silence...

There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.

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They will never fight for me...

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The pain I feel is heartbreaking. They say the pain of lonlyness and heartbreak is the same as a heart attack I feel it. I don't need a boy to love me. I need love from my family and I can't find it. I try everything and it's making me tired and sad because I need to do so much shit and in the end for what. They will never like me. They will never call me beautiful. They will never love me. I will never be enough.

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As a child from a family where love means hate. Its hard to survive with a sweet hart. They pick you bald, they make you think love does not exist. You feel so alone and like you don't deserve it. I will do everything for love. And some people feel that they take advantage of you and leave you more broken afterwards.

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We live until we die-

Like as this is live what the f*kkkk

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I tried

I fought

I really tried to be better

To be a better person

To be a adult

To be THE adult in my family

I crashed

I'm afraid of my home

I'm afraid of my father

Now I'm hiding with other family

I feel like running away

I feel like having a mental breakdown

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They never will....

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Hope can kill you

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I want to help you feel... not these things. I want you to feel genuinely happy and I don't know how. In the few posts of yours I've seen you say and feel a lot of things I feel, things I felt. Things I go through. I can relate to you and I hate it - you don't deserve this in the slightest. You deserve more and I wish I could help you see that firsthand, to experience it and the results it brings. I'm sorry I can't be useful enough to help you.

This is so sweet.

I'm truggeling and i try to feel better and i believe that one day i just feel better and look back at this period and think about how strong is was. How strong we are!

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I need to talk, but I don't have anyone who will listen, so I talk to you....

i don't know what to do...

i love my boyfriend, but he is so vile sometimes. He told me, as there would be something wrong with me if I'm sick because of the medications that I now take to feel good, he would leave me. Will he really do this? My brother has a physical disability he can't stand him. I don’t mind he is my brother we have a sister-brother relationship we sometimes fight, but I love him. I will take care of him if he needs me. He told me if there are financial problems, he will not stay with me. 

I love him.

It's hard for me, it's my first relationship I can’t be open anymore my words are used against me, I feel bad, but it's always my fold. 

I need to talk to him, I know, but I think he will not take it well I think we need to wait for the future, maybe he changes his mind...

I just can't leave the only good thing I have...    

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I’m there for all my friends. But who's here for me? 

I thought I had lots of friends bcs I'm very friendly and social, my boyfriend told me friend don’t exist. So I was thinking, who will be there for me when I need help? When my dad kicks me out in a bad mood. I think not even my boyfriend. 

I'm together with people, but also alone and it hurts.   

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I wondered why I was always so lonely and then I realized that I was always playing different roles for different people but I never played the role of just myself and that’s why I was lonely - the person everyone was with wasn’t actually me.

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I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it.

They only dont give it back

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I don’t really deal with my mental illnesses. I somehow just get through the day. As soon as I don’t have to pretend to be a normal person around others, I fall apart. And then I try to force myself to go to sleep because being awake is so fucking unbearable. And I do this everyday. How do I stop wanting to kill myself when this is what my days are like.