A chaotic mishmash of things I like and things I made.

The stories, art, opinions, and miscellaneous reblogs of novelist, artist, and fanfic writer Stephanie O'Brien. If you want to support peace in Israel and Palestine, I encourage you to check out Standing Together and A Land For All.

[heartwarminganimals]

BLEE

[enthusiasticconsentacles]

posts I want to send to Steven

[frontmansdefender]

wigginsgolf on instagram

[baddywronglegs]

A friend wondered why he hadn't heard back from a potential client after he emailed them following what he thought was a promising meeting.

Checked the email he'd sent them.

"It was nice to meet you toady."

Ah that'd be it.

[sab3rtooth]

patterns left by woodworms on driftwood

[allthecanadianpolitics]

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/sudbury/white-nationalist-second-sons-northern-ontario-9.7242451

A white nationalist group visiting Canadian locations is trying to normalize extremism, says a former neo-Nazi | CBC News

White nationalist groups often raise local issues in an effort to gain legitimacy, promoting extremist ideas and trying to recruit new membe

[brightgoat]

Minecraft fashion lineup

(I drew this before the copper update and had to go back and shove copper in there-)

[picsthatmakeyougohmm]

[elodieunderglass]

Thanks @myrinthinks !!

[hellopuns]

The Monday Period: Part 1 of 6

Part 1: you are here

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

[hollowedskin]

I got a 4 min long video of Kimchi dreaming today, so here's a clip

You get the whole walk cycle and the little sprint at the end.

Sometimes her sprints last for like 4 or 5 seconds and she can shoot herself off the couch or into a wall if she gets a grip with her back claws. If she does it next to a wall, her head smacking into it sounds like someone is trying to break into the house. She doesn't wake up.

Later in the dream she injured her paw and was limping, and earlier she caught something and ate it.

[hollowedskin]

[crowboy-bebop]

unauthorized fucking thing!!!!!!

(warning: loud chirping throughout)

source: hellgate osprey cam

[curlicuecal]

[winding-maze]

"Blackbird" - personal work, inspired by my hometown. Blackbirds are my favourite - they sing so beautifully.

[akindplace]

do you guys remember when we googled something and we would get results that were actually related to the things we searched

[delphinidin4]

[ravioliet]

"why can't they just be friends?" not in the homophobic sense, but in the "in your need to center romance in everything you are missing the whole point of the media in question" sense

[draculasstrawhat]

Also, I don’t want to derail this, but… just because a character has been in love or experienced sexual desire even if it is mutual it doesn’t mean they can’t ‘just’ be friends.

Sometimes friendship is the endgame. The rest is just process.

[lamignonette]

[euphuistically]

This is called a spiny flower mantis and they're real and look like a dream??

[everyonehasamnesia]

As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

[bravecrab]

"Potential" is such a manipulative word, in that it implies that if you weren't failing to maintain your personal responsibilities to society, you would not only be good, you would be great, you would be a success.

It shows that we are conditioned from a young age to believe that if we don't do what is expected of us, that it is a personal failing, regardless of if those expectations are actually achievable without inflicting harm upon ourselves.

Our mental health is in shreds because we're expected to live on a knife-edge of endless growing goals and painful failure, and we're supposed to get through it all as individuals.

[luxiomahariel]

i just discovered this gorgeous progress flag design by FlailingSpade and was inspired to build upon it

the colorblind and photosensitive friendly color scheme comes from the star of david progress flag by dykeboytism

both of these flags will be placed under the read more just in case either link ends up not working

id like to think of this as the sunrise progress flag : >

[luxiomahariel]

pixeled it :3

[ace-aussie-asshole]

THEY PUT SEX MAGIC BACK IN THE FLAG (and a secret third thing??)!!!!

[luxiomahariel]

secret third thing is killing me thank you lmao 💀

i forgot that not everyone is aware that before he passed, gilbert baker added a lavender stripe to the top of his flag that represents diversity

[annabelle--cane]

I think a lot of people spent their childhoods being very deliberately forced out of their comfort zones by parents / teachers / whomever in a way that was just deeply unpleasant and degrading and so, when they reach young adulthood and are finally allowed real control over their lives, become set on only doing things they know they're comfortable with forever. that's a really important thing to be able to do, especially if you're so used to having your boundaries routinely ignored that you aren't even certain what you like vs what you can bear, so I absolutely see why a person would have a negative reaction to being told that discomfort is good: it can very easily sound like being told that all that work they've been doing to prioritze their needs for the first time ever is Bad and Selfish, actually. and to that I will say two things:

one: as long as you aren't hurting or, like, being a dick to anyone, just staying in your comfort zone isn't an immoral action. if you just want to read one type of book (or just fanfiction), or just eat one type of food, or just watch one type of movie, or not go to new types of social events, you aren't being a bad person for that, and if people say that, they are soundly wrong and just trying to get a self-righteousness kick.

two: trying new things because you want to expand yourself feels a hell of a lot different than trying new things because you're being forced to. you'll feel better about trying new foods if you know you have a back up familiar one in case you can't stomach the new one, it's easier to read new books if you can experiment with audio versions or reading it in little five-page chunks by yourself, you can breathe a lot easier going somewhere new if you aren't chained there for three hours because your parent is your ride home, etc.

tl;dr: new things are good. I get why you might not want to try new things, and that's fine, but it's also more comfortable to try new things as an adult with your own agency so, yeah, what have you got to lose by trying a weird old art film?

[chaoticneutralnpc]

one thing I’ll add: the secret hack for learning to do new things when you weren’t allowed to have boundaries as a kid is 1) always give yourself an out, and 2) practice using them LIBERALLY.

Trying a new food? You can stop at a single bite. Bored at the cinema? You can walk out mid-movie. Really want to go to a friend’s party but you’re also exhausted? You can plan on just going for 30 minutes, and you can leave even sooner if that ends up being too long.

The more you practice using outs liberally, the more you reinforce to your body that you are capable of protecting yourself.

I only started being able to go to weekly activites consistently once I started giving myself an out at every step. i.e:

- I’ve gotten ready and then not left the house

- I’ve driven there and then driven straight back

- I’ve left halfway through lessons

- I’ve modified or plain skipped the exercises that were flaring my POTS, or making me feel dysphoric, or that I just didn’t feel like doing that day.

The result? I’ve attended the most sessions out of any weekly hobby I’ve tried to do for the past several years. And it’s actually getting a little easier every week.

[kurulover]

count of kids I’ve successfully distracted by being really into the stuff they like; 3

[kurulover]

so clearly I need to brush up on my Roblox

[kurulover]

Recreation of the incident