Since most people voted for me to notify when I post my AO3 fanfics, I decided to make a masterpost. I have multiple series so I thought that'd be easier to navigate if you don't want to look through my AO3 I guess!
The fics are set in chronological order, you don't have to read each of them to understand the context/story but yes
WARNING: Some fanfics are NSFW and/or depict mature themes and sensitive topics, please read tags before reading.
LINKS TO THE SERIES:
Future AU
Broken Glass, Stained Glass, and The Cuts On Your Hands
Cottagecore AU
My Love, First and Last
Book AU (Demian 1919 AU)
The Ring And The Promise Upon Your Finger
Cinq Association Director & Cerulean Mask
J corp. Demsin
Single Father
Vampires AU
Sinclaircest
Random Limbus fics
Fics masterpost under the cut!
FUTURE AU - DEMSIN (my main story/AU)
Flowers
Hot Cocoa And Your Warm Touch
Rose Shampoo
Melted Chocolate
Passion and Intimacy (EXPLICIT)
The Painting Of You (TEEN)
Morning Lovebirds (EXPLICIT)
Let's Go In The Garden (TEEN)
To Become One (EXPLICIT)
The Most Important Part Is That We Are Together
Hope For Another Chance
Sleepy Little Rose
I Fell In Love With You At First Sight, And I Am Worthy Of Your Innocent And Pure Love. Our Love Is Passionate And I Adore You. This Is My True Love And My Memories.
Relax And Let Go (EXPLICIT)
One More Month
If I Were To Wake Up Every Morning To The Sound Of Your Voice… The Day Would Be Much Better
With Our Fingers Intertwined (EXPLICIT)
Plastic Connection (NSFW)
One Step At A Time
The Safest Place In The World
Broken Glass, Stained Glass, and The Cuts On Your Hands
Cleanse Me (EXPLICIT)
Broken Glass (MATURE)
Don't Look At Me (TEEN)
Sunshine Through The Clouds (TEEN)
Cottagecore AU
Once Upon a Time (TEEN)
Maybe… If He Stretched Himself a Little, It Would Be a Bit Less Painful (EXPLICIT)
My Love, First and Last
First Date
First Kiss
Book AU (Demian 1919 AU)
I'm Really Living My Best Life
The Ring And The Promise Upon Your Finger
If Home Is A Person, Then You Are My Home (TEEN)
Cinq Association Director & Cerulean Mask
Our Esteemed, Slutty, Mister Director (EXPLICIT)
J corp. Demsin
Private Dance, Just For You (EXPLICIT)
Single Father AU
Weak (TEEN)
Vampires AU
Like A Lamb Waiting For Slaughter (MATURE)
Sinclaircest
Home
Because No One Understands You Better Than Yourself (EXPLICIT)
“The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born must first destroy a world. The bird flies to God. That God’s name is Abraxas.” ~ ‘Demian’ by Herman Hesse
I think this piece has the most research I’ve done before starting on it… literally sat through Canto 3, checked the canto wiki, song wiki, sinclair’s wiki while analysing his official arts with the song on repeat… hopefully my research wasn’t in vain, and that my Sinclair fans out there get the references in this one!
Canto 3 is one of those cantos where our sinner remains mostly unresolved (but still changed of course) at the end. I hope our dear Sinclair who’s breaking out of his shell learns to reconcile his two inner worlds, and fly as the best version of himself he chooses. So that is what this piece mostly focuses on.
I dunno lady, maybe because trans men transition, not to access positions of privilege (that wouldn’t even be accessible in the first place because they’re trans men) but because that’s just who they are??
1. Notice how this person can only make their (weak) argument by removing the "trans" part?
2. "they transition into privilege" is a literal TERF talking point. Literally. Baseline TERF.
I BEG of people to understand that just because masculinity doesn't feel right for them, that doesn't mean that everyone else feels the same way!
"They're actually women but are identifying as men to gain privilege" is, again, literal TERF rhetoric. It ignores not only actual gender identity, but also the lived reality of trans men/mascs. And it makes them out to be dangerous on top.
This is why we're saying that people fall for TERF rhetoric/possible psyops. Because it is just TERF shit.
There's a thing about Sinclair that I never really see anyone talk about that I just keep thinking about. And it's the fact that despite everything that happened to him, he stayed kind.
No matter how much trauma he went through, no matter how many people had betrayed the sinners, no matter how much death and evil he'd seen in the City, no matter now much his naivety had been proven to do nothing, no matter how many deaths he claimed… He stayed kind. And even his Certain Future Self didn't become jaded, he's still kind. He didn't give up on kindness. He still sees good in the world.
Sinclair is a kind-hearted gentle person and I think that is his biggest strenght no matter what people who hate on him think. Because if not for his kindness, the sinners wouldn't have shown Don Quixote/Sancho that her dream didn't end, and in many moments where kindness is needed, he's here to provide it.
What strikes me as interesting is how different that is from how he is in the book, where ever since Sinclair got pulled into the world of dark he became more and more depressed and jaded, he lost the kindness and innocence he once had as a child. And yet, our Sinclair didn't.
Why that is? I think it's because our Sinclair has actual support system, friends. In the book at that time of his life he was completely alone and when he had one friend he fucked it up just to be a loner again. But our Sinclair has the sinners, his friends, and say what you want but I genuinely do think sinners care for each other deeply. And I think Certain Sinclair proves that even more, as he says thinking about his bus days was one of the only things that kept him going, gave him hope.
Sinclair stays kind, and that is extremely important.
I'm so tired of how whenever there is an effort to include trans men, cis people think it's about trans women. They always jump through such hoops too when thinking that too
A few years ago some pads brand changed the design of the package to not have the female sign to include people who aren't girls but use pads, cis people were outraged because appearantly in their heads it was to include trans women, so "they can imagine they have periods" or whatever. So many tweets saying "why are we including trans women if they don't even buy it?!!?"
...Ignoring the fact that trans men and nonbinary people who have periods exist.
And now I stumbled upon something similar, a post about how endometrosis affects people of all genders. And the comments? full of outraged people becaue "trans women don't have uteruses they don't menstruate" and debates if they actually can have endometrosis
...Ignoring the fact that trans men and nonbinary people who have endometrosis exist. Literally me, a trans man, and my transmasc boyfriend have endometriosis.
To clarify, this isn't me saying trans women don't deserve to be included in those discussions or shouldn't be included, that's stupid. It just pains me that we are SO invisible that cis people rather jump through hoops to connect such things to trans women instead of seeing that we, trans men, are right there. I'm so sick of feeling like we don't exist, like we're not real, and then being told that our erasure and invisibility is a priviledge.
my friend @jotraxeir (a trans person from uganda who is trying to escape) needs 750,000 UGX for rent in a new home very soon. i dont have the money to help so i hope someone else will. this is time sensitive so i am BEGGING for someone to be able to help my friend as i am not able to help directly at this time. if you are able to help please DM them
750,000 UGX = 200 USD, or 280 AUD (for anyone using a different currency, you can look up conversion rates yourself)
they use paypal xoom which you can use if you have a pre-existing paypal account
the situation is different now but they still need help and im left with pretty much no money right now myself and i am genuinely fucking begging for someone else to help them because being dependent on just me is so dangerous and unsustainable but no matter how many times i ask it seems nobody else will help and my parents are hounding me about my rent and like what the fuck am I meant to do.
i know fully well there's people on this site that would have so much more money than me and are so much more financially secure than me but everyone just scrolls past this shit. this isn't even for ME it's for someone else but of course it all just falls on deaf ears i guess
Please someone help, @jotraxeir just DMed me today and they need urgent help. PLEASE DM them and give them money. I don't know if I can speak of details of what happened but they need medical help as fast as possible. They need 867 USD, please send something, anything will help I'm sure.
I keep seeing this meme on pinterest that's like a person holding the shoulders of a blank character with "male character" written on their face and them saying "I will defy biology and make you pregnant" and I get so pissed everytime I see this. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEFY BIOLOGY. MEN CAN GET PREGNANT. TRANS MEN EXIST. STOP ACTING LIKE MALE PREGNANCY IS SUCH A FANTASY AND IMPOSSIBLE THING. If you want to make this male character pregnant JUST MAKE HIM TRANS YOU DON'T HAVE TO "DEFY BIOLOGY" FOR IT TO BE POSSIBLE.
Just to clarify that I don't think there's anything wrong with making a cis male character pregnant, I think if you do this you're kind of a coward because it's so easy to just make the character trans instead but that's just my own opinion and in the end it's harmless. It's just the fact memes like this keep on insisting that "men can't get pregnant" and it pisses me off when I literally exist, so many real men who can and got pregnant exist.
I know this is a very controversial thing to say but I think the belief that transfems inherently have it worse than transmascs is transandrophobic. I think we both experience similar kinds of oppression along with oppression that is unique to our experiences and trying to decide who has it "better" is not just impossible but absolutely unproductive.
Also the arguments made for this never made sense to me, because it's always something like "transmascs hold privilege over femmes because they don't have to deal with [thing that trans women often deal with]"
Which...okay? Trans women also aren't personally affected by abortion bans, but I wouldn't argue that not having a uterus makes them privileged over trans men. Just because someone doesn't experience a specific kind of oppression another group does, doesn't mean their own oppression is somehow less severe.
We also face violence. They also don't want us in our bathrooms. They also think we're sexual predators. We also have to prostitute ourselves to access care.
Trans people, regardless of their gender, cannot access gendered privileges because none of our genders are recognized or wanted. You are either a cis man or a cis woman or you are wrong and have to be fixed. That is the system we live under.
THIS IS SO TRUE THOUGH I ALWAYS HEADCANONED ANGELA AS SHE/HE TRANSMASC I think her story is such a good transgender allegory, I don't have the brains rn to explain it but YOU GET IT
