They may not see, yet we shine

too random/ obsessions: pjo, soC, dps/ writes dumb poems/ consistency as unstable as mental health/ ✨fake scenarios✨ *casually continues fighting w imaginary friends*

[perksofbeingpoet]

guys i'm finishing high school in a few weeks and i'm kinda dreaming of having a big dps tumblr meet up-

IMAGINE ALL THE DPS FANS MEETING AND WATCHING THE MOVIE AND TALKING ABOUT SILLY HEADCANONS AND DOING DPS ACTIVITIES??

[stars-above-cloud]

Pls pls pls I begggg

[stars-above-cloud]

My standards are fictional and I'm not going to lower them, thank you.

[stars-above-cloud]

Someone pls burry an AI inside my head because my brain is obviously trippin'

[thegrimmlibrarian]

If we’re all going completely crazy over percy jackson saying ‘look, I didn’t want to be a half-blood’, I don’t know how we’re going to keep hold of our respective remaining braincells when annabeth says ‘seaweed brain’ and percy responds with ‘wise girl’ 

[nicolodigenovas]

Are you a ‘Oh my god he’s a kid’ (ecstatic because it’s the first sign of a faithful adaptation that will flourish across the years following Percy as he grows up) or a ‘Oh my god he’s a kid’ (horrified being now grown up by the cyclic realisation that awful things are going to happen to a scrawny teenager) pjo fan or both

[ihopeucomehomesoon]

cant wait for when i become a real person

[stars-above-cloud]

Trust me, it ain't fun

[stars-above-cloud]

Having a mom that acts like a child and needs to be babied 24/7<<<<

[furiousgoldfish]

Common experiences with abusive mom:

hyper fixates on your appearance, constantly makes you incredibly self-aware of how you look and what others are thinking of you

compares you to other people, to show you what you should be more like (or look more like), making you feel like you’re the only worthless person

tries to control and micromanage your appearance, threatens you with missing out this and that if you don’t look up to her standards

uses you as emotional and psychological support

tells you how you are the only one who understands and loves her, forcing you to bear the burden of living as her “support system”

constantly makes you feel guilty for everything that is happening to her, makes you feel as if you owe her to make the world a bearable place for her

shares traumatic stories from her past that you are too young to understand and react to, expects unconditional emotional support and therapy from you even when you are a child

if the dad is abusive too, accuses you of being “just like him” or tells you that you remind her of him when she lashes out on you

also if father or another person is abusing you, she stands on their side or just pretends not to see or notice it’s going on, later tells you it’s your fault

silences your opinions with “you don’t know anything”

shows exaggerated concern for you for purpose of controlling where you go and what you do, makes you feel obliged to avoid certain places or situations so “she wouldn’t worry” but it extends to stuff you would usually be able to do safely, like hanging out with friends or traveling or having a social life

forces you to center her well being and her happiness more than your own and if you do anything for your own good, you will be called out for not thinking of her first

doesn’t feel responsible for providing you with decent meals or wardrobe, doesn’t notice when you’re hungry or lacking in basic resources, but lashes out at you if anyone else notices for “embarrassing her”

or alternatively, is crazy controlling over when you’re allowed to eat, what you’re allowed to eat, and what resources you are allowed to have

pushes you into interests and activities she wants you to have, disregards and criticizes everything you do that she doesn’t like

her behavior towards you changes in public, she becomes must more concerned over how other people perceive her relationship to you, is generally nicer if other people are listening

feigns concern towards you in front of others, in private keeps telling you how you’ll never make anything out of yourself

tries very hard to keep you at home forever if possible, refuses to teach you basic life skills, denies you resources you need to learn how to make something on your own, convinces you that you are in fact, helpless and incapable of survival without her, insists that you be dependent on her

breaks into your privacy, demands sensitive information about your relationships, conversations and thoughts, everything you do not feel comfortable about telling her because you know she’ll use it against you

accuses you of being a failure as a child, for being “heartless” and not caring about her at all, reminds you of everything she’s been thru only to raise you, talks as if she sacrificed herself for you

has periods where she doesn’t seem to even notice you, then in other times is completely obsessed with you and wont let you out of her sight

acts aggressive at times but always with pretense that her violence doesn’t count because she’s not physically able to seriously injure you, disregards all psychological and mental wounds of being assaulted and hurt by your own mother

acts like you’re an extension of her and have no existence or life of your own, refuses to accept any individuality and tries to prevent you from growing up and becoming your own person

makes you feel too guilty to say no to her, uses every social convention to make you feel as if you’re using and discarding your poor mother when all you want is to create a single boundary

refuses to acknowledge any of your successes but brings up your failures as a proof that nothing will ever become of you

insists over and over again that all she does is out of concern and love

[stars-above-cloud]

Idc what you say, this is Jason Grace.

Goodbye

[stars-above-cloud]

Why is no one giving me a lollipop and holding my hand?

[stars-above-cloud]

Kaz probably misses being called demjin

[stars-above-cloud]

You know what boils my blood? Fooking Jan Van Eck. Forget about how he made all the crows go through hell but the kind of dad he is... that makes me angrier than anything. Like why tf did you have to make Wylan feel like shi- all his life and make him feel like he would never be enough every. single. dam. day? And then when he knows he will have another kid, he decides to 'send him away' or shall I say, get rid of him? And then we find out he also got his mom locked up in a mental hospital. Like wtf is wrong with that guy?

[stars-above-cloud]

I just want them to be real

[stars-above-cloud]

As a perfectionist, I do not know where to start. Anything.

[stars-above-cloud]

When Piper said, ‘What’s the point of being gods if you have to rely on puny mortals to do your bidding?’ I almost bowed down and worshipped her because she was the only godess there🧎🏾‍♀️

[stars-above-cloud]

Annabeth: so, they've set a trap for us

Percy: so what's the plan?

Annabeth: we're gonna walk right into it

Percy:

[stars-above-cloud]

*writes a poem*

*proud I wrote a good poem*

*hates the poem*