i don’t know luigi too well yet, sadly i’m still yet to watch most of his streams, but it’s interesting what i have gathered, because there was one big thing that stood out to me.
he’s said that he’s not a good leader, during the first day of lifesteal season 8, which in of itself had gotten my attention, but what interested me more is the example he used to explain why.
as evidence, luigi cites the time when rek asked him if they could fight two maxed-out players with their current gear, saying that he “didn’t know what to do” when asked, before then restating that he’s a “horrible leader”. which is all well and fair— except that’s not actually true, because luigi did know.
when rek asks, luigi points out that “one hit from them’ll be like getting hit by a truck” and that “it’s going to be bad” to take that fight. and if you look at their situation, it’s an accurate, well-thought-out assessment. so then that begs the question: why did luigi use that as a example?
to me, it feels like there’s this disconnect between his mindset of “i’m a horrible leader and shouldn’t be making the calls” and luigi’s actual capabilities, and what seems to be bridging that is one factor: other people. luigi doesn’t seem to struggle with making decisions for himself— it’s making these decisions for everyone else that seems to weigh on him.
how luigi feels doesn’t have to do with the actual calls so much as the pressure of it. leading a team comes with responsibility, the knowledge that the choices you make matter. if you tell them to fight and they all die, that’s on you, and if you tell them to back off and they miss their chance, that’s your fault too. i think that’s what gets luigi in regards to leading. he doesn’t see it as just a pvp decision; luigi sees it as being responsible for the fate of the people who trust him, and that’s where luigi’s confidence seems to falter.
i think his position on lifesteal probably amplifies this some as well. he’s a new member to lifesteal and he knows it. and without all the experience that comes from being a long-time member, it’s naturally much easier to make a wrong call, even if you’re experienced in other similar servers like money smp; so being put in a position where he’s making calls for people who’ve known the server for years longer than luigi has likely makes the responsibility feel even heavier.
that lines up with another thing i’ve noticed about luigi, too. luigi seems noticeably quieter or more hesitant in established group conversations than he does one-on-one, or solely with his team. take the recent yungy stream where him and luigi were on call chatting: once zam joined and started to talk with yungy, luigi went quiet, then deafened. in these larger conversations, where everyone seems to already knows each other, he’s a lot more likely to hang back. and it doesn’t seem like a lack of things to say— it seems more like a reluctance to insert himself into an established dynamic.
as such, i feel like something that contributes to this is a sense that he’s intruding, also stemming from his status as a newcomer to the server who knows the lifestealers but doesn’t quite know them in the ways the previous members have all known each other for years. it’s the same way that his recent joining affects luigi’s opinion on calling the shots, as far as i can tell— it’s not just because he’s just a quiet person, or that he doesn’t have any opinions on what to do in this scenario or that scenario; it’s just that there are circumstances that are making him hesitate, and when they’re no longer in the picture, the hesitation isn’t, either.
that’s one of the reasons why it’s been so fun to watch him in tricky trio, to be honest. we’re only a week and so in, but compared to the very start of season 8, there’s so much less hesitation with him. it’s definitely not to the same level as it is when he’s talking with someone one-on-one, but with tricky trio, he’s noticeably more willing to jump into conversations, joke around, and speak his mind; not because his judgement suddenly improved, but because he seems genuinely comfortable around the people he’s with.
so all of these things kind of combines into a big reason for why i personally don’t see luigi’s “i’m a horrible leader” comment as indicative that he’s incapable of making good decisions. if anything, i think it says more about how seriously he takes the responsibility that comes with making them. luigi doesn’t seem to distrust his own judgment nearly as much as he distrusts being responsible for everyone else if his judgment turns out to be wrong, and i think it’ll be really fun to see how that continues to develop throughout the season.
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