hoping it would go.
“You realize you’ve wasted your only senior prom on this dumb joke, right?” Eddie spits. Steve’s head spins. “And I didn’t even fall for it? Way to have your priorities in order, King Steve.”
The name stings, but something else burrows deeper.
“I’ve had the misfortune of having two, and I didn’t subject myself to either. So—”
“Wait, hold on,” Steve manages. Because now he’s confused, again, more, but it’s not clicking, either. It doesn’t make sense. And he’s dumb, but, still—he doesn’t get it. “It wasn’t—what joke, Eddie?”
Eddie’s face does something funny then. Still angry, but also a quiet kind of… devastation, almost. “You know,” he says, like it doesn’t matter, like it’s what should’ve been, “Lure me to prom. Dump a bucket of pig’s blood over my head or however that movie goes.”
What—what? What the fuck?
A stone lodges in Steve’s throat, prevents him from answering, and Eddie finishes, “Even I’m not that dumb, man.”
Steve’s world turns on its head. It feels comical, almost, like shaking a snow globe and then smashing it against unforgiving concrete.
“That’s fucked up,” he hears himself say, distantly, “There’s a movie like that? I wouldn’t—that’s not what I—”
“Yeah, I think I’m starting to get that.”
Steve stops. Can’t bear to speak again.
Eddie thinks… Jesus, fuck, working through what Eddie thinks of him makes Steve want to vomit. He can’t do it. He doesn’t know what to do, now, kind of wishes something would put him out of his misery.
“That was you, wasn’t it? With the pudding and the posters and the flowers.”
It’s not a question. Eddie knows, and Steve can’t bring himself to regret it, even though now it makes his stomach churn.
“I broke Tommy’s nose when I caught him trying to let the air outta your tires, too,” like he’s confessing a sin. It might as well be.
Something in his chest feels like it shatters, and it’s only a second later that he realizes that it was Eddie, instead, pulling open the passenger-side car door. He almost can’t stand to look at them but can’t see all the hard work he put into the flowers, for Eddie, put to waste, and they’re scooped up into his lap without second thought.
And then Eddie’s next to him, all of a sudden. “Okay,” he says. He breathes in quick like it hurts. ““I didn’t know you were being serious. I thought it was just a dumb joke.”
Something twists. “Yeah, I got that part,” Steve chokes.
“Those were for me, right?”
Steve looks up. Eddie’s not looking at him—he’s looking at the flowers. The goddamn flowers. They feel like acid in his hands, and he passes them over, even though he’s almost worried they’ll burn Eddie like they’re burning him.
“Kinda makes it worse, but sure. Yeah, they were for you.”
“Worse?” Eddie asks.
Steve laughs. Can’t help it. At least one person deserves to laugh over that stupid joke, right? “I thought it’d be funny. You said you’d wear a dress if I got you black flowers, but I—I didn’t mean it that way. I just wanted to get you flowers you’d like.”
He really did. He wonders if it looks like that to Eddie, or if it’s another joke Steve didn’t see coming.
Eddie touches the flowers like they’re something precious instead of poisonous.
“You’ve been… practicing these.”
Of course he was. How could he have given Eddie anything less than perfect flowers?
“First ones came out a really gross kind of green,” he admits. Like it matters anymore—like there’s anything to win anymore instead of being booted from the team. Stupid fucking sports metaphors—Eddie hates sports. What’d he been thinking?
“I don’t do prom,” Eddie says next. Steve wishes the car would swallow him.
“Yeah, I figured that one out,” he sighs. Can’t look at Eddie, but sees him press a finger to one of the thick thorns on the flowers’ stems.
“No, I mean—I wouldn’t have gone even if I’d thought you were being honest from the get-go. I don’t DO prom. It’s the death of counter-culture and individuality,” Eddie clarifies, but the words swim around in Steve’s head. He doesn’t understand them, and he doesn’t understand why Eddie is still in his car.
“I don’t know what that means.”
Eddie’s twitchy. Not in the same way he was just a few seconds ago. It’s impossible to keep the shreds of his heart from fluttering.
“What I’m saying is, I’m not gonna go to prom. Ever. That’s an invitation to douchebags like Hargrove and Hagan to split my skull open on the gym floor.” Eddie’s leg jumps, like he wants to run at the idea itself. From Steve, maybe. “I don’t want my last breath to be weeks-old jock socks.”
He ducks like he wants to see Steve’s face.
“But there’s this bar I go to,” he continues, “It doesn’t really check ID. I think they’d go out of business if they did. They let us play on Tuesdays.”
The Hideout. “I know,” he admits, like he could ever forget how Eddie looks up on that stage. When he looks up, it’s not the same Eddie that meets his eyes. A more breathtaking one, almost, wild mass of curly hair backlit by streetlights that make him glow. God help him, Steve still wants.
“That’s more my speed,” Eddie blurts, after a second of silence, like he can’t help himself. His fingers are tearing one of the thorns off of the roses Steve worked so hard on. “It’s… probably better than prom as a first date, anyways.”
First date.
“Really?” he breathes before he can help himself. It feels like a rope dangled over the edge of a cliff to pull him back up. “That’s—you’d wanna? Really?”
He’s gotta be a masochist, with the way his hope builds and withers and builds again, when Eddie responds, “I mean, not right now. I’m not really dressed for the occasion. But maybe, like… tomorrow?”
“Tomorrow,” It feels like a promise that’s a thousand miles away and in the palm of his hand all at once. “That’s soon.”
Eddie’s embarrassment is cute, the red flush climbing up to his ears hidden behind frizzy curls. “Or never,” he snaps, but it doesn’t hurt, this time. “That works too.”
Steve’s smiling, he thinks. How can he do anything else? He’s won. “Tomorrow’s good,” he agrees, and it’s the easiest thing he’s ever done.
Eddie mutters, “Yeah, well. Better be.” And he kicks Steve’s door open—Steve might’ve ripped anyone else a new one, but that’s how Eddie is, and that’s what Steve wants.
“See you then, Eddie,” Steve chirps, as Eddie backs out of the lot, old van clanking up a storm.
He’s gone soon enough, but Steve sits there a while longer.
It’s weird. Everything’s shifted, tilted on its axis, but… it’s almost like this is how it was supposed to be, from the beginning, and Steve had only been content with what he had before because he hadn’t known this was an option. It feels like he can see right through Eddie, to his bones and his soul, knows how to step around him and be welcomed. It’s different—no longer glances from across the room, hoping he won’t run, but a sure touch and knowing.
He hopes Eddie keeps the flowers. Forever, maybe—maybe tomorrow, after they’re a drink or two deep, music pounding so loud it threatens to give him a headache he’ll gladly ignore, Steve can tell Eddie how the florist explained that he could press the flowers, between two heavy books, and immortalize them. It’d be a good memory to keep.
what if: high school steddie, where Eddie is all too aware of the social hierarchy of Hawkins High and his standing in it—the lowest of the low—versus a Steve who either doesn't know or doesn't care.
Eddie knows he's at the bottom of the food chain. Knows he's the first to eat shit when some jocks are hungering for some violence. Knows he's about as good as the dirt on their shoes, as far as they're concerned.
And at the top of that mountain, just about the other side of the world, really, is Steve Harrington. Steve "The Hair" Harrington. King Steve. Double Team Captain. Mister Harrington Charm.
They shouldn't EVER interact. It's against the laws of nature, or some shit, Eddie's sure.
Which is probably why it seems like the world's imploding when Steve "The Hair" Harrington—Mister Harrington Charm, Double Team Captain, whatever the fuck else Gareth has on his endless list—asks him to prom.
It's probably a good thing they're alone, in the middle of the woods, on opposite sides of Eddie's favorite deal-making table, so no one's around to hear him yell, "What the fuck?"
It echoes around the woods anyways, maybe louder than he meant to be, which is good, because it's definitely a 'what the fuck' moment.
They've literally never spoken before. Actually, they've done less than spoken—they could live on opposite poles of the Earth, for all the interaction they've had. They don't share any classes. Hell, they don't even see each other in the halls.
And now Steve Harrington is staring at him like he's actually waiting for an answer.
Again: What the fuck?
A record scratches in his brain and yup, there’s Harrington’s voice again, smarmy little smile on his face, asking: “Will you go to prom with me?”
As in, Steve Harrington just asked, in this existence, in this reality, on this planet, for Eddie Munson to go to Hawkins High Senior Prom with him. For real.
For real?
No. No way.
Harrington’s joking, Eddie knows. Figures the day’d come he decides torturing Eddie is just as much fun as the rest of his shit-jock cronies made it out to be.
And then, suddenly, Eddie knows what it is. Has seen enough of those terrible movies on early-morning TV with Wayne. Has seen the same damn plot enough times to smell it coming from a mile away.
“You know what,” he says, leaning into Harrington’s space, too close, brimming with irritation and a disgusting desire to one-up the smug, cocky bastard, “You get me a bouquet of roses as black as your twisted, festering soul, and I’ll wear a pretty little dress for you, too.”
Harrington’s frown makes anger tighten Eddie’s jaw. “Do roses… grow in black?”
“I guess that’s for you to find out and for me to know, Harrington,” Eddie sneers. He gets up, snatches his lunchbox, and stalks back through the trees to school.
He throws a “fuck you” over his shoulder when Harrington calls out “Benny’s at six?” but doesn’t turn around because the last thing he needs is to eat shit tripping over a goddamn branch. As it is, he’s already waiting for any of Harrington’s little friends to appear out of the shadows and jump him. That’s how it goes, right?
Only, it doesn’t.
There’s no swirlies, no shoving into lockers, no missing clothes after gym, no brutal beatdown on late days after Hellfire. Eddie’s almost worried the meatheads have had too many concussions and forgot he was next on the hit list.
And then he realizes—oh. Oh no. They’re waiting for prom. Actual prom night to fucking flay him open on stage in front of the whole school or something equally psychotic. Drown him in the punch. Stomp him to death on the dance floor.
Clearly, they HAVE had too many concussions if they think Eddie would EVER show his face there. Fuck Harrington, and fuck his minions. Like Eddie’d make it that easy for them.
Except, in the days leading up to prom, weird things keep happening. And Eddie doesn’t know what to think about it.
There’s pudding at his spot at the head of the table. Once a week, because the cafeteria only has pudding once a week. Eddie loves cafeteria pudding.
Steve Harrington grins at him from across the goddamn cafeteria and Eddie’s gut curdles.
One of the Hellfire posters he puts up monthly (and is always shredded by first period’s end) is still up a week later. Sure, torn and taped back together, but it’s not slush in a toilet, either.
Steve Harrington tells him that he looks nice when he finds him smoking just outside the school, and Eddie’s skin itches like he needs to tear it off.
There’s a flower on the driver’s seat of his van the day he forgets to close the window all the way, a day-old daisy with the petals stained a dark blue, the yellow center dulled.
Steve Harrington says he’s got a nice voice and he’s really good at playing the guitar and Eddie wonders how the hell he knows that.
One day, Harrington drops down to sit on the curb next to him, in the parking lot of the shitty little convenience store that’s a five-minute walk from the trailer park. He passes over a pack of his fancy smokes and nabs one of Eddie’s cheap beers so they can drink and smoke together and neither of them say anything. Eddie wants to say it’s because he doesn’t want Harrington to realize exactly what he’s done and get his shit beer cans crushed over his head, but in truth, it’s because he can’t get a damn read on the guy.
Another, Harrington and Hargrove both come to school looking like they’ve been run over, then backed up over, and then run over again for good measure. Hargrove doesn’t haggle him for weed again, and Harrington still smiles at him from across the cafeteria like the pull of his cheek doesn’t make his broken nose and black eye smart.
Again: What the fuck?
He asks the guys. “What the hell is going on with Harrington?”
He doesn’t like how they look at him, mouths twisted and uncomfortable and unsure.
“Heard he and Hagan beat the shit out of each other a while ago. Haven’t talked since.”
Hagan. Not Hargrove. A while ago.
“Ditched Carol P. and Stacy C., too.”
…
What the fuck?
…
The day of prom comes. Vaguely, Eddie remembers: Benny’s at six. Yeah-fucking-right.
He doesn’t go. Doesn’t have a suit, anyway, and wouldn’t have gone even if he did. Obviously. He might be stupid, repeating senior year, but he’s not THAT stupid.
An hour later, the phone in the trailer rings. When he picks up, Gareth is on the other end of the line. Distantly, Eddie can hear the shitty pop that makes up the school’s prom mixtape.
“What’d Harrington’s face look like?” he asks. “Was he pissed?”
“He didn’t show,” Gareth admits. “I dunno, man, maybe he was being serious.”
Eddie’s laugh probably pisses off half the trailer park. He can’t hear Gareth’s through the phone. “Are you kidding me?”
“Don’t kill the messenger.”
“Messenger might get me killed,” Eddie bites back, and then he hangs up. He hopes the punch is spiked and Gareth gets so drunk he falls asleep in a bush.
He grabs his keys off his nightstand and the trailer door slams behind him when he leaves.
Outside Benny’s diner is dark, shadows over the parking lot, but Harrington’s beamer is still there, clear as day. Maroon and hideous. God-fucking-damnit.
Harrington is in the driver’s seat, arms crossed over his chest as his head lolls back against his seat, half-asleep and definitely getting there. He’s wearing a nice shirt and nice pants and his tie goes flying like a whip across his cheek when Eddie knocks his fist against the roof of the car.
“The hell’s your damage, Harrington?” He barks, before the guy can even get his bearings.
Harrington fumbles, flailing limbs punch a short blare out of his horn, and his tie ends up over his shoulder.
“Eddie, hi. Hi, Eddie.” There’s drool at the corner of his mouth. Eddie’s lips curl.
“What the hell are you doing?” he snaps again. Harrington’s window is half-down—he can definitely hear him.
“Um.” Harrington looks sheepish, now, doesn’t know what to do with his hands. “It was—Benny’s at seven. I was waiting for you. Didn’t mean to fall asleep.”
Eddie’s jaw tightens.
“It was Benny’s at seven, right? I thought it was Benny’s at six, at first, but I can’t really keep dates straight up here, anymore,” he knocks against his head with a knuckle, “All the pointless melon-splits of American sports, or whatever.”
Vaguely, Eddie remembers a long-winded rant on the top of a cafeteria table about the same subject.
“It was at six,” he acknowledges. “I didn’t bother showing up.”
“Oh.” Harrington’s eyes drop, take in his pajama pants and his threadbare tee. “But you did. Now.”
“Yeah, well.” Eddie turns the words over. “Call it a lapse of judgment.”
Harrington nods. He’s not looking at Eddie anymore. It sours something in his gut that he doesn’t acknowledge.
Eddie looks past him. In the passenger seat, a bouquet.
Of black roses.
Harrington’s fingertips are stained a shade darker, black stuck underneath his nails.
What the actual fuck.
“What the hell was your plan here, Harrington?”
Harrington blinks up at him with those stupid big eyes that Eddie definitely, absolutely hates.
“Dinner, and then, you know, prom? Isn’t that how is usually goes?” He asks, like Eddie would have any fucking clue.
Eddie grinds his teeth. “You realize you’ve wasted your only senior prom on this dumb joke, right? And I didn’t even fall for it? Way to have your priorities in order, King Steve.”
Harrington’s face scrunches. Eddie bites his tongue.
“I’ve had the misfortune of having two, and I didn’t subject myself to either. So you can cut the shit—”
“Wait, hold on,” Harrington cuts him off. “It wasn’t—what joke, Eddie?”
Oh. Oh no. If Gareth’s right, he’s gonna have to throw himself from the quarry cliffs.
“You know,” he spits, like it doesn’t affect him, that every last goddamn person in fucking Hawkins sees him as a freak, like a bug to torture and then squash, “Lure me to prom. Dump a bucket of pig’s blood over my head or however that movie goes.”
Harrington—Harrington looks horrified.
Well. The quarry’s always empty at seven in the evening.
“Even I’m not that dumb, man.” He ignores how the words come out, slower, an edge of uncertainty.
“That’s fucked up,” Harrington whispers, “There’s a movie like that? I wouldn’t—that’s not what I—”
“Yeah, I think I’m starting to get that.”
Harrington’s jaw shuts with a click, and they’re both quiet for a minute. And then, like a curse he doesn’t want to say aloud lest he bring it to life, Eddie asks, “That was you, wasn’t it? With the pudding and the posters and the flowers.”
“I broke Tommy’s nose when I caught him trying to let the air outta your tires, too,” he says, hollowly, like it doesn’t matter anymore.
Fuck.
There’s no one in the parking lot, and Eddie tells himself its the only reason he rounds the car and drops into the passenger side seat. The flowers are saved by Harrington’s quick reflexes, and Eddie kind of wants to curse him out for having his doors unlocked.
“Okay.” He hypes himself up like he’s seen Harrington do in PE, a quick breath in and out. “I didn’t know you were being serious. I thought it was just a dumb joke.”
“Yeah, I got that part.”
He twists his fingers together. “Those were for me, right?”
Harrington hums. Hands them over. “Kinda makes it worse, but sure. Yeah, they were for you.”
“Worse?”
Harrington laughs, scrubs a hand over his face. “I thought it’d be funny. You said you’d wear a dress if I got you black flowers, but I—I didn’t mean it that way. I just wanted to get you flowers you’d like.”
Fuck. Eddie does remember that, now.
The stems are still thorny and prick at his fingers when he hold them. He likes them better that way.
“You’ve been… practicing these,” he realizes. Remembers the little blue daisy.
“First ones came out a really gross kind of green,” Steve admits.
God fucking damn it.
“I don’t do prom,” Eddie says.
“Yeah, I figured that one out,” Steve replies. Dry. Still isn’t looking over at Eddie.
“No, I mean—I wouldn’t have gone even if I’d thought you were being honest from the get-go. I don’t DO prom. It’s the death of counter-culture and individuality.”
“I don’t know what that means.”
“What I’m saying is,” he takes a deep breath, a little part of him still praying Steve won’t punch his damn lights out, “I’m not gonna go to prom. Ever. That’s an invitation to douchebags like Hargrove and Hagan to split my skull open on the gym floor. I don’t want my last breath to be weeks-old jock socks.”
He ducks, tries to catch Steve’s gaze. Doesn’t manage. He ends up pressed against the dashboard like a moron.
“But there’s this bar I go to,” he continues, “It doesn’t really check ID. I think they’d go out of business if they did. They let us play on Tuesdays.”
“I know.”
He knows? Jesus fucking Christ. Maybe Eddie needs to buy the flowers. About six dozen. Fuck him.
His leg jostles, knocks against Steve’s door. He finally looks up.
“That’s more my speed,” he admits, in a big rush. “It’s… probably better than prom as a first date, anyways.”
Steve’s eyebrows jump up into that famous hair, perfectly styled. Eddie’s is a mane of despair and hopelessness, wilder than a tornado.
“Really?” he asks, like Eddie didn’t just say he’d thought he was a piece of shit in seven different ways. “That’s—you’d—really?”
“I mean, not right now,” Eddie scoffs, and Steve’s face drops. He hurries to amend, “I’m not really dressed for the occasion. But maybe, like… tomorrow?”
“Tomorrow,” Steve repeats, and Eddie flushes. “That’s soon.”
“Or never,” he snaps, because he’s a goddamn moron, “That works too.”
Steve’s grin splits his face and Eddie has to look back at the flowers in his lap. “Tomorrow’s good,” he agrees, too easy.
“Yeah, well,” he mutters, kicks the door open, probably leaves a scuff, but Steve doesn’t say a word. “Better be.”
Steve’s still grinning as he gets out of the car, slams the door closed, rounds the side again. He’s not scared of a gaggle of dipshits ready to jump him because they’re not there. And he’s got a bouquet of black roses pressed to his chest.
“See you then, Eddie,” Steve chirps, as Eddie climbs back into his own van, and Eddie—Eddie has to hide his smile behind a curtain of hair as he throws the piece of shit into reverse and backs out of Benny’s diner.
…
He leaves the flowers on their tiny kitchen counter and the next morning, Wayne’s put them in a vase Eddie didn’t know they had, with water and that weird flower-food crap and everything.
Steve is excellent at molding himself perfectly to his partners interests when he is in a relationship. With Nancy he read every single article of the school newspaper she wrote. Movies nights were either filled with Tom Cruise (not that Steve minded that much) or documentaries he tried to be interested in. Once he suggested they'd watch an episode of Star Trek together but when she said "I really want to watch this documentary" he had relented.
It's the same with every girlfriend or fling afterwards. They get to pick the movie, the music, the dinner, the activities. Or more accurately Steve picks exactly what they like because they seem to expect it. He shows up to Sarah's piano recital and watches Heidi's cheer practice. He let's Jenna eject his Tears for Fears tape with a frown and put on some Ska instead. And when Chloe really, really wants to go out for milkshakes he pretends like ice cream doesn't make him want to throw up after Starcourt. Not a single one of them ever shows up at his basketball games or his swim meets.
Love means sacrifice and putting yourself second. At least when you're Steve Harrington.
So when Steve starts dating Eddie he doesn't expect anything else. It's not as bad though as with some previous dates. It's nice to listen to Eddie go on a long ramble about the history of metal. He likes to sit in during the DnD games, flicking through a magazine while Eddie and the kids play. And sure he is not the biggest fan of horror movies but it's a nice excuse to cuddle up with Eddie during movie night. Not that he would need an excuse, Eddie is incredibly tactile.
Steve is in the middle of a little league baseball game when things change. He is so focused on coaching his team he doesn't notice the mop of black curls in the audience at first. Only when his little team has their first home run and an eardrum shattering whistle comes from the bleachers, Steve turns and is surprised to find Eddie in the audience, smiling, cheering, hollering.
When he spots Steve looking at him he waves at him with an even bigger smile. During a brief water break Steve jogs over to the bleachers.
"What are you doing here?" he asks, still surprised that Eddie is here.
"Came to support my boyfriend and his team, of course," Eddie grins. If they weren't in public, Steve would steal a kiss right now. Eddie very much loathes sports and yet he still came.
Once the game is over Eddie drives both of them home. When he turns on the tape player, Steve very much expects the usual metal to come out of the speakers. Instead he is met with the familiar voice of Duran Duran. He expects Eddie to change the tape but he just lets it play. After Duran Duran there is a Judas Priest song and maybe the Duran Duran just got on there by accident. But after Judas Priest Hall and Oates plays and Eddie even hums along? No complaints, no berating Steve for his horrible taste in music, but fucking humming along?
"Did you…did you make this?" Steve asks, trying to wrap his head around what is happening.
"Yeah, thought this way we can both listen to stuff we like," Eddie smiles and laces their hands together. "But I also got some Bowie and and Queen tapes if you want something else."
It's the few musicians they can agree on. But Steve shakes his head.
"No, I like it. Leave it."
When they get to their small but comfy new home Eddie dashes upstairs to take a shower and tells Steve to pick a movie from the few he rented earlier.
The first one is Rosemary's Baby. Of course Eddie picked a horror movie. But then the next tape surprises Steve yet again. It's Back to the Future and the one after that is Star Wars there even is Top Gun. And Night of the Living Dead. A perfect mixture really.
When Eddie comes back from his shower Steve is still staring at the movies a frown on his face.
"You alright, Steveheart?"
"You know you don't have to do this," Steve says slowly. "Pretend you want to watch something I like. Or listen to my music. I don't want you to pretend."
Eddie walks over, wet hair dripping onto the floor. He presses a kiss to Steve's cheek and takes Top Gun out of his hand.
"I'm not pretending," he says and walks over to their TV. "I want to watch stuff you like. The same way you agree to sometimes watch stuff that I like. That's how it works, doesn't it? We compromise."
Steve blinks. Compromise. No ones ever really wanted to compromise with him. No one ever cared enough.
"Why?" he asks and sits down on the couch.
"Because I love you. And I want to know about the things you love. The same way I want to hear about your day or how your run went, if you liked your green smoothie this morning," Eddie says and sits down on the sofa too, pulling Steve into his arms.
And maybe it's taken him 22 years to learn. But finally Steve realizes that love is not putting others always first. Love is to meet in the middle. Love is to care, and to compromise and to share.
He's never felt so loved like when the intro to Top Gun starts playing.
people who are just finding out about internet tracking and data mining in the year 2025 and that your special robot friend does not respect your privacy lol
I kind of miss the impulsivity that certain spaces used to allow. oh you want a hair cut today? hairdresser in the corner can fit you in before her 2 o’clock. tattoo of a cobra… sure leg or arm? even concerts, back when you could go to the box office thirty mins before any show. not saying these things don’t exist at all, but everything feels booked five months in advance and 10x more expensive
something i’ve noticed so much lately is how puritanical and heteronormative ppl entering into fandom have become. fandom is built by queer or otherwise “weird” fans who don’t get to see themselves in mainstream media or who don’t get to see what they want in popular media (see: spirk fanzines in the 60s/70s, drarry shippers in the early 2000s, loustat shippers in the 80s/90s, etc.).
it is literally fandom. NOT CANON!!! that’s the ENTIRE POINT! where fans can take something and make it for themselves. it’s not a “reach” to construct an alternative narrative out of the visual and narrative material given to viewers. it’s a way of communicating and identifying thru media that otherwise chooses to punish & traumatize its canonical queer characters (notice how neither of the canon gay characters are in happy relationships by the end of the series & how will is routinely punished by vecna for his feelings!!! quite literally the entire reason we get that painful coming out scene is so that vecna can’t use it against him!!). it’s literally what fandom is for!!!!!!
there’s probably a reason why the notes on this og post are kind of homophobic but let’s not talk abt that or the kind of audience ur trying to pander to by making these kind of posts!!!!! if u don’t like a ship, jump overboard!!!!!
For real though, I learned about Eddie through fandom before watching season four, so 100% thought he was canonically gay. The first second he was on screen, I was like, "oh, he really is gay," and my mind wasn't changed during the Chrissy scene. I never once thought he had a crush (and still don't!).
But even if we want to look at the canon text of the show (I can't remember if the books count as canon), I'd say his sexuality is pretty ambiguous! Plus, you can find lots of things the Joes have said to argue that Eddie canonically had a crush on Steve. The point being, fandom and fanworks are able to exist because gaps in the text allow viewers/readers/etc etc to make what they want out of canon. If you don't think Eddie is gay, cool, yay for you, but that interpretation is available, and justified by canon, just like Eddie having a crush on Chrissy is an interpretation that is justified by canon.
Stop being homophobic (in this big year 2026!) and learn some media literacy, I beg.
Anyway, you'll have to pry sado top Eddie out of my cold, dead hands.
You make soup in a big bowl. You serve it in a smaller bowl. And then you convey it, using a spoon, to your mouth. But what is the spoon? Simply a smaller bowl still
I love every side of Eddie's personality that the authors wish to explore. I love overconfident Eddie. I love Eddie who's just a pathetic little nerd twink. I love Eddie who's secure in his sexuality. I love virgin Eddie. I love Eddie that thinks everything can be a joke (until it isn't, until it's too real). I love sentimental Eddie. I love oblivious Eddie. I love Eddie who can't hide that he wants Steve. I love Eddie who's too scared to have his feelings hurt. I love Eddie who's got a huge crush on Steve since he became King Steve. I love Eddie who couldn't give a shit about Steve until the Upside Down made them bond. I love Eddie who thought he hated Steve but realized he just wants him. Badly.
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