Setting my heart ablaze

I love cats,astronomy, philosophy and quantum physics.Watched weak hero c1 and 2,demon slayer,WIFTY.Currently watching Teach you a lesson and Frieren

[kissofcocteau]

express yourself don't repress yourself

[sleepdepriveddork]

random entry but not so random words

So I have these mini tests going on at my coaching...and my parents don't comment if I get low marks (they are understanding) and yesterday my father came up to me ,patted my head and said you did good on that math test,even a small improvement matters ,these questions are nothing in front of you (lol)

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DIGITAL JOURNAL

Entry #2

Day 3

Things seem okayish rn

I am really annoyed tho.I wish I could write it all here.I did chem,little bit of physics..I will do maths qb

Lets aim for 5 hours today, yeah?

How are things going for you guys?

[spacewonder19]

Cat's Eye Nebula © ©

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meow

[the-wolf-and-moon]

NGC 2207 and IC 2163, Angel Wing

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when I die I hope my soul gets to wander around the universe I never truly got to see

(I prob can't see this as its not in the visible range)

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Digital Journal?

should I make this my digital journal?

Skipping school today...I dont feel good and I'd rather save my energy for coaching or the evening classes.

Academic Comeback is not comebacking...its more like downfall..)

Day 1

Woke up at 3am (I slept like a log yesterday after coming back from school)

Its 6:21 am now

I have to memorize s and p blocks

Complete question bank 2

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Soup

I need a good bowl of soup 🍲 😩...

spicy,rich,comforting....soup is a warm hug

And I want a hug

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Heyoooo

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Something I made a long time ago..This was supposed to be a necklace.I like the colors,wbu?

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I want a Zhang Lurang in my life.

Where is my Zhang Lurang!?

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Straight out of movie

"No,I just entered school let me catch a breather." I lowered my book and said "Its alright,I will ask my doubt in class then" "Yes" the teacher went back to facing her desk and keeping her stuff as I turned to leave.

I felt SO SLEEPY.I should not have stayed up late.I thought about the sketch I made of him.It may not have been the best but it certainly looked like him.I will not approach him now, not tap on his shoulder to say hi or something (only did at twice though) yeah he should approach me too.It should not be one sided.I walked with sleep heavy on my eyes.When I saw HIM

He must have been on his way to the classroom.There was about 2 to 3 feet of distance between us.We both had stopped walking,his bag was slung over one of his shoulders.None of us were saying a thing.Just staring into each other's eyes.I could hear my heart beating.I suddenly became aware of my surroundings and not at the same time.The corridor was completely empty,the morning light soft where I was standing.I managed to keep a poker face,waiting for him to say something. I don't remember which one of us looked away first..could have been me (i suck at eye contacts).He started walking in the direction of his class which also happend to be the direction in which my class was.I was frowning a little as I walked his back facing me.When he turned back a little and said an almost shy,quite,whisper like "Hi".He smiled softly and I quickend my pace while he slowed his to wait."Hello."How i wish I was not sleepy that moment.Even with the corridor empty we still walked together..shoulders touching..He lowered his head and in a hushed voice said,"I really loved the sketch you made!It was genuinely so beautiful. You know I kept it on my desk "My mind was short circuiting.I felt so overwhelmed. The praise,the voice,how he leaned and that his face was closer than ever(not close enough to kiss or something)My mind felt fuzzy,heart warm.How I wish I was not sleepy so I could hear everything well with attention."Thank you" I whispered. We stopped in front of my class and as we separated ways "I think our history teacher can be really sarcastic" I said hoping to keep the conversation going."Yeah,that is how she is" he chuckled and walked away.Man why are you always in a hurry? I wish we could talk longer. :)

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A poem I wrote.

Depression is a cold, empty house,

full of dust you cannot control -

it suffocates you.

Even in a room full of people, you feel miserably alone.

Detached, defect, different?

People terrify you

because when they are around you need to act normal,

but then there will still be slip ups because let's face it -

YOU ARE ANYTHING BUT NORMAL.

You plant yourself in one spot,

one hand over your mouth,

the other goes deep like the roots of ancient trees,

holding you in place,

never allowing you to move forward.

And then you say you are trapped. You are a leech and you know-

that's the worst part.

You know, but you can't do anything about it because you are "trapped."

And don't tell others what you are -you'll drain them of their happiness.

They say happy days are like sun,

but somehow your Sun never shows up -

and even if it does, it's irritating, agitating.

You move away in a flash,

and then at some good distance,

when your soulless eyes look at the sun and the happy people under it, you crave it back.

What do I like is something you'll never know the answer to.

Dying is an art you are slowly mastering.

You die every day,

and then one day this flesh and bones

that you parade around for people to see will be gone

and that will be your only masterpiece.