enemies to enemies but i am so intensly attached to you because you showed me kindness and normalcy but i still want to see you dead and lie to myself thinking all there is is hatred so i get you killed and cannot cope in this world without you so i desperately try to bring you back hoping to both clench my need for revenge by essentially making you my puppet and because i miss you and cant imagine being here without you and need you here in any way shape or form. yeah.













