Drunk kisses - wolfstar 𝗺𝗶𝗰𝗿𝗼𝗳𝗶𝗰 - word count: 1.137
Remus sighed, looked up and took another drag of his nearly done cigarette, Sirius was right there, laughing with Mary, hugging her, murmuring something in her ear that made her giggle, he looked away.
He couldn’t take it anymore, he’d made a terrible mistake, they had kissed multiple times, it was an unspoken agreement, because they were drunk, because they were partying, their group had this night ritual, they all kissed when they went out, somehow they all knew it was just fun, and Remus even participated in it a couple of times.
He had even kissed Lily and James, but never Sirius, because he was in love with him, and even tho it was what he wanted to do the most, he knew he’d never recover from a one night kiss thing, to see Sirius shrug it off and never mention it again, so he refused, even when Sirius tried to kiss him before, he made excuses or played dumb.
But one night he just couldn’t resist, because Sirius had shotgun the smoke he was holding in into his lips, and it was really inevitable, and they couldn’t stop. They started kissing every night out, even when nobody was doing it, they found an excuse to do it, and Remus was done with it, because then Sirius would do this, flirt and be himself, and Remus would be heartbroken, turning in bed thinking if Sirius was alone at home or had company after the club.
But he was a weak man, so he looked up again, and saw Sirius staring at him, he smiled at him, but Remus felt a knot in his throat and couldn’t fully return it, he decided to go home early, he couldn’t do this, so he turned, hugged Lily, and grabbed his jacket.
He was waiting for a cab when he heard him
“Yeah, well, I’m not” he tried to laugh, but almost choked
“Rem, what happened? You seemed fine a while ago”
“Guess the day caught up to me, I’m tired, wanna go home”
“Do you want me to come with you?”
“No, go back, you were having fun”
“It’s not fun if you’re not there”
“I was chatting up with Mary”
“Was just telling her I was waiting for my favourite part of the night”
“That’s my second favourite part”
But Sirius was searching for some kind of answer in his eyes
“What’s the first one?”, he was regretting this already
“Yes, because I want to do it in the daylight, but we can only do it at night”
Remus must have been dunker than he thought he was
“Rem, were you jealous back there? Are you leaving because of me?”
So he was that easy to read
“Yeah, I guess…” there was no point in hiding it now “I guess I was, because I wanted it to be me”
“Moony, can I go home with you? I want to talk”
They stopped a cab, they went to Remus’ with no words, got there, went to the bedroom and got into bed to sleep, that was natural for them, Sirius was staring at him, still no words, Remus closed his eyes
“Rem”, he whispered, “Rem, look at me”
“Is that what you really want?”
“Pads, I like kissing you, but I like being your friend more”
“Alright, I like kissing you too, and being your friend, but I’d like to do both”
“I don’t think we’re on the same page”
“Because you don’t wanna kiss me?”
“Because I want it too much”
“Moony, why do you think I don’t too?”
Was he being stubborn? Or was Sirius saying what he thought he was saying?
“I want to kiss you… now”
“I know, I want to do it here”
“Because I don’t want to only kiss you when we go partying, I want to kiss you at all time”
Maybe he was wrong after all, maybe they both felt more
They kept staring at each other
“Do you want to kiss me?”
“I always want to, since we’re being honest”
“If I kiss you now, I’ll want to do it again tomorrow morning”
“And I won’t want you to kiss anyone else”
Remus smirked, he couldn’t quite believe he was having this conversation with Sirius Black
“Okay, I won’t want you to kiss anyone else either”
He thought about it, but this was Sirius, his best friend, he wouldn’t lie to him, not with this
Sirius got closer, looked at his lips, and back to his eyes, Remus touched his cheek, tucked his hair behind his ear, Sirius sighed. It was really weird, that they were having this conversation, that they kissed so many times but couldn’t seem to do it now, it felt more real, it was too revealing, there was an actual meaning behind it.
Sirius licked his lips, Remus exhaled, and leaned in, stopped mere millimetres from his mouth, and looked up one last time, just to make sure, Sirius closed the distance for him, Remus felt a shot of heat all over, adrenaline trying to escape his body from every pore, Sirius’ hand grabbed his waist, pulled him even closer, Remus’ hand slid to his neck and up his scalp, and the kiss escalated.
They started kissing faster, hungrier, it was like a gulp of fresh water after being days in the desert, they needed to breathe, but could not stop.
One of them moaned, maybe both of them did, Sirius pulled his leg up, Remus grabbed his thigh, and he climbed on top of him
He finally leaned back, and looked at him
“Please, I need to talk about this tomorrow, well rested, I need to know you feel the same”
“Oh Moons, I will, I do, but you’re right, I’m sorry”
Sirius laid down again next to him
They did, and then kissed again, they kissed for hours, in silence, only giggling from time to time, they’d talk in the morning, over coffee, and be mature about it, and they’d kiss again, and never stop.
