until your breathing stops

stucky sideblog for @helioark | 21 he/they | probably nsfw stuff | pfp by jamisonrivv on twitter | starkivist and helioark on ao3

[starkivist]

Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America - All Media Types, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Sam Wilson (Marvel), Tony Stark Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Movie: Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014), Pining, Nightmares, Dealing with PTSD, I promise it has a happy ending, True Love, author's first fic Summary:

“How’s he doing?”

Caught. Steve swallows, though the rush of rising feeling in his stomach isn’t guilt—it’s nervousness, excitement. Awareness bordering on hope. He can tell it shows on his face; he can tell his smile burns something earnest, tell that he walks taller, nowadays. Ever since Bucky’d agreed to stay in the Tower.

Bucky. Waiting for him upstairs. Safe, where Steve can find him. Where Steve can keep him close, shield him from the pain and darkness he’d found the strength to crawl out of. To start crawling out of.

God, but Steve’s proud of his Bucky.

“Rogers?” Natasha’s voice curls upwards in question, bemused.

He can’t help it if his face flames even more; he’s a blusher. “Uh,” he starts, “Bucky? He’s…” and he trails off. Well, shit. How was Bucky?

---

After being so sure that he'd never know Bucky Barnes again, even in this new life he'd been afforded, Steve Rogers is suddenly faced with the miracle of having him again--safe, in Avenger's Tower, where he can recover from HYDRA's conditioning. Still, it's clear that both of them have a long, long way to go to escape what haunts them. OR Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes re-learn how to care for each other. ---- HELLO I wrote something! it’ll get bigger. also better. xoxoxo

[headspace-hotel]

It's not even about canon Bucky it's about the things fanfic writers extrapolated upon that are so tantalizingly visible in the canon after you examine from that lens

using a character who is so physically powerful and dominating to explore the horror of bodily violation and lacking bodily autonomy is so peak and digs into a place of fear and dread and nastiness that is really crisp and unique and rich

there is the horror of being physically transformed into arguably a kind of undead creature, part human and part machine, having his body repaired, maintained, monitored, examined, probed, cut open, modified, experimented on...

the way he stops being a person to his technicians and his handlers, the way he's a weapon that is constructed out of metal and flesh, the way his body isn't his, because his body was salvaged, reconstructed, and repaired so that it could be used

the way he is hollowed out, memory and identity and independent thought burned out of him, until he is just a completely passive thing that is used.

all he knows is that his body is for others to use. he is strapped to an operating table, chained in a windowless basement, curled up in a mildewed cell, kneeling at his handlers' feet, cuffed and restrained in the Chair, every experience reinforces it, he is their weapon and their tool and their lab rat and their tinkering project and their plaything

he is an implacable monster, a thing of dread, a hypercompetent war machine who rips apart cars with his hands and slaughters people effortlessly, with a smooth apex-predator strut that projects pure power, control, and efficacy, and he is powerless and confused and scared

and his lethality is used as an excuse to deny his humanity further, to restrain him and use pain and degradation to control him, because that's the only thing he understands, right?

I am so, so, so, so, so normal about him. The Bucky

[headspace-hotel]

@incandescent-creativity

i never read a fanfic (except really short ones) before either up until 8 months ago

INTO THE PIT WITH ME

[sillybillytime]

And Steve makes the most perfect contrast with Bucky in every way.

Where Bucky was made into a violent killing machine against his wishes, Steve chose it, and he chooses it over and over. Where Bucky’s transformation was slow, methodically pulling him apart atom by atom, Steve had a single, searing moment of Change, his whole being was erased and remade into someone else in an instant. Bucky had time frozen and unfrozen in horrible fits and starts, Steve had everything Change all at once again. Where Bucky is forced to forget, Steve is entirely unable to, having to remember every last detail. Where Bucky is bathed in blood, Steve is forced to be squeaky clean. Bucky hides in the shadows, Steve hides in the light.

Two sides of the same coin, two perfect foils. One is the horror of being Unseen, the other the horror of everyone Looking. Two different ways to have your autonomy stripped, your identity stolen. And they are best friends, the only ones from Before

[stardustrider]

Captain America & The Winter Soldier Captain America: Civil War

[marveldaily]

Captain America: The Winter Soldier | 2014 | dir. Joe Russo, Anthony Russo

[shkretart]

I make them kiss because I can

+ random study

[minothtime]

this is how that one scene in catws went right

[iamnotsebastianstan-archive-dea]

totally platonic ways to show ur platonic bro friend u care platonically - a guide by Steven G. Rogers

1. defy government orders and embark on a one man mission to walk from one country to another to save said platonic bro friend 2. listen to slightly more sensible friend when they suggest perhaps flying rather than walking, then jump out of plane directly into enemy territory to get to the bro friend 3. single handedly defeat a bunch of nazi’s using no more than determination and a tin foil shield to find the bro friend 4. literally jump over fiery pits of near certain death to escape back to relative safety with bro friend 5. refuse to fight for probably the first time in your entire life and drop ur defences rather than hurt ur bro friend any more than he’s already been hurt 6. have a phrase that sounds remarkably like a marriage vow - but obviously in a platonic way bc bro friend- that holds so much significance - platonically - that it resonates even through 70 years of brainwashing and torture and he remembers it before he remembers his own name 7. Become an internationally wanted fugitive but shrug it off like nothing because bro friend is still alive 8. Pull a helicopter out of the sky. With your own two hands. Nothing but ur own strength and determination. 9. Give up being what the world knows you as and expects from you, instead choosing him and choosing yourself. But like. As bro’s.

[fenrir-flamekeeper]

happy pride here’s a collection of my favorite stuckys from the past year xoxo

[winterbonk]

Was just reminded of how insane it was that Steve dropped the shield when facing off against a mind controlled assassin determined to kill him on the off chance that Bucky would stop because Steve gave up. What the fuck is wrong with him. Why did it WORK

[musette22]

True love 💘

[buckrogers]

been thinking a lot about steve and bucky in wakanda during that period between civil war and infinity war and all those morsels we got about skype calls and super secret fly ins under the radar while shuri was working on breaking the conditioning hydra put in his head and my brain can't stop conjuring the missing moments particularly around bucky's incredibly complex feelings toward having versus not having his arm, on the one side he's no longer in possession of the piece of himself that enacted all hydra's bloody dealings but on the other he can't even put both arms around steve to hold him the way he wants to and there's an entire fanfic to be written I think, about that journey to the moment we did see a glimpse of, his reaction to seeing that vibranium arm laid out for him and I gotta wonder about steve's feelings too, watching his best friend go through this new gauntlet, knowing it's necessary for buck to ever see the other side of what hydra did but all but needing to sit on his hands at the same time to stop himself trying to coddle or counteract what the wakandans are trying to do for bucky

it's all those fireside conversations I wonder about we never got to see, all those private moments between the boys when they were able to pry apart some of guarding they've both worn most of their lives and be a little raw and honest with one another, bucky acknowledging he's never going to be completely whole again and steve reiterating the way he probably will for the rest of their lives that he'll take whatever version of bucky barnes he can have, whatever bucky has to offer him because he's lived too long without even the hope of him and he's never doing that again

[valtsv]

fanfic titles be like “we have not touched the stars (nor are we forgiven)” and then you look at the tags & the first one is “anal fisting”

[starkivist]

Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America - All Media Types, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James “Bucky” Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Steve Rogers, James “Bucky” Barnes, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Sam Wilson (Marvel), Tony Stark Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Movie: Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014), Pining, Nightmares, Dealing with PTSD, I promise it has a happy ending, True Love, author’s first fic Summary:

“How’s he doing?”

Caught. Steve swallows, though the rush of rising feeling in his stomach isn’t guilt—it’s nervousness, excitement. Awareness bordering on hope. He can tell it shows on his face; he can tell his smile burns something earnest, tell that he walks taller, nowadays. Ever since Bucky’d agreed to stay in the Tower.

Bucky. Waiting for him upstairs. Safe, where Steve can find him. Where Steve can keep him close, shield him from the pain and darkness he’d found the strength to crawl out of. To start crawling out of.

God, but Steve’s proud of his Bucky.

“Rogers?” Natasha’s voice curls upwards in question, bemused.

He can’t help it if his face flames even more; he’s a blusher. “Uh,” he starts, “Bucky? He’s…” and he trails off. Well, shit. How was Bucky?

—

After being so sure that he’d never know Bucky Barnes again, even in this new life he’d been afforded, Steve Rogers is suddenly faced with the miracle of having him again–safe, in Avenger’s Tower, where he can recover from HYDRA’s conditioning. Still, it’s clear that both of them have a long, long way to go to escape what haunts them. OR Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes re-learn how to care for each other. —- HELLO I wrote something! it’ll get bigger. also better. xoxoxo

[starkivist]

to any who're interested, I still plan to update this!! finishing my degree as we speak, so it might be a minute more, but I've been feeding on stucky fanfic and with every new lovely author I come across my ideas grow.

[shkretart]

Sketches, because I don't have time to finish everything... the work takes a lot of time 😔

[gloromeien]

Snow Patrol

Chapters: 1/7 Fandom: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Matt Murdock, Franklin "Foggy" Nelson, Frank Castle, Riley (Captain America movies) Additional Tags: Shrunkyclunks | Modern Bucky Barnes/Captain America Steve Rogers, Stucky - Freeform, Modern Bucky Barnes, Canon Divergence - Movie: The Avengers (2012), Captain America Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug, Protective Bucky Barnes, Bucky Barnes Feels, Bucky Barnes Has PTSD, Amputee Bucky Barnes, Protective Steve Rogers, Found Family, Brooklyn as a character - Freeform, Punks and jerks being punks and jerks, Fluff and Angst, Domestic Fluff, Steve being the most stubborn stubborn to ever stubborn, Touch-Starved Bucky Barnes, HEA, Happy Ending, winter vibes, Some fluff and humor too, The requisite food porn because it's me, Let me know if there's something missing and I'll add it

Summary: Brooklyn in winter is no one's favorite season. Especially for someone like the recently thawed Steve Rogers, adrift in the twenty-first century after decades on ice, searching for some people to call his own. A chance encounter on a snow-blanketed street one frosty winter night could change all that... if Steve can find a way to ingratiate himself with the gang of colossal fucking assholes who give him no end of grief while serving their community.

Notes: Beautiful friends! <3 I'm back sooner than anticipated because... drumroll, please... I wrote something short! Yes, *me*! Well, short-ish. It's 70 pages in my Word doc, and that is some kind of record. As you can see, there is a total chapter count on this post. Old dogs can learn new tricks, I tell you. ;)

Welcome, welcome to this very wintery fic that I'm now posting in springtime. Mostly so that the winter aspects will go down more smoothly than if I'd posted it in February. I cannot wait for you to meet this Steve (with extra stubborn on top), this Bucky (so freaking brave), and the crew of cranky assholes that become their family. This one is for those of you, like me, who've been out there late at night shoveling several feet of snow, wishing you had someone to help lighten the load (and make you cocoa.) So very excited for you all to read it! Seven chapters, posting once a week. <3 <3 <3

Read Chapter 1

[dollbloom]

Finding out that Captain America 3 was originally meant to be a direct sequel the The Winter Soldier and would’ve focused on Steve and Sam’s search for Bucky, with a focus on Steve and Bucky’s relationship, but was scrapped for Civil War because DC released Batman vs Superman has actually ruined my day. Probably my week.

I’m so upset right now, what the hell.

[starkivist]

:(

[s3ev3enty]

yes i got hyperfixated on marvel again

[my-ny]

Steve (and friends) + text posts pt. 17/?