Me/Cfs And Mushboi Might be In Your Vents.. Maybe

Ngl I just needed space to vent about my bullshit

[spacemossisintheventilation]

@mossyspaceboi is the main blog

Tw’s on the blog, I will do my best to remember them in tags. Cancer, death, suicidal ideation and thoughts. Abuse of various kinds.

I needed space to vent about my bullshit because sometimes yelling into the void and occasionally getting validated by strangers is better than being alone on a piece of paper in a dark room… edge lord behavior

Me/Cfs is lonely as hell and ruined my life and my in-laws are 90% of the reason I’ve collapsed so hard and become almost entirely house bound and use a wheelchair now.

Moved across country for my daughter, to be near an abusive as all hell ex who’s mother died and now him and his dad are like… my wife and i’s biggest supporters and it’s fucking weird and scary and idk how to feel about it.

My wife’s family has basically disowned her after she came out, unless of course it’s to shame her about choosing to move across country to support her wife and child and get out of a state that is literally 1. Killing her wife, and 2. Could at best put her in prison for using the bathroom. Because her incubator was diagnosed with cancer /while we were packing our shit/.

-disclaimer I do want her to recover, I’m not trying to make light of her diagnosis. I do however think it’s bullshit to use it to shame people and yes I do struggle with guilt over it because it’s fucking cancer and it’s scary as hell-

We are absolutely going into debt over the move. Like bad debt. Probably won’t recover debt. I struggle with this. I flip between wanting to save as much as I can and then giving no shits and just wanting to make life comfortable. The world is falling apart and has been since I was born so idk 🤷🏻 money seems fake

I have a 3d printer and sometimes come up with shit to print to make life easier, or find other shit and make it work. Or just make things idk.

I do art, fuck ai, damn I love space, no I don’t know a lot about space, I want to be moss floating in space, let me live inside a spaceship

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

you know what, I’m not done posting about baby bats!!!

here is a fact for you: rescued baby bats are regularly given little blankets and swaddled up like itty bitty bat burritos! this is a whole Thing

Oh, and sometimes they get tiny pillows!

And they get fed out of teensy baby bottles!

They are even given mini bat pacifiers to nurse on 💕

in conclusion, here is a baby bat yawning:

BABY BATS!!!

[nonbeans]

"it is recommended to take short walks to avoid fatigue".

And HOW am I supposed to do that when I HAVE FATIGUE.

I wish they'd at least be more specific like,

"it is recommended that once in a blue moon when the stars are aligned and you have approximately 5 minutes of energy before you are dead in bed for the next six days, go walk to your mailbox and back".

At least that would be realistic.

[nightmaretour]

Being visibly disabled in the current community is a fascinating experience. Somehow you get to be the most visible part of the community and yet simultaneously completely invisible. People will tell you you're seen as the default and yet even spaces that call themselves "accessible" seemingly forget entirely that wheeled mobility aid users might need to use them too, or treat you as an afterthought. Disability related gatherings will be absolutely shocked if you turn up with a bulky mobility aid like a power chair or have a particularly noticeable visible difference, as if they never thought that people like you actually existed in the real world and might share a space with them. Disability related merch will be plastered in invisible disability slogans but people will look at you like you're from outer space if you ask if they have anything about disabilities that aren't invisible. They tell you about how they saw someone with a disability vaguely similar to yours on TV once, so you don't need more awareness.

All the while abled people just continue to act like you don't exist unless you can be "inspirational", or you're inconvenient to them, or you look so different that they think they can get away with treating you like an animal.

[nohopethiswillallendintears]

you’ve been moving around a lot? FATIGUE!

you’ve not been moving around? FATIGUE!

you’ve been standing? FATIGUE!

you’ve been sitting? FATIGUE!

you are simply conscious? FATIGUE!

you’re sad? FATIGUE!

you’re apathetic? FATIGUE!

you’re happy? Headache…AND THEN FATIGUE!

[vermilionstarlight]

age regressing to 2 years old but i was an especially erudite and articulate baby so you don't even notice

[whosname]

[id. A twitter post by @/Bennieeexyz Jury duty letter came addressed to my cat. Not a mistake. "Felix Martinez" - that's his full name according to his vet records. My last name. His first name. Somehow he's a registered voter now. Called the county clerk. Me: My cat got summoned for jury duty. Clerk: Is the name correct on the summons? Me: Yes, but he's a cat. Clerk: Is Felix Martinez a legal resident of this county? Me: He's a legal cat. Clerk: Sir, if the name matches our records, he needs to appear or file an exemption. Me: He can't file anything. He has paws. Clerk: You can file on his behalf. Me: Under what exemption? There's no box for "is a cat." Clerk: (pause) Check "unable to serve due to medical reasons." Me: What's the medical reason? Clerk: He's a cat. Me: That's not a medical condition. Clerk: It is if it prevents him from serving. Sent in the form. Got rejected two weeks later. "Insufficient documentation. Please provide medical professional's statement." Took the letter to my vet. Me: I need you to write that my cat can't do jury duty. Vet: Why is your cat summoned for jury duty? Me: Excellent question. No good answer. Vet: This is the weirdest request I've gotten. Me: Can you just write that he's medically unfit to serve? Vet: On what grounds? Me: He's a cat. Vet: (started typing) "Patient is unable to serve due to species-related limitations including inability to speak, read, or comprehend legal proceedings." Me: Perfect. Sent it in. Got another rejection. "Summons is mandatory. Failure to appear will result in contempt of court." My roommate thought this was hilarious. Roommate: Felix is going to jail. Me: This is serious. Roommate: Bring him to court. See what happens. Decided that was actually the only option left. Day of jury duty, put Felix in his carrier. Brought the entire paper trail of rejection letters. Checked in at the courthouse. Clerk: Name? Me: Felix Martinez. Clerk: (looked at the cat carrier) Is that Felix? Me: Yes. Clerk: (long stare) He's a cat. Me: I've been saying that for six weeks. Clerk: Why didn't you file an exemption? Me: I filed three. All rejected. Showed her the letters. She read through them, expression shifting from confusion to disbelief. Clerk: Someone rejected the veterinary documentation? Me: Twice. Clerk: (called her supervisor over) You need to see this. Supervisor read everything. Looked at Felix. Looked at me. Supervisor: How did a cat get registered to vote? Me: You tell me. Supervisor: This is a data error. Me: Took you six weeks to figure that out. They dismissed Felix immediately. Apologized for the inconvenience. Supervisor: We'll remove him from the voter registry. Me: Appreciate it. Supervisor: (pause) Out of curiosity, how would he have voted? Me: Probably whatever party supports universal treats. Got a formal apology letter a week later and a voter registration card. For me this time. Apparently I wasn't registered, but my cat was. Roommate: Felix committed voter fraud. Me: Felix committed nothing. He's innocent. Roommate: That's what they all say. Felix is sleeping on the jury summons now. Fitting end to his legal career. end id]

[chrysiridiawings]

People like this

Fucking INFURIATE ME.

So do people who have invisible autoimmune conditions not have real disabilities because they wouldn’t be affected by the ugly laws? Because they could get around in the world before the ADA existed? Someone who isn’t visibly disabled isn’t actually disabled because those history disability discriminations MAY not have applied to them?

This mentality is why we need disability pride, and WHY disability pride NEEDS to emphasize the existence of invisible disabilities. Chronic migraines are disabling. Autoimmune conditions are disabling. Mental health can be disabling, conditions like ADHD and depression ARE disabling, just because you cannot SEE what is impeding a person’s ability to function DOES NOT FUCKING MEAN THEY ARE NOT DISABLED.

[dead-mad]

Disability tumblr is nice because you log on to complain about symptoms and your mutual is complaining about the same thing and you can give them a little heart in suffering solidarity

[stealingpotatoes]

i don't know what older adults were on about when they said being a teenager was good <3

[robotslenderman]

The recent hot VS cold polls have made me realise that a lot of people have no idea how to cool down.

As someone from a hot country that's regularly on fire, here's some tips:

WATER IS YOUR FRIEND! WATER! IS! YOUR! FRIEND! You can transfer SO much heat into this bad boy! You cannot cool down without water!

Wrists under the cold tap. Splash your face and the back of your neck. Fan yourself.

In some countries you can buy a little handeld fan with a water sprayer.

Damp tea towel around the neck. Stick an ice pack in there on hotter days.

Half fill a water bottle with water, stick in freezer. If you use a bottle with a straw, make sure it's lying on its side with the straw side up and out of the water. When frozen top up the rest of the way with tap water and off you go.

Desperate to cool off? Wet T-shirt. Sit in front of a fan. This will nuke it, just don't get hypothermia and don't fall asleep like this.

Cold showers are also your friend in summer. Some people get psyched up by these. Personally, I sleep like a baby, so I'm good to have them before bed. Just keep in mind that it takes a bit of time for the cool to circulate, so your body will tell you that you're colder than you actually are. I find that when I have cold showers I need to step out of the spray when I think I'm cold... I'll just wait, and thirty seconds later the temperature has evened out and I actually need to step under again. Rinse and repeat until you maintain coolness even after stepping out for a bit.

If you can't do cold showers, turn the cold shower on anyway and just stick your arms under. When they're cold, lift your arms up above your head. The sensation of cool blood draining into your body is fucking weird and kinda unpleasant but less unpleasant than being hot.

Feet in a tub of water with ice. Blood naturally flows to your extremities when hot, so take advantage of this. If you don't have a tub of ice water, sticking a wet rag on your feet in front of the fan works too, it's the less powerful version of the wet T-shirt.

Drinks lots of water but make sure that water has electrolytes as well. Stay in the shade.

Keep air circulating. Fans don't actually cool rooms down, they just help transfer heat from your body to the moisture on your skin or the air via evaporative cooling.

Block north facing windows early in the morning so the sun doesn't get in. If you're in the northern hemisphere, this is opposite for you. Keep in mind that if your home is brick, the bricks will still heat up and slowly release heat into your home even after the sun goes down so this will only do so much.

If it's hotter inside than outside, close all your windows but two, making sure they're on opposite sides of the house/unit you're in. Point a fan out of one window, making sure that the doors between the rooms with the open windows are all open. This will help create a mini pressure system in your home, pulling cooler air in and pushing the hotter air out via the fan. Bonus points if you can get that fan high up where the hot air rises; even within a single room the top is much hotter than the air by the floor. Adjust the amount of open windows based on how many fans you have, but generally you want more windows with fans open than windows without fans to keep the pressure correct.

Obviously, use your common sense for these. Not everything WILL work for you, just use the stuff that does and adjust what needs to be adjusted. Some of these will be impossible to use in the workplace but others you can still use. Others are best used at home. If humidity impacts your ability to use any of these, get a dehumidifier if that's an option, or use more ice instead of evaporation.

Also keep in mind that the skinnier you are, the faster these will work. More fat means more insulation, means more heat, so you may need to be more patient with some of these or use them in combination.

[robotslenderman]

Bringing this back for my dying mutuals

[apatheistlesbian]

Anyway this disability pride month I would like to shoutout disabled folks whose creativity has suffered because of their condition. I’m talking people with hand tremors and pain that stop them from drawing, knitting, and playing instruments. People whose thinking has become so disorganized that nothing they write makes sense to other people. People with chronic pain who can no longer dance. People so over medicated in a fruitless attempt to maintain stability that the wells of their imagination have run dry.

I see you and I love you. You are more than your creative output. You are not a shell of what you used to be. You are a whole, complete person, regardless of what your creativity has been, is now, or will be in the future.

[readingnookcozies]

needed this today

[imsobadatnicknames2]

I know I already made a post to this effect but it's so baffling to me when someone defends the fact that headphone jacks are slowly but surely getting phased out by smartphone manufacturers with some variations of "wireless headphones are more convenient anyway" bc like. If we're talking about convenience what I like about wired headphones is that they conveniently have a single plug that makes the same damn pair of headphones universally compatible with every single audio-output-capable device I own, from my phone and my computer to my fucking gameboy and my casette player, it doesn't get any more convenient than that.

[scramratz]

“If men could get pregnant, abortion would be free” men CAN get pregnant and they’re treated worse than women who can get pregnant

[quasi-normalcy]

Every single person I know who did football in high school, without exception, has a chronic injury. Many regret what it's done to their knees and back, even major organs like the brain.

There is no serious legislative push to ban high school football.

[quasi-normalcy]

Also, like, if you want to talk about social pressure on minors to undertake activities that will result in regrettable, irreversible damage to their bodies:

No one, *ever*, tried to persuade me to transition.

My gym teacher tried to persuade me to try out for the football team almost every single day that I was in junior high.

[quasi-normalcy]

#i firmly believe that the reason why concussions and brain damage in general#are not taken nearly as seriously as they should be#is because of football#if we take concussions and brain trauma seriously then we have to acknowledge the risks that children are undertaking at even#high school level football#but we can't do that#because the kids need to play football in high school so they can play football in college so they can join the NFL#This time I'm really gonna queue it.

[vaspider]

Not a single one of my wife's fingers is completely straight. If you look at them closely -- which I have, many times, over the past 22 years -- you can see where they were broken, over and over, taped in place, and where she just kept fucking playing.

When I first met her, she used to joke about how her coach said, "I could get more than that out of a pig if I kicked it hard enough," and that was the nicest fucking thing he said. Two decades later, she's like, "Yeah, that man verbally and physically abused all of us for years."

There is at least one football game she played in high school that she simply doesn't remember, because she was a linebacker. She got a concussion. She got up and kept playing... or so she's told. She doesn't remember, because she had a fucking concussion and they let her keep playing.

I hate football so much. It ruined her back, her knees, fucked up her hands... everyone was so obsessed with how tall she was, how broad-shouldered. No one ever pushed her to transition, but I fucking wish someone had at least suggested it. That would have hurt her so much less than FUCKING FOOTBALL. Like, it would have been actually beneficial to her.

[mchug]

I heard that one of the actual reasons that organizations like the NFL have tried so hard to downplay CTE and other injuries like it is because they’re terrified that moms will refuse to let their children play football anymore and that entire massive industry will come collapsing down because of it.

[vaspider]

That fucking scans.

[tired-cripple-punk]

Happy disability pride month

I’m still crippled but it doesn’t stop me (most of the time)

If anyone says shit this month, break their kneecaps with your mobility aid

[flowercrowncrip]

“Inclusive community arts festival!” “Everybody welcome!” “Events for all!”

No access info for any of the venues

Box office is inaccessible

Google “[festival name] accessibility”; get info on their “accessible pricing” (pay £1 less if you want to). No mention of free tickets for essential carers

Do a lot of disability detective work; most venues don’t have wheelchair access

One claims to be accessible, look inside: “we’re an accessible venue. There are three steps to get in, but we can help you with those”.

“Everybody welcome*”

*excludes wheelchair users, you can get fucked