I love being on the back end of figuring out a healthy relationship with food and being able to take breaks from whatever I'm doing, food-wise. I used to panic about that shit constantly.
Case in point, it was my wife's birthday recently. That weekend, we went to karaoke, hung out with friends, and just generally engaged in merriment. I'm trying to get down to 190 (currently sitting around 211 or so. 190 will put me the closest I've been a Healthy range BMI in about 15 years) and, in the past, that would have me panicking, unable to enjoy the weekend, and/or inadvertently making my wife's birthday celebration all about me (internally).
Now, since I'm no longer trying to lose weight for medical/health reasons (I'm doing this just for me and to prove that I can) and I have amazing habits and procedures in place, I can just take a weekend off and snap back into it once the festivities are over.
Back when I was in college, I would occasionally try "going on a diet" (in the loosest sense of the phrase), would try to do too much too quickly, have one bad day, assume the whole thing was bust, and then give up. Now, I don't let it faze me. The weekend is over, I'm back on the horse, and things are going smoothly.
If you're at the point where you still may not trust yourself to have a weekend like that, don't put yourself in the position to do so. For a while, back when I was still really trying to lose weight for, specifically, health-related reasons, there came a point where I could no longer trust myself to "just take a few days off". But once I got past that point, I was able to give a bit of slack on the leash. Set your habit and routine in stone and, later on, not only will you actually like doing the things you've been doing more than the excessive stuff anyway, but also, if you decide "fuck it, I'm gonna eat a pizza" then you won't have to feel that you've failed yourself, or that the whole thing isn't worth it anymore. Eatza the pizza and then get right back to it the next day.
As always, believe in yourself and trust yourself. Trust in your support system, if you have one. If you don't, and you're reading this, know that I support you. There are those of us out here that know what you're going through, that empathize and sympathize with the struggle. Some days, it can be really difficult. But be gentle with yourself. The effort put into this will pay off. I promise.
















