Phoenix

{Alterhuman} {Many in one body}

[skittlediddl]

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INTRO

Hello hello, tbh there's not too much to say

Welcome to my/our Alterhuman blog, where we will mainly talk about our experiences and find community

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some 'main' IDS:

Physical Alterhuman (Posessed/posession)

Snow Leopard (not physical)

⋆.˚✮ ╰┈➤ ✮˚.⋆⊹ ࣪ ࿔ ╰┈➤ I do NOT have any disorder or mental illness that causes me to have several souls/energies in one body, nor is it a spiritual thing really. It's just me being posessed in some ways

No specific DNI, blocking freely tbh

[skittlediddl]

God i hate living near a city.

Like yeah, there is nature a few walks away but you're still close enough to experience THOSE type of ppl

Like why tf is there a group of guys just yelling and shouting so loud you can hear them from miles away.

Also lovely how the blinds on my window have gotten damaged several times for no reason at all because some assholes thought throwing rocks at it would be fun.

Like????? But no, I'M the crazy one here

[thatonedeadboy]

I've waited a lifetime for you

[skittlediddl]

I really wanna start a journal of some sorts and also start my practice of sharing my body with other souls and possibly Shapeshift

But that also scares me a lot, what if something goes wrong? What if i don't like it

etc.

Wellp, we'll see

[skittlediddl]

"I'm the REAL XYZ doubles don't exist! I'm the ONLY ONE. Anyone claiming to be XYZ will get harrassed bc I'm ThE ReAl one!!"

What if i grabbed your head and slammed it against the wall a few times. Just for shits and giggles

Having a Doubles DNI boundary is completely fine. But oh my god don't be a bitch about it

[skittlediddl]

Seeing folks who claim to be physical therians and then shit on folks that have several ppl in their head is interesting to say the least

So you can physically be a wolf with fur and all but you draw the line at me being possessed?

Being able to turn into a snake is possible but someone sharing their body with other beings is not??

It just makes like, no sense to me lol

I can't be many souls in one body without mental illness or disorders but you are 100% an animal with no doubt

Buddy we're in the same boat here?! You KNOW what it feels like getting called delusional simply for living your truth

This isn't even aimed torwards anyone speciffic but it's a pattern i noticed of ones calling themselves Physical Therians calling others delusional or weird, which like???

[skittlediddl]

(TW mentions of online bullying and death threats)

When i'm just chilling and vibing and suddenly get hit with the memory of that one time when i was 17 and just figured out my Alterhumanity, posted something about it in an Otherkin community for the first time and woke up the next day to several hate comments made by grown ass men, because my post got posted on another platform

Rest of the day was spent trying to defend myself and having to explain to complete strangers that, no, i do not deserve to die because i'm Otherkin, actually!

Lots of "You're delusional/need to go to an asylum" comments too ofc, don't even get me started.

I ended up deleting my account cause who would've guessed getting severe hate just for openly being themselves in the most harmless way would really fuck up someone's mind!

Also, big shoutout to the one who reposted my post with a direct link to my profile AND community. Hope it was worth the 2k likes :D

[skittlediddl]

Mfs in my family when my mental illness and autism are actually ruining my life instead of being "cool wired brain disorder"

"Wdym you cannot do normal stuff that anyone else can!?"

I have several diagnoses, Jerry

[skittlediddl]

Hey google, how to transfer my soul into the digital world?

[skittlediddl]

Has anyone actually tried living online?

I can't clean up and do anything bc of my mental illness, so literally just existing online would be a good solution

I wouldn't have to clean up after making a mess or anything bc i wouldnxt eat anymore or touch any books etc.

I also wouldn't bother my mom with my laziness anymore :D !!

I'd live digitally and my physical body would just do the most neccesary stuff like going to the doctor and showering

[skittlediddl]

Speaking of which, I think some folks have talked about this before

But i have actually experienced it before too

Since i believe my Alterhumanity is caused by me being somewhat possessed

Whenever another soul "takes over" or just any soul being 'aware' in any way, i have noticed physical changes:

Face shape being either softer or harsher

eyes being bigger or smaller

movement changes

And sometimes similar to my nonhuman shifts, phantom shifts (ears, tail)

[skittlediddl]

It's interesting to me that for many folks, being possessed stops at or is limited to 'being able to move objects'

'Speaking different languages'

'Supernatural abilities'

Like

I wanted to discuss the theme of possession before in general somewhere but literally one of the first rules was that claims of possession can only be made when meeting the categories mentioned above.

What if i'm possessed by some random ass souls tho?? What if i just wanna call it possession since it fits with my experience

[skittlediddl]

I hate overconsuming so much

Like yeah, i might be Alterhuman, yeah i might be animal

But i cannot stop myself from buying that useless bracelet

Despite being full i buy another burger

I will buy another plushie despite not really needing another one

I can't deny that spending money and eating myself to death seems to be the one thing keeping me alive

I fear this part of humanity is never gonna leave. I will always be a selfish piece of shit. I fear this is part of being even partially human

[skittlediddl]

And in another life i will be as normal as a living being can be, right?

In another life i will be born into a mentally stable enough family

In another life i will actually get a chance, right??

[skittlediddl]

"NOO you can't be nonhuman/alterhuman, it's just not possible"

And the birds kept singing

"Being Therian means you're mentally ill"

Oh noes 3: how should i go on with life

Anyway

[skittlediddl]

Sometimes i wish ppl were a little more open minded or at least understood that not everything has a reason to be

I've gotten hate messages before on other sites that harassed me for "faking DID" when i explained that i never claimed to have DID or anything, they either wanted another explanation or claimed that i 'ObviOuSly hAve to FakE Bc why else would i say there's different souls and energies in me

Same with spiritual ppl (don't get me wrong, being spiritual is fine, i'm quite spiritual as well obv.)

It's just that these ppl tried to find a spiritual solution to my "problem" or "condition" i've been told before to do research into past lives n stuff

Even i tried to explain my situation with "maybe it's an identity thing"

That's pretty much how i came to the conclusion that i was a type of 'Physical' Alterhuman. At least i'd consider being posessed a physical thing in a way

Ok i mean you could say that demonic or ghostly posession is a spiritual thing, but to me and the other it isn't. It's not spirituality, it just IS

And that's basically my point, i'm tired of finding the answer to things that just ARE

I don't have to explain to anyone why i have brown hair, why should i have to explain where these demons and souls come from