Also FYI addendum to the last post I have no power in my house thanks to the power company's epic failure. Gonna be at least another day before it gets turned back on. -.-
Skip over because mental health/depression/tw stuff It's been a long time since I have gone through such a deep and prolonged slow-motion mental breakdown. I've been here before but it was so long ago that, though I can tell myself I've felt worse, I can't remember what worse than this felt like. I took three sick days off work to try to see if taking that pressure off myself would help; it did not. I am in a constant state of "everything sucks and I can't do anything right," with little sense of self-worth or any kind of joy in day to day life. I am back on my medication so hopefully this situation improves because it should scare me how often I hear myself talking about suicide again in my head-- and it doesn't scare me at all, and that's a problem. And I feel like I can't talk about it and it's a really shitty thing to be alone and wrapped up in your own fears and anxieties and that only feeds into the depression and it just turns into this... Physically heavy feeling I'm walking around with and I can't shake it off and feel halfway normal again. And no one around me can know because then they start to think you're just unmotivated or lazy or being dramatic... It took everything I had to take those sick days and then I spent the entire time feeling guilty about it. This keeps getting longer and longer and I'm just going to stop now. But yeah anyway that's where things are at.
September 23, 2015 at at 4:21 a.m. EDT fall officially begins (or spring for the Southern hemisphere)!
Due to the tilt of the earth’s axis, this is one time in the orbit that the sun will be directly over the equator, the other time being the Vernal Equinox. On this day, the Autumnal Equinox, Earth experiences an equal amount of day and night hours. After this, days will get progressively shorter until the Winter Solstice.
Smidgey's had a busy day playing with his favorite toy-- his aunt Sushi's tail. She has turned into the most tolerant cat; she almost is a mom to him, grooming him and letting him climb all over her. Peanut back there is happier to have not much to do with him (I think he's a little intense for shy Peanut-butter).
Commission work will resume on Monday, Sept. 21! This is the last big weekend for racing (my 7 day a week, 12 hour day off-computer work) locally and my schedule will be more normal once it concludes. Also, we have finally finished mostly moving into our new house, got all the utilities set up, and finally finished moving -out- of the old apartment (the source of much anguish as the old landlord was taking advantage of me in the worst way to keep coming back and spending every minute of free time fixing up that property... Long story, finally over). I'm currently battling one of the worst episodes of depression/anxiety that I've had in the last two years and I am racing tomorrow and Sunday-- so after the weekend is over, back into commission work I will launch! Thank you everyone for your kindness and patience during this crazy month. Take care, hope to see you in the Monday stream!
What’s 23 feet tall, eats smog, and makes jewelry for fun?
In Rotterdam this week, the designer Daan Roosegaarde is showing off the result of three years of research and development: The largest air purifier ever built. It’s a tower that scrubs the pollution from more than 30,000 cubic meters of air per hour—and then condenses those fine particles of smog into tiny “gem stones” that can be embedded in rings, cufflinks, and more.
Each stone is roughly equivalent to cleaning 1,000 cubic meters of air—so you’re literally wearing the pollution that once hung in the air around Roosegaarde’s so-called Smog Free Tower. In the designer’s words, buying a ring means “you donate a thousand cubic meters of clean air to the city where the Smog Free Tower is.”
The project has been in the offing for a long time. We wrote about the idea more than two years ago when the Dutch designer first publicly announced the project, which was originally planned for Beijing after the city’s mayor endorsed the idea. Roosegaarde and his team have spent the past few years developing the first prototype in Rotterdam, where it was unveiled this month. “It’s really weird that we accept [pollution] as something normal, and take it for granted,” Roosegaarde explains.
To fund the travel, the studio launched a Kickstarter campaign where you can buy jewelry and cufflinks made with its tiny smog gems—which, theoretically, would eventually become diamonds if they were compressed with much more extreme pressure.
But for now, the tower sits on a patch of grass next to Roosegaarde’s studio in Rotterdam, whose mayor and local government supported the project with grant money.
The process taking place inside its walls is powered by 1,400 watts of sustainable energy, which is comparable to a water boiler, and the studio says it hopes to one day integrate solar PVs into the design to power the process—which works not so differently than some ionic air purifiers. Roosegaarde explains:
By charging the Smog Free Tower with a small positive current, an electrode will send positive ions into the air. These ions will attach themselves to fine dust particles. A negatively charged surface -the counter electrode- will then draw the positive ions in, together with the fine dust particles. The fine dust that would normally harm us, is collected together with the ions and stored inside of the tower. This technology manages to capture ultra-fine smog particles which regular filter systems fail to do.
The team’s Kickstarter, where the studio is raising funds for another eight days, is closing in on doubling its goal—you can get your own smog gems by donating here.
I haven't played a Pokemon game since Yellow okay but all I can think about right now while I'm supposed to be working is which Pokemon I want on my GO team.
Week 5 photos. I know he doesn’t look like much, but the progress I see daily is still so much better than where he came from. Once his ulcers and his hind end pain are resolved– they are both improving!– we can start really working on that neck and topline.
Painted the bedroom! It's a pretty cornflower purplish bluish color. So fun to make our new house into our home. Of course we discovered the basement has a water seep when it rains, so that's going to be a whole other fun....
I hate the New Disney art style and I never reblog FFVII fandom for reasons but the noise I just made in the back of my throat was completely unprecedented.
Here we are, back from our vet visit (it was exhausting). Fungal samples taken, FiV/FeL negative, weighed just under 2 pounds, and only 6 weeks old, which means he was just 3 weeks old when I pulled him out of a storm drain.
Little guy is growing like a weed and thriving other than this ringworm business, but we got some anti-fungal shampoo to clear it up and the carpets are scheduled to be professionally cleaned on Saturday.
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